Some Information...
Morning~!~ 7 am on a saturday morning and i am up sitting here doing this...Hmmm
is this a sign of my exciting week end ahead? lolol...
I was so pleased to read the comments and that there are questions ..I dont mind
answering any kind of questions...I am very open about this and I dont mind telling
about my feelings or what its like...or how & why this happeded to me, or who i am.
First some info about me...I am 59 years old...single..well divorced, 4 years now..we
split up before my amputations..I had been ill for a long while and my ex was not
dealing with a seriously ill wife..and after my triple heart bypass asked for a divorce.
He had no idea i guess that I could recover and get well again..His loss lolol...
I have PVD..Perpherial Vascular Disease. I was diagnosed in 94. I started having leg
pain when I walked and then when I sat was even worse..Felt like they were asleep
trying to wake up...some times the pain was awful..Since 94 both legs have been by
passed at least 6 times...each..and then the end of 2000 I fell and broke my right
leg...just before thanksgiving...that jan of 2001 , the 11 to be exact...they had to
amputate that leg below knee...my foot had died.
In Feb , the 22, my stump was infected..a severe infection set in and the pain was
horrible..I was rushed to hospital and the leg was amputated above the knee...I
have a stump that is approximately 8 inches long now... I skated thru 2001 with
no major issues other than fighting the severe depression..from losing so much..
home, friends.. husband..health, my leg..I dont remember alot..my sister has told
me many horror stories of how i was...
In November 2000...I woke with a slight pain in my left leg..as the day wore on,
and by evening I was screaming in pain..rushed to hospital and was told that I
was going to have to lose my left leg..it had no blood going to it at all...I refused
to have it done immediately as I wanted to wait for my sister to come and be
with me...The next morning at 6 am they removed my left leg...mid thigh..I
have about 13 inches left...
To actually describe how it feels to be without them? Well..my brain doesnt
or hasnt accepted the fact that they are gone..and has just totally DENIED
the fact they are ! I have TOLD it repeatedly , maybe its the Blonde thing
lol...I have phantoms..but My legs still feel they are there.
They do feel differently however..they feel shorter..more cramped and my
feet feel like they are on backwards..lol. If you walk to close to the front of
my chair i pull them back out of the way.. I can move them still..(the
invisible part) i can swing them side to side..but I find I cant kick out to the
front..which is strange...but true...
Enjoyable aspects? hmmm well, i do have a caregiver now..i get out of doing
alot of cleaning which is a treat, i still do most of it tho...and I will admit..I
dont have to work anymore, I guess you could say i have early retire
ment.. I dont miss going to work every day...Being online is far more enjoyable
although i have seriously considered starting my own sewing business back
up ..just so I can get a few things i need ..like a printer, and a new monitor...
and replace my perfume!!!! lol
I love to sew...I can make just about anything from clothes to crafts..The most
enjoyable thing about being a seamstress I can make one of a kind clothing like
no one else has and THAT part i enjoy...I like to dress up and look nice and to
shop at wal mart ( which is my expense limit) 9 million other people have the
same clothes.. well if i make my own..NO ONE has what i do...I dont wear jeans
or slacks..99% of the time i wear skirts..and tops..i prefer silk..much easier to move
in and slides easier...
I dont know how tall i am ..i was 5'4" .. so i guess just minus a couple feet and
you will know how tall i am now lol..:-) Ive not measured and Nope i dont know
how much i weigh other than a tad too much, no specifics there..sorry lol
Well enough of my saga for today.. I plan to do some ebay searching for a new 3in1
see what i can find..and I should clean...but its saturday, it can wait...lol. BTW..i do
have 2 loyal companions.. My boys as i call them..LittleBoy & Dutch...my cats...
they are wonderful company for me...and somedays worse than kids, but a lot of
entertainment & work for me and Dutch is a stinker...he keeps me on my toes so
to speak...they are very spoiled..I live with them...
Well off to start my saturday...Hope this little tidbit of info answers some questions
and a Hi to you Gabby ...thank you for reading and posting . Y'all take care now...
Always,
Lois
is this a sign of my exciting week end ahead? lolol...
I was so pleased to read the comments and that there are questions ..I dont mind
answering any kind of questions...I am very open about this and I dont mind telling
about my feelings or what its like...or how & why this happeded to me, or who i am.
First some info about me...I am 59 years old...single..well divorced, 4 years now..we
split up before my amputations..I had been ill for a long while and my ex was not
dealing with a seriously ill wife..and after my triple heart bypass asked for a divorce.
He had no idea i guess that I could recover and get well again..His loss lolol...
I have PVD..Perpherial Vascular Disease. I was diagnosed in 94. I started having leg
pain when I walked and then when I sat was even worse..Felt like they were asleep
trying to wake up...some times the pain was awful..Since 94 both legs have been by
passed at least 6 times...each..and then the end of 2000 I fell and broke my right
leg...just before thanksgiving...that jan of 2001 , the 11 to be exact...they had to
amputate that leg below knee...my foot had died.
