~I WENT !~

I did it lol.. I made it to the Dr. and back home in 2 half hours LOL..

I got there and the nurse says, "what are you doing here?, your

appointment is the 24th." i said "you said thursday", she says" ya,

the 24th! but i'll see if we can still see you" And they did.. I was

glad..wow..I'll be honest my first thought was..'I aint coming back

again now'..to myself.. So anyway, I now have 4 different kinds of

pills again..thyroid, and BP, which was EXTREMELY high..(really

was lol) and nurontin AGAIN.. and a new anti depressant..Yippeee..

lol. so here I go back on the pill routine..:-( ..

I read the paper that comes with the pills for the anti depressant..

it says: Before using this medicine warning..antidepressant medicines

may increase the risk of suicidal thoughts and behaviors in children

and possibly adults who have severe depression or other mood

disorders.. Now isnt that just Ducky!!! lol...and I have to gradually

increase the dosage a week at a time..hmmmm.. I wonder if I will

be able to write anything legible here after 4 weeks on them ! :-)

sure is a scarey thing to read tho... makes you wonder about some

of these kids that are on this kind of stuff because they are sort of

overactive, and the suicide rate is pretty high with kids.. Makes you

wonder. I still swear Prozac made my mother commit suicide..she

was fine till she got on that CRAP. On that for 3 months and they

were hauling my mothers body out of the river where she drowned

herself 8 months after my Dad died. No one will ever convince me

other wise on that..I saw the effects. I didnt have a watch, I asked the

time..she said its "1, 2, 3, 4.. it was 12:34 noon.. I didnt pick up

on it.. or the hallucinations she had..But then I didnt KNOW she

was on that CRAP..

According to my Dr. I do have to start having a home health nurse

start to come and check me out I think once a month. To monitor

this Blood Pressure and meds.. I really dont like that..but well she

feels this is necessary.. So I am waiting to see what and when..

She wanted me to come back in a day or so and go and have a

blood test and I asked if they could come to my home..and she

said yes..so I dont have to go there for that..They will all call and

let me know..

I was kinda mad sitting in that waiting room..chairs all in a U

shape and 2 in the center..I rolled in there and there was not

that first spot to conveniently put my chair and me out of the

way..I had to sit sideways In front of everyone else in there. I got

to chatting with everyone in the waiting room I always do that ..

well hell Im so conspicuous being stuck out there like that why

not? I chatted to a real nice lady and she even said she noticed

that as her mother I think she said is in a chair..that these Drs

offices and even hospital waiting rooms there is not a special

place for a chair!!! Now. .come on..A DOCTORS office.?. the

nurse comes and gets me..pulls me backwards into the back

part of the office and they had to move a scale and some other

things for my chair to get thru..WHY do they NOT take this into

consideration.They just dont seem to realize that it draws even

MORE attention to us that is NOT what we want, a chair is one

thing everyone stares at anyway but to make us be even MORE

obvious? I wasnt pleased and told them about it..I asked if I

was their only wheel chair patient.. she said "No".. I dunno ..but

see? just makes me wanna go back dont it? :-)

Ive still not heard about all this other crap I still have NO idea if

its dropped or what and I just have to say its dropped I just

cant keep dealing with this every day.. I cant.. it has to end.. If

they DO come well I just will have to deal with it then, this daily

worry ..I just cant do it anymore..Im a basket case now.. Maybe

these tranquilizers will help, theyre new.. so I dont know.. I have

to call tomorrow tho and remind them that they forgot to renew

my Nitroglycerin.. I need to have that.. This past week or so I

did have to take one a couple times, and they are the only

thing that does help the chest pains sometimes.. and I do get

them.. so anyway..............

I am SO tired.. not hungry I had the driver stop and get a burger

for me at Burger King and well its already gone thru if you wanna

know :-) Gawd.. I just tell EVERYTHING...well inquiring minds

wanna know LOL.. Im tired, been up most of the night and so

were the boys..we need to lay it down..Theyre over there waiting

for me ..:-) Im hittin the Publish, (hope it works , blogger has been

a buggar lately) and sayin Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? I LUV ya.. and THANKS!!!! :-)

Always,,, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..