~Lookin Good~

My dining room and living room look SO nice!!! Raelynn worked

so hard today bless her heart.. She yelled at me for doing it yesterday.

But well she knows me, If I see something Im gonna try to get it or

do it..lol.. But it looks just wonderful in there I am so pleased..all thats

really left to do is wash the pictures on the wall.. If I feel ok tomorrow I

will put some polish on my cedar chest.. I had a ton of stuffed animals
I had gotten when I was in the hellhome..I gave them to Rae, her sons

house burnt down and the kids lost most everything..and theres a little

girl..about 7 or so I think ..and so I told Rae to see if she might like to

have some of them they are so cute and were my buddies :-).

When I was in the hellhome.. I had all these stuffed animals at the foot

of my bed..when I would hallucinate I imagined them staring at me..

that they really were people. I would talk to them..but they never would

answer ~!~ lol The one of all my stuffed animals..was a white cat..she

looks real..they took her from me when I came home from hospital they

said I had too much in my room was a fire hazard so they went thru it

while I was not there and packed it up..When I got out of hospital and

got back to the hellhome I was so upset my animals were gone..they

took my favorite blankets..some of the things I used to do..books etc..

all because they said I had too much in my room..It was them just being

mean..I cried and told my sister. She came the next day, and needless

to say I had my things back while she was there.. when they handed

me my white cat back I held her so close and cried. I used to talk to her

and hold her.she was real to me..and I love this cat..even though its only

stuffed she looks so real. I will never forget how cruel they were to me..

They had no right to just go into my room pack up what they wanted

I think they just wanted to go thru my things. They hated me there..all

because I would tell of the mistreatment we got..

Yesterday I was so tired I couldnt stand myself.. ALL I wanted to do was

sleep.. I fell asleep here at my computer even.. I guess I just push myself

and then ALL this stress I just am NOT handling it like I know I should.
My sister called last nite to check on me..which was really nice of her ,

she is having so much trouble with a rash on her leg..I told her to be sure

to keep a close eye on them.. Worries me.. I think she would have a real

hard time adjusting if she lost a leg.I really do.I pray that doesnt happen

to her..but she is a diabetic..and now with this rash ..I worry ..and she is

a tad overweight as well which doesnt help.. But was nice of her to call

and check on me.. I still have heard nothing..and I havent heard about

when a nurse will come. I called about my power chair and they will let

me know when they can come out to fix it or replace it.. Its 5 years so

they may get me a new one I dont know..

I am trying to get used to these new pills.. I am not sure if its them that

is kickin my butt and making me so tired or its just all this awful stress

just finally saying "ok Lois, lets unwind and get calmed down" and

making me sleep..I guess its a good way to get caught up and unwind..
i still have this hanging over me..and I honestly DONT know what to do

about it..well all I can do is just wait for the ball to fall.. I am going to get

that paper back from Chiris tho saying I was going to move from here

in 30 days..we did that just because of HUD..incase I did get evicted

which I havent heard a word from him today either and I know hes in

the building..so I guess Im home free but I wish they would tell me...
These pills have kept my blood pressure at a reasonable level not the

best..but its not bad either.. I take it twice a day to keep a check.. I can

almost tell when it goes up, I get a headache..and get very tired too..so

I think all these things combined that are finally getting to me.. When

the nurse comes she will monitor me alot closer I guess...

Well I am kinda hungry lunch was a pork chop and scalloped potatoes

that were not even cooked..still raw.. wasnt the best lunch..so I need a

small snack ..but I dunno what I want..so I guess its the old "seek and

ye shall find" routine.. and I KNOW theres something good out there..

lol .. Id really be slipping if there wasnt now wouldnt I? lol..Nitey Nite.

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? luv ya... and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again....