~Ickky Day~

Cold rainy ickky day today and from the looks of the forecast

its gonna stay this way till Sunday. This kind of dampness makes

me tired and I ache.. My sneezin doesn't seem as bad today but

I still have a dribbly nose. This tired I had hoped would go away

once my thyroid pills kicked in again..but doesn't seem to be

working.. I just seem to have no real energy.. I was going to put

a box together for Kelli with baby things in it but about half way

through I stopped as my arms were aching and I was tired! I

used to have so much energy maybe now its because things

take so much EXTRA energy to do them.. Doesn't matter what

it is..its harder to do things than it was even 2 years ago.. I

guess that comes with adding years ... :-) But I guess as long

as I am still adding years on, that's the main thing..

Rebecca came this morning..shes so nice..and very pretty.She

brought some things for baby that are so cute..a wonderful quilt

and a couple new outfits that were on sale that are perfect.. I

know Kelli probly has just about everything she needs after 3

showers..but the stuff isnt from me...:-) Rebecca has a baby boy

herself..hes 14 months I think and she has a 6 year old step

daughter I think..Im not sure of the girls age..Rebecca is looking

for a place to rent too.. There really isnt a lot of affordable NICE

places to live around here... I should consider myself lucky that

I do have this little house and the privacy.. It needs improved but

I guess I should be very grateful to have it.. So many have a lot

less...

I shouldnt really gripe at all..about anything when it comes right down

to it.. I have a roof over my head, food and my bills are paid. I have

the boys.. and maybe this house isnt really suited for me..its not

really that bad and I should stop complaining.. I guess its really NOT

a bad thing to complain as it keeps me especially, looking for better.
I think that If I didnt look for better it would more or less be giving up,

settling for what I have and not expect better. I know before I lost my

legs I always was looking for the better and I pushed myself to try to

get it..whether it was a better job or higher pay or anything that I felt

would improve my life.. I still do that..but I just put limitations on what

I feel would be good for me now, since things are so much different,

and my life style has drastically changed... what was good for me when

I had legs is not necessarily good for me now that I dont have any.

Most things are..but lots arent...but I can live with it..Ive just had to

make alterations... which I do know how to do.. and I HAVE :-)

I keep looking at my sewing machine over there and Ive not made that

first attempt to try to open it and seeing what I have to do to get her

up and running.. Theres not alot that can go wrong with one, but I have

to figure out a way to get close enough to be able to SEE what im

doing.. I kinda think I can stay in my wheelchair If I take the arm rests

off.. I liked my old chair..they just tipped back, this one I have to take

them off totally. I have to find the energy to just sit there and figure out

what I need to do.. To even open my machine up I have to pull it away

from the wall..with the shelf above it on the wall, the lid wont go past

it the way it is now.. so to get at that machine is not just a matter of

pulling up to it.. Theres alot of alterations on THAT too :-) starting with

clearing off the top of it :-)

I need to make some alterations in my fridge right now by lessening

its contents :-) I have some left over mac and cheese from lunch, has

ham in it too.. I wasnt hungry at noon so I put It in the fridge to have

before I roll off into the sunset of my bedroom, which it is almost that

time.. but not before my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y"hear? love ya, and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....