~Morning Attacks~

I keep saying I'm gonna do better and write every

day like I'm sposta.. But, I get behind, then its late

and then I get tired and have to shut down... and

I don't get here.. I will try to do better... :-)

I get these attacks in the morning, soon as I start

to fix the cats food. By the time I have that done

I'm nauseated, my chest hurts, my arms ache and

my jaw feels frozen.. After the nausea stops then

I break out into a massive sweat...then I am really

tired and my back actually hurts... I took my BP

right after one of these and it was way up.. 193/111.

That's explosive...

I got an artice about aspirin and when to take it.. It says

most take one in the morning, when really it needs to be

taken in the evening.. that way it is still working in the

morning when most heart attacks occur... Ive started to

take mine at night in hopes it will help stop these attacks.

I worry one of them wont stop and then its over...

My deadline was in January, that Dr told me on my birth

day last year I would be lucky to see another year...I'm past

that.. But I will tell you, I wish he hadnt told me that.. Its

at the back of my mind constantly, with every attack I

think "this is it"... I don't and didn't want to know when my

time is up, I want this life to be over in a flash.. no pain.

No warning.. just over... and I hope and pray that doesn't

happen for a LONG time... Theres lots I wanna do~!~

One of the things I wanna do is eat lunch.. This most

GORGEOUS WEEBLE is hungry....so I'm closing this

for today and hopefully I will be back tomorrow...

Keep well and God Bless....

Always, Lois ****

 "God Bless You", is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again.....