~Is It Done?~

No news again today..I am trying to convince my self this is

all done and settled.. I was even afraid to check my mail lol..

for fear be something in there-- court or something.. I dont

how long I can really stand this.. I think before I go totally nuts
I just have to convince myself that this is done.. I cant get a

lawyer to tell me anything.. And I sure aint gonna call the police

and ask when are you coming to arrest me.. Im between such

a rock and a hard spot here.. I am seriously making plans to

find a new place to live.. really.. I think THAT would be to my

advantage.

I have a Drs. appt. tomorrow.at 930 they will be here to pick me

up and I will tell her the whole sordid story well maybe Ill print it

out save me alot of breathe lol.. I was honest with the nurse and

I told her I just dont know what to do and I figure the Dr. would be

the best one to tell me health wise, I honestly hate to go back on

pills but I cant risk going thru this again..NOW.. I will NEVER

again have anything here..But ..To be totally honest..and if you

know me at all I am honest to a fault..and I refuse to lie..But if

I can get ONE as in 1 , well.. I will use it..but no one..will EVER

find anything here again..not inside this apt anyway...but thats

the honest truth..and I will NOT lie about it. they can send dogs

xray what ever..they will find NOTHING here.. its in ME lol..no

but seriously.. It helps me.. and thats the truth.. and I will tell my

Dr. this.. I will NOT take all those useless pills she had me on

before.. I wont..they did nothing ..the constant try this lets go to

a higher dose blah blah blah..what THAT did to me.. Its awful...

but I will listen to her..and see what she can come up with as

long as it doesnt mean I have to go OUT constantly ... I worry

that she may find other things wrong when I go..and I am really

NOT ready to deal with anything else going wrong..so hopefully

this will be the only issue tomorrow..but I will go.Ill be ready when

the Coa comes to get me ... YOu have got to be tired of readin

about this STRESSED out weeble lol and all my bloomin CRAP lol

Ahhhh I dunno..but this GORGEOUS whiney weeble needs to get

her CRAP in a box so to speak and get her life back on track..and I

tell ya.. what a fight.. now I had my legs? well fooey..well I wouldnt be

here then would I? lol...Id miss all these friends Ive made tho..so I

cant say that this happening to me is a TOTALLY bad thing.. I have

some of the dearest friends now..that I didnt have b4..so this isnt

THAT bad..just well ....hmmm. HARDER lol :-) and I guess that just

means I have to try harder.hell I cant quit now can I ? that would look

just too cute ..naaa I aint a quitter.. nope..not me..i'll stick out the RUN

so to speak..ok ok ROLL :-)

Well Raelynn was here bright and early and we are squeaky again..

we havent been too messy...so she didnt have alot to do..she went

and got the boys some food so they dont run out..Just to be safe..

Dutch and LB both played with her today.. Im trying to stay calm..I

am nervous about going out tomorrow tho.. and I really hate to go out

and leave them alone I dont want them upset that mom is gone..I

hope the Dr visit doesnt take long so I can get back..I know LB will

howl..so ill call Penny and tell her I will be gone and not to worry if

she hears them howling which I KNOW they will..THey have not been

separated from me since I got them longer than to go down the hall

or when they went for 6 hrs to be neutered..Theyre spoiled lol...well

everyone spoils their kids dont they? lol..

Time to go and get a soda..and I tried to eat but..well..was lunch and

it was a breaded meat thing with gravy..and so far well I think about

half is gone already lol.. and Im not sure the rest will stay IN lol.:-)

now you needed to KNOW that i KNOW!!! :-)

well we are still here..and I hopefully will be back tomorrow night..If

theres something anyone feels like asking me..leave a comment and

ask..or send me a email to the lovelylittlelegs@gmail.com address

Ill answer you.. ok? ok..time to say Nitey Nite..

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? Love ya! and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...