~Gettin things Done~

Sunday, Sunday, and I am sick as a dog..I spent half the

night in the bathroom throwing up among other things.. I

am totally stressed out.. Tomorrow will start my program

to get things done and settled.. I plan to call my doctor and

make an appointment and tell her that I had quit all my meds

a year or so ago and that I had chosen other means of

medication..and that now I dont possibly dare to use that again

and what should I do? I have no idea what she will say..probly

well then just dont take anything.. I dont know...but I have to do

something..this waiting to see what is going to happen I just

cant stand.. I dont understand so much of it but Im afraid to call

the police and find out.. But I have to be prepared for the worst..

I have no choice..

I think I still no matter what should try to find a new home..that

would be the best thing to do..If I dont I think I would be under

constant scrutiny and also anyone that came near me..I just

would like to take my time and find a nice place..IF this does

happen to go to court I will only have 7 days to get my things

out and find a place to go...So I think I still should pack and

start ..just in case.. I have a friend that sells on EBAY and I

think I will give him a call and have him come here and give

me an estimate on my belongings I know that would sell..

some antiques etc.. That way my finances would be in better

shape to pay for a new place and the cost of moving..and I

would be more prepared.. I think that would be best for me..

I do not understand why I was not arrested on the spot..but I

wasnt..and I dont understand.. I thought that was what they did,

then you go to court.. Why they just came in..searched took

my medication and left.. and I am here.. I dont understand ..My

niece said to test it.. but that doesnt make sense to me..but I

am so terrified that If I make any kinds of waves they WILL come

for me. I am so confused I dont know whether I am coming or

going...

This will be short as I really dont feel good.. I was up and down

so many times dragging my fat butt off and on the bed that I

just stayed in there for hours.. sat on the potty with a pan next

to it.. was awful.. But I am here tho..got to write lol.. Thanks for

all the advice and help I sincerely appreciate it..y'all have been

so supportive in this and putting up with this whiney weeble lol..

and I apologize for airing my dirty laundry so to speak..lol

Im gonna go crawl up on my bed and try to get some rest.. I

am NOT hungry but maybe a cup of tea might help and go and

rest by my boys..they are very quiet today..we were ALL up..

Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya and thanks.. :-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...