~Morning Attacks~

I keep saying I'm gonna do better and write every

day like I'm sposta.. But, I get behind, then its late

and then I get tired and have to shut down... and

I don't get here.. I will try to do better... :-)

I get these attacks in the morning, soon as I start

to fix the cats food. By the time I have that done

I'm nauseated, my chest hurts, my arms ache and

my jaw feels frozen.. After the nausea stops then

I break out into a massive sweat...then I am really

tired and my back actually hurts... I took my BP

right after one of these and it was way up.. 193/111.

That's explosive...

I got an artice about aspirin and when to take it.. It says

most take one in the morning, when really it needs to be

taken in the evening.. that way it is still working in the

morning when most heart attacks occur... Ive started to

take mine at night in hopes it will help stop these attacks.

I worry one of them wont stop and then its over...

My deadline was in January, that Dr told me on my birth

day last year I would be lucky to see another year...I'm past

that.. But I will tell you, I wish he hadnt told me that.. Its

at the back of my mind constantly, with every attack I

think "this is it"... I don't and didn't want to know when my

time is up, I want this life to be over in a flash.. no pain.

No warning.. just over... and I hope and pray that doesn't

happen for a LONG time... Theres lots I wanna do~!~

One of the things I wanna do is eat lunch.. This most

GORGEOUS WEEBLE is hungry....so I'm closing this

for today and hopefully I will be back tomorrow...

Keep well and God Bless....

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~Wired

I am now wired for sound.. I got my life alert. It

didn't take him long to install it and to tell me how

it works.. Very easy.. Makes me feel safer having

it, I hope I never have to use it....but I fear I will.

This is short today cuz I'm writing in between

my monitor flashing..It goes off for 10 minutes,

comes back on for 5, shuts down for a minute

then starts to flash...off and on.. Driving me nutz.

So, now I am gonna havta get a new monitor.. My

keyboard is shot, my mouse doesn't like coffee,

and my speakers? Well, all the songs sound like

2 year old singing ... Only thing working is my

big box.. I shouldn't say anything, the way my

stuff is falling apart, it will go next! Lets hope

it doesn't...

Otherwise, I'm doin ok..Bad days are outnumbering

the good lately, but I'm hangin in there, I refuse to

give up! I'm still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE, no matter

what falls apart... Keep well and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~BUSY BUSY~

This has been a hectic week.. Ive had lots of company and

lots going on...Travis came Tuesday, Ryan came yesterday

and today of course is Fanesse's day (nurse) and Rebecca

came today.. Busy, busy... AND today , at 4:30 they are

coming to put in my life alert.

They called on Monday and said they would come today

to install everything and I need to have my contact

numbers ready... The only 2 they need are the Hospice

and 911... COA is paying for me to have this.. Its a big

relief off my mind.. When we lose power I lose everything,

phone and all , so this is a good thing.. I will feel safer.

I'm averaging every few days or so having an attack.. They

are gradually getting worse and lasting longer.. Then after

I break out in a sweat and am extremely tired and have

no choice but to lay down...

My left stump is not good either, the scar is extremely

red and I worry it will open... I keep a special cream on

it and doesn't help.. Fanesse is going to get some special

stuff for it so it doesn't get any worse.. Its very painful

too, Dutch walked on it last night and I about went thru

the roof it hurt so much...

So all that being said, I'm still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE

and I have NOT given up.. Each bad day still is a day and

I'm grateful for every one, good or bad... Keep well

and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~Furnace went Out~ :-(

Ive let the days slip by me again.. I'm getting so bad

at this...I will try to do better, its just that my life is

not the most active anymore that doesn't give me a

lot to write about...I guess my life is dull.. :-)

Although, Thursday night, my furnace quit. I went

out to the kitchen and it was like going outside! I

didn't pay attention as to how long it was off before

I realized it was bloody COLD! I could see my breath!

I called Carl, after I put on 2 sweaters and got a

blanket for over my stumps, and he came over...

Carl tried but hes not a furnace fixer.. He tried to

reach Joe (landlord) but he was in a meeting and

not reachable.. I called a local heating company,

named MANCHESTER, some woman came on the

phone, I told her what was wrong, that I was freezing,

and that I was in a wheelchair and this was NOT

good for me.. She politely told me . too bad, we cant

come over unless you get your landlords permission

for us to come over... ... I was SO mad.. I told her

Joe was unreachable and GUARANTEED her that

they would be paid, still no go.. She did NOT care

and refused to come for fear Joe would sue them.

