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New Visitor :-)

Y'all know I don't mind answering questions or

discussing just about anything.. Well its all just

life and living and we ALL have our crosses to

bear.. some easier than others, I will say, but we

all get our share.. Even the rich and famous.. some

of those celebrities have a bad private life.. money

aint everything.... cant buy your health OR happiness

for that matter.. But this morning I was thinking,

while I was at my favorite spot.. enjoying the

wonderful bird show today! Even a new guest out

there.. A black kinda bird.. Ive seen them before,

but not here.. He got along with the others.. Note

his little short tail.. I counted 4 blue jays and 3

cardinals and of course Mr. Woodpecker were all

out there :-) Anyway.. back to what I was thinking

about :-) I get off the track some times.. :-)
Short tail...

Well.. I was thinking about David.. my last hubby.

He was 20 years younger than me.. We got along

great.. UNTIL.. my legs started to give out on me,

and I couldn't do the walking like I usta.. Some

times to get to a fishing spot.. or even just to see

a sight.. up in the UP of Michigan .. well 9 times

out of 10 it included a WALK! :-) My legs started

to get bad I would say, when we still lived up North.

Not bad, but I know when we went to see the

car that went over the hill at Horse Race Rapids

and I started the climb back up those steps, my

legs hurt.. We moved from the UP to Green Bay

in 91.. From then on .. it was downhill for my

walking.. Steadily getting worse and worse, Even

though I had many leg bypasses.. They didn't work.

By the time I had my heart bypass in 2000.. I just

could hardly walk any distance at all.. Then with

having the heart surgery.. I was DOWN... I think..

if David and I hadnt gotten a divorce when we did,

which he filed in 2000, but I wouldn't agree till 2001..

when I got my senses back again.. I think if we had

been together when I had my amputations.. I don't

think David would have stayed with me.. He was NOT

a dev.. If he had been at ALL he would have stuck

it out with me and not wanted a divorce.. I believe

the statement to love was, "I love you, but I'm not

IN love with you anymore"....

I can still see and hear him sitting on the couch

looking at me saying.. "You cant go anywhere anymore,

I have to always go by myself.. and I have to take

care of you cuz your always sick..I want a divorce"...

Funny how I can almost repeat it word for word.. I

don't have it written down on paper.. but boy it sure

stayed in my head. I know if it was him.. I would have

stuck by him no matter what.. David was weak.. and

most definitely NOT a devotee...

Ive talked to a lot of Devs.. good ones, bad ones and

some that said they were but .... well I honestly DONT

think they are.. I think its more a fetish or a control

thing.. A TRUE Dev.. is kind, considerate and readily

will offer TLC.. from their heart.. Sex doesn't enter

into it.. The true ones.. want to know EVERYTHING..

just who we are.. and especially HOW we feel.. Its

sometimes not easy to weed out the TRUE DEVs...

But.. I know some that are my very best dearest

friends.. And I wouldn't trade them for nuthin.. :-)

David just couldn't accept sickness or less than

perfect I think.. sad as it may be.. I do hope hes

changed.. by now I hope he accepts people as

they are.. Maybe that's why I say perhaps I am

a devotee myself.. I accept people for whats on

the inside.. I see THAT part of them.. The out

ward appearance at first attracts.. yes.. but.. If

the inside don't match the outside.. that's NOT

good.. Davids innerds and outerds.. didn't match..

He was a handsome man.. but not on the inside..

I think I just made up new words :-)

Well that's what this GORGEOUS WEEBLE is

thinking about today.. I have NO idea why I was

thinking about David.. I hear hes back from Mexico,

maybe hes thinking of me!! Time to post this and

find some lunch.. I have left over cabbage.. MMMM..

Wanna ask questions.. or something you wanna know

about.. just write and ask !! Or leave a comment here..

I WILL reply!! AND.. I SHALL Return!! :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless You, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...