~We Got Snowed~

We are having a really nice snow storm today.. They change it

hourly I think as far as saying what we are gonna get.. They didn't

say anything last nite when I did manage to wake up in time to see

the news and weather.. I was watching that amazing race which

was delayed so I was clicking back and forth between that and

the desperate housewives, that I have lost track of who all these

other new people are..and sometimes..that show is just not true

to life.but then not many are.. I took that photo I cant read the time

about 1 or so.. by the time I post this I will take another to see

just how much is out there by then.. Chris at lunch said it was

getting pretty ugly out there.. and I know from what I see it is..

Ive been going through my Hellhome photos that I have of the girls

that worked there.. I took most everyones picture before I left just

for kicks.. they thought I hated to leave..no..they knew I wanted out

and the really nice ones sure helped me get packed and moved

and even came by to check on me.. The higher ups are the ones

that wanted me to leave..find "a place more suited" for someone

my age..I was the youngest in there... I will put some of the photos

together and I am going to see if I can get my records from there.

I am curious as to the time frame of everything.. Its all very hazy,

I remember doing things..but to put a date..I can only put a date

on my amputations and the date I left..the rest it didn't matter.. I

really guess that 80% of the time I was in there I was totally out

of it.. The main thing they were really treating me for was the

awful depression..and of course recuperating from all the surgeries

the year before as well.. If I got my records I could read more of

what I don't remember that went on..that I am sure they kept records

of all of it.. They did while I was there.. They had 2 books..

One of the notebooks was the good book..the black one..it was a

sort of summary of daily progress..the other was RED.. these were

ring binder folders...the red was the bad book..when you acted up,

swore, or was mean ..anything bad..it got wrote up in there .. We

were allowed to read anything they had about us..well 99% of the

ones didn't care what was wrote much less care where they were~!

One of the nurses told me about the RED book..and that I had

gotten written up in there ALOT.. well.. I asked to READ it.. when I

did, I had to sit right there at the desk.. I did.. I read.. and I got so

MAD~!!! the stuff written in it that time was something I had said

to the activities lady and she wrote it in there.. I closed the book,

went to the activites room , cornered her in there , parked my

chair right in front of the door AFTER it closed BEHIND me.. I

asked her "why did you betray a confidence?" Her excuse was she

felt it would benefit all the other nurses to know some of my problems

and she felt that was best.. I was SO mad.. I told her off royally and

told her I would NEVER speak to her again..and she was NOT

permitted in my room EVER..if she wanted to try ..well she would NOT

be very happy when I explained it to her again..to stay away from me.

I talked to her because I thought it was "off the record" so to speak,

as friends.. I learned the hard way about that.. And I never spoke to her

again EVER..not for any reason.. and she did NOT come into my room,

she would say hello if she passed me in the hall and I would ignore her.

A few weeks, 3 or so , the head nurse came into my room..apparently

that RED book had disappeared..had I taken it? I was appalled! ME?

how DARE She ask me that.. I looked her right dead in the eye.. and

said " NO... I do NOT have your book".. she sort of looked at me side

ways..and I invited her to look thru my room if she wanted.. I DIDNT

have that book.. not THEN! . :-).. I will not write anything to incriminate

myself as far as the disappearance of that nasty RED book..but some

GORGEOUS angel made that one disappear and all the others that

they tried to replace it with ..isnt that amazing? :-D

There is what its like out as I go to post this..its 430 and its sure gotten

a lot more out there.. I hope the kids make it home from work ok.. they

all have 4 wheel drive so I don't worry too much.. its all the others on the

road that I worry about ..I know how my kids drive, its the others I don't!

Penny was sick today and didn't come..its so hard when she misses

Monday.. I did most, dishes, and I did take the garbage out to the front

porch.. I don't want to leave it till Wednesday.. I tried making all my calls

today and the one to SSI well I guess Monday is a bad day to call them.

I just don't want to take any chances with it..that's all I would need is to

lose it.. THEN what would I do.. who would adopt me? ohoh.. I better

make sure I get through to them.. I know I aint going back to that shelter,

they were nice..but no.. Im NOT going back.. Why I save every penny I

get my hands on.. and don't spend hardly any thing on anything.. I have

to if I am going to make it..

Im going to make it to the kitchen, then to the bedroom and watch TV..

Monday nite.. I forget whats on.. oh well don't really matter I probly wont

be awake much past 8 anyways soon as Two and Half Men is done.. I

love that show.. Snow snow snow.. we are snug and warm..and its that

time for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE to say "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....