In Feb , the 22, my stump was infected..a severe infection set in and the pain was
horrible..I was rushed to hospital and the leg was amputated above the knee...I
have a stump that is approximately 8 inches long now... I skated thru 2001 with
no major issues other than fighting the severe depression..from losing so much..
home, friends.. husband..health, my leg..I dont remember alot..my sister has told
me many horror stories of how i was...
In November 2000...I woke with a slight pain in my left leg..as the day wore on,
and by evening I was screaming in pain..rushed to hospital and was told that I
was going to have to lose my left leg..it had no blood going to it at all...I refused
to have it done immediately as I wanted to wait for my sister to come and be
with me...The next morning at 6 am they removed my left leg...mid thigh..I
have about 13 inches left...
To actually describe how it feels to be without them? Well..my brain doesnt
or hasnt accepted the fact that they are gone..and has just totally DENIED
the fact they are ! I have TOLD it repeatedly , maybe its the Blonde thing
lol...I have phantoms..but My legs still feel they are there.
They do feel differently however..they feel shorter..more cramped and my
feet feel like they are on backwards..lol. If you walk to close to the front of
my chair i pull them back out of the way.. I can move them still..(the
invisible part) i can swing them side to side..but I find I cant kick out to the
front..which is strange...but true...
Enjoyable aspects? hmmm well, i do have a caregiver now..i get out of doing
alot of cleaning which is a treat, i still do most of it tho...and I will admit..I
dont have to work anymore, I guess you could say i have early retire
ment.. I dont miss going to work every day...Being online is far more enjoyable
although i have seriously considered starting my own sewing business back
up ..just so I can get a few things i need ..like a printer, and a new monitor...
and replace my perfume!!!! lol
I love to sew...I can make just about anything from clothes to crafts..The most
enjoyable thing about being a seamstress I can make one of a kind clothing like
no one else has and THAT part i enjoy...I like to dress up and look nice and to
shop at wal mart ( which is my expense limit) 9 million other people have the
same clothes.. well if i make my own..NO ONE has what i do...I dont wear jeans
or slacks..99% of the time i wear skirts..and tops..i prefer silk..much easier to move
in and slides easier...
I dont know how tall i am ..i was 5'4" .. so i guess just minus a couple feet and
you will know how tall i am now lol..:-) Ive not measured and Nope i dont know
how much i weigh other than a tad too much, no specifics there..sorry lol
Well enough of my saga for today.. I plan to do some ebay searching for a new 3in1
see what i can find..and I should clean...but its saturday, it can wait...lol. BTW..i do
have 2 loyal companions.. My boys as i call them..LittleBoy & Dutch...my cats...
they are wonderful company for me...and somedays worse than kids, but a lot of
entertainment & work for me and Dutch is a stinker...he keeps me on my toes so
to speak...they are very spoiled..I live with them...
Well off to start my saturday...Hope this little tidbit of info answers some questions
and a Hi to you Gabby ...thank you for reading and posting . Y'all take care now...
Always,
Lois
posted by Lois @ 6:53 AM
5 Comments:
At 7:46 PM,
Anonymous said…
Thanks for sharing that with the world :)
At 11:46 AM,
Anonymous said…
unbelievable - i like your story and please send some information where i can contact you
At 11:47 AM,
Anonymous said…
my great wish - to be a double amputee - unbelievable - but true - please go ahead - sharing your life with us.
At 4:30 PM,
Anonymous said…
lois, i also thank you for sharing with us.
btw, on the printer front:
i have owned "e" and "l'
brand, and they were both
junk. my current hp just
keeps on trucking. maybe
you could find one used, to
save some $ , and it's a
lot easier to find refilled/3rd party ink cartridges.
you might need a higher quality one to print patterns, etc. just thought
i'd share my experiences
regards,
lancastercounty
At 7:59 AM,
Lois said…
Thanks for your comments..nice to know you are reading..makes me feel great.
Wishing to be an amputee is such a
personal feeling that its hard
to comment on, as the loss of my legs was the same loss I felt at losing my parents, my sisters, my loved ones. To
want them to be gone? No.never, but If I had to choose what parts of my body I HAD to lose, I would choose
perhaps my legs, all they did were walk. I need my ears, eyes,arms, they are more important i think. but
for me. I can try to understand a
feeling you may have to WANT to be
like me. YOU cannot fathom WHAT it
is like on a daily basis. Go find
one to live with and watch, its not
easy and the pain NEVER STOPS.EVER.
I wish you the best tho.
I still dont have a printer, sadly,
I worry about saving my stories. I
am going to learn how to put stuff
on a cd.My 3/1 will scan & copy but
when i go to print it like hangs up.
I have a tendency to adjust things
too much and they end up being worse. Thats why i am SO glad they
came up with battery watches I have
so many i wound too tight. lolol.
Thanks for the hints tho!
always, Lois
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