~Gonna Phone~

Well the start of another week. I am planning to phone my

Dr. first thing in the morning and find out why I have not

heard anything about the home nurse coming.. If the Dr.

wanted that blood work right away why hasnt the nurse or

the company that is sending one contacted me?.. I think

the nurse at the Drs. office maybe over looked that. I

should have been contacted by now.. I know that I will

mention to them the affect this anti depressant has on me.
I dont like the way it has slowed me down so drastically.

All I want to do is sleep.. And I have NEVER been like this

before. My other medication I used..it KEPT me up and

going.. gave me energy...and I enjoyed my time awake..I

have even noticed that I am remembering dreams..and I

dont like what I am dreaming even.. The dreams have not

been the best the past few days..

I know the blood pressure pills are working as its at a good

level ..goes up and down a bit..but not outrageously dangerous

I have a monitor and I take it every morning.. and its been ok..

The thyroid..part of the sleepyness could be from the Thryroid.

being back on the pills I should not be tired.. I wasnt before I went

back on them..I was fine..so I still think the sleepyness is from the

anti depressant.. its a new kind she said..Im on the middle dose

now..and next week go up to the higher..and I honestly dont know

if I want to go there. I will talk to the nurse or Dr. before I do tho I

do know that...

Before my mother committed suicide..she was on the anti depressant

Prozac.. I had no idea she was on it until after she died.. I know I can

just about tell you when she went on it tho.. as she changed so much..
she drove into a telephone pole.. into a snow bank.. couldnt tell time..

and worst of all hallucinated.. seeing ropes hanging in the windows...

and then she took her own life. I still say was that. She was put on that

by her former Dr when she felt the one she was seeing wasnt helping

her thru her depression at losing my Dad..She had such a hard time

accepting his death and I felt so sorry for her.. but there was nothing I

could really do for her.Other than be there every day like , we, my

ex and I would go over every single night to sit with her for a couple
hrs and watch tv or talk about what we did that day and it helped
her or so we thought.. which I guess it really didnt..she and my dad
were married for 56 years.. thats a long time.. then to suddenly be
with out the other. well it had to be hard and to even try to understand
thats like trying to understand or explain what its like to suddenly be
an amputee..you cant.

I havent eaten today, as usual and I thought . well I thought I had
better post while I was still awake enough to do it LOL. If I try to write

when I am really sleepy no telling what I would write lol. I do know I'M

hungry tho. maybe I will splurge and make my favorite since it is early

yet.. I havent had my fries n gravy in a while, sounds good too :-) but

then when dont they to me lol...I hope THAT day NEVER comes lol...

time to hit the publish and say Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? luv ya..and Thanks..

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again....