WHAT A CROCK... I was furious....my blood pressure

went sky high I know it...

So, I called Carl again and he got in his truck and

went to where Joe was having a meeting.. Joe has

a cell but doesn't use it and no one knows the #..

sheesh.. why have it then.. So, Carl came over here

as soon as he got back, I told him what the woman

at Manchester said and he said "Don't worry, I

called another guy, hes on his way."

This guy and his wife came and in half an hour my

furnace was fixed and it was warm again.. It was

so cold in here the boys kept hiding to keep warm.

He did a good job and even changed the filter for

me. They offered me a baby kittie since they saw

my two and thought I needed another, till I told

them I have 7 outside too ! So, its fixed..I'm

warm and all is well..

So that was the excitement this week.. I guess

I do have some excitement :-) Penny made pastys

yesterday, 3 of them.. 2 are for my boy, hes coming

up tomorrow.. I ate one.. Penny is sure getting good

at making them.. :-) So, again my apologies for not

writing in awhile, but I'm ok, I'm still a most

GORGEOUS WEEBLE, keep well and God Bless..

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~Post # 2110~

Well, I was snowed in for 2 days, it just steady snowed.

Finally yesterday Penny got here.. We were glad to see

her, The kids and I both were just about out of food...

We arent now! Its beautiful today and all that snow is

melting fast .. :-)

Ive been looking for a place online where I can get a

will and print it out that will be legal.. Its not that I

have tons of valuable stuff, but I want to know where

it goes and to who.. whom... :-)

Each one of these attacks I have weakens me.. I can

tell.. and they are maybe not as often, but when I do

have one its really bad, a lot of pain.. Fanesse is going

to get some pain meds for me, just in case it gets too

bad... My back, after one of these, is VERY sore and

lasts for a long time....I feel that I am weaker that

when I do something tires me out alot...I can remember

what I felt before I had that BIG one ... so I can

tell.... I do have some questions for Fanesse when she

gets here about the tests they did.. Something doesn't

seem right..She'll know...

Lunch is ready, goulash today...I'm still a most GORGEOUS
WEEBLE, keep well and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~Not a Good Start Today~

I really had a rough start this morning.. I get very

nauseated and then the chest pain, arm pain, back

pain starts.. This lasts for 20 minutes or so.. When

the pain eases I break out in a cold sweat, and then

I am extremely tired. Some days these attacks are

really severe, then I can go sometimes 3 days or so

without this happening... I don't like it...

Fanesse, my nurse came this morning and I told her
I wasn't feeling well, I didn't have to tell her, she

said she knew when she looked at me. My blood

pressure was extremely high, 193/111.. VERY high.

She ordered me to bed for the rest of the day.

Which as soon as I post this is just what I'm gonna

do...

I spilled a whole cuppa coffee yesterday. It went all

over my desk and on my mouse.. Now my right click

doesn't work.. All my stuff is falling apart.. My speakers

are very bad, my keyboard is sticky and now my mouse.

Always something.. How do I get all these things I need

when I have a gas bill that's gonna take every spare

dime. Always something..

Time to post and get that rest the nurse ordered. I'm

still a GORGEOUS WEEBLE, just a tad sickly today...

Keep well and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....

~snow~ :-(

I'm sitting here writing this and every few minutes

I look up to see if its still snowing...which it is... I had

NO idea we were gonna get this, but then I don't watch

the news or weather.. I listen to the radio and I guess

I missed that yesterday... oh well.. we got snow...
you see Peeker, below is Graybelle, the white is Tigger, the orange is
Fuzz.

The black cat is a new outsider.. In fact I have 3 new

outsiders. 2 big black ones and one small black and

white that looks like Dinky... I named the kittie that

stays in the garage and peeks out thru the rip in

the tarp.. Peeker, that's what I named her...She

wants to come up here and she will, but not if she

sees anyone.. Poor thing, at least she comes for food.

I'm waiting for a friend of mine to come for a visit

today.. Becky.. She was my first caseworker with DHS.

She was the best..always took care of business.. she

retired but we still are friends.. Shes an animal lover,

and gives a lot of time to ARF.. She has 2 or 3 cats

and I think a couple dogs... With this weater she may

not venture here...

Well, I'm gonna go and eat some linguine with sauce

that Penny made yesterday.. If this snow keeps on

she may not make it tomorrow... I hope she does.

I'm still a most GORGEOUS WEEBLE, keep well

and God Bless...

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....