~ReBuilt~

I watched a show on TV the other night called ReBuilt..It

was really interesting..About a family of 5 that made limbs

for amputees..Each one designed different prosthetics

for people like me. It was really interesting to watch..Some

of the amputees on there were amazing...

There was a little girl..tiny little thing..about 8 or so..she was

missing the lower half of her body. She scooted around so

fast no one could keep up with her.. But she wanted to stand

like all her friends, and it was wonderful to watch as they

designed a mold for her torso to go into and her little legs to

stand on...She was wonderful..they gave her crutches and she

was off and running so to speak.. Showed her many times

falling, someone was always with her to help, but she did most

of it all by herself..What a special little girl...And I complain???

She has a whole lifetime to go thru this tho....I only started mine

when I was 55 years old...I wonder which is easier ?

Is it easier to go thru something like this later in life and have

experienced life as a totally limbed person? Or to be born

like this and not know any other way to live? Thats really a

hard question.. I talked with a friend on another chat program,

he was a race car driver..34 years old..got in an accident and

is now paralyzed from his nipple line (mid chest) down.. We

often talked which is easier...like him..with legs..but no feeling..

or me with no legs and feeling? He has to drag his legs around.

I dont..He has no pain, I do...We talked for a long time about this.

And to be honest..we never really did decide who was better off.

I could feel...everywhere, so naturally the sex question came into

the discussion..as he had NO feeling of anything , sexual or other

wise..So the question then came to..did he suffer not having the

sexual feelings in his body, and ONLY in his mind... They can be

just as vivid in your head as anywhere else on your body. We each

had them but in different parts of our bodies. There are so many

variables for people that are challenged, and we are all different

but for me, well, I have constant pain...the phantoms NEVER stop..

I feel the cramped, smushing pain..sometimes so bad it stabs my

invisible foot and makes me jump it hurts so bad.

So I dont know.. I guess I have gotten used to this constant feeling

of my legs being there and putting up with the constant pain...but

it still makes you wonder which is the better way to be IF you have

been the one chosen to be like this, and I guess there is never a

good time to be a chosen one, whether you are born this way or

chosen later on in life, what it amounts to is HOW we cope and

handle what challenge we have been chosen for whenever we are

picked.

Well I think its time for me to go and choose something to eat . I

KNOW I have been chosen to do that too. I feel alot better today, I

am really glad.. I still have a horrible cough tho..but according to

my sister, she phoned last nite, the cough will last a long time.

She is out of her cast and doing some PT but doing great...Now

she says is the hard part..Paying the BILLS lol.. ain't THAT the

truth..Bless her heart, she has no insurance. But shes all fixed...

I guess since I feel better you could say I am too .. :-) nitey nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv Ya!!!! & thanks :-)

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...