~Arrangements Gettin Made~

Still no news..and I have no idea what is happening..I did start

to make some serious arrangements..I phoned lawyers today,

and of course found no one that will handle a criminal case..

not for free anyway..cheapest estimate is 1500.oo.. I called

legal aid , public defender which is legal aid and they wont

touch criminal either..its find a lawyer and pay... So any way

that got me no where, I wanted one for that but also about this

abuse by not knowing this is awful..why did they not tell me

ok..this is the end of it..no charges..your life can go on? they

didnt and Ive been here for a week losing my mind for worry

that I will lose my apt..and Rent subsidy..This is cruel and

in human.. All the stress its caused me.. Im scared to death

here. The poor lady from the COA just dropped by to check

on me..like she usually does every 3 or 4 months..and I heard

that knock..usually she calls..but was by here and decided to

come by..well I heard that knock..wasnt expecting anyone and

I almost lost it. .I looked through peek hole saw her and let

her in..she was so surprised , her first words were are you OK?

lol I mean I must have look terrified.. scared her, bless her

heart.. lol.. I explained it all to her.. she understood..she deals

with this alot.. I am NOT alone in this issue..many do this..

Just dont get caught..

I phoned my doctor, earliest I can get in is the 28 they said..I

explained whats going on..and they connected me to another

girl and we talked and she could get me in tomorrow morning

at 9 but I have no way to get there then, I have to give notice

to get a ride.. so she got one for me at 10 am on thursday..so

I call COA and they arent real sure they can take me cuz they

have 2 others they have already booked for transport..They

were supposed to call me back and didnt so the COA lady

that was here I told her, she phoned and said she will remind

them to let me know first thing..So I have to wait on that I hope

they can, cuz I dont know if Raelynn can she has another client

she takes care of...But things are getting done on that part..

My sister phoned me saturday nite, she was worried.. she said..

and wanted to find out..how it was going I told her that I may not

have a place to live..her words were "well you will have to go back

to the hellhome, where else will you go?" I was devastated..she

knows how horribly they treated me.. Im NOT that sick I have to

live in a nursing home.. I was so hurt that was her first thought.. I

finally broke down today and called my boy..Donnie.. well bless

his heart..He said I could live on his pontoon LOL .. what a guy..

he was kidding and he made me smile.. thats his favorite toy....

His next words..were.."well Gran,, you will just have to come here

and stay with us till we figure out what to do" now does this boy

love me or what? what a Load off my shoulders.. I should have

called him last week..but I just didnt want him to worry..but Bless

his heart.. and my sister tells me to go back to the Hellhome.. I

wont put here what I really thought just to be nice.

Anyway,, Things are better..but not better because I dont know

still if they can come and arrest me.. they didnt tell me..why dont

they? Donnie says call them and ask them..hes never heard of

this..they arrest you on the spot..but hey..why didnt they tell me

then "this is a warning, no charges" before they left..? they saw

how upset I was about it all..I dont know the law..they do..they

should have told me..

Anyway.. we are squeaky :-) Raelynn bless her heart is so

worried about us.. She brought me some wonderful tomatoes

from her garden and 2 yellow squash they look wonderful.. I

want to eat them so bad..but I am throwing up so much..even

my 1 cup of coffee didnt stay down this morning ..now thats

not good..lol I LOVE my coffee :-) I may wait a little and try one

of those tomatoes they are so wonderful and the smell M M M...

Anyway.. Y'all have been so great putting up with this whiney

weeble.. :-) and I so appreciate all the advice and help and all

the kind words.. Specially to my boy.. hes not mine by blood..but

hey.. I dont think a mother and son are closer than me and Donnie.

His wife? Dawn. I know as soon as he told her she said the same

thing..what kids hey? God Bless em. "Just have to come here Gran"

I think the only other words Ive ever heard that were sweeter from

anyone were I love you. Great kids I have.. and not my blood ..So

Im off to just relax and watch tv .. Im breathin a bit easier now.. And

maybe I wont throw up so badly..and Im going over to my bed with

my boys and just love all over them and tell them not to worry we

are safe.... so we say Nitey Nite... :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? sure Luv ya..and thanks .. :-)

Always, Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...