~Butterfly Birthmark~

I put that, not really great, photo of me up there so you could

really see my birthmark and why I have the name ButterflyLois.

You can see the shape of it..It is almost a perfect one.. Over

there on the right - you see a thingie says my stories..in there

is the one about how I got my name. the stories are on my

bravenet site. Get a chance ..read it.. its true. Most of my photos

dont really show my birthmark as clearly, if I put make up on it

I can hide it quite well, the butterfly is very obvious as you can

see..it makes me very different, and now being a dak I am for

sure VERY different..a GORGEOUS weebly butterfly dak :-)
My hair is sure getting long!!!

I met some people when I went down to the bayous of Louisiana

for a wedding and some people there thought it was just wonderful

and would you believe they wanted to color it in like it was real?

One said they wouldnt mind having one of their own.. I know growing

up with this on your face was NOT an easy thing..children are so

honest and straight to the point, I dont think they really intentionally

would hurt me..but you know how kids are sometimes. Ive been

very self conscious about it all my life, since my dads reason for

it when I was very young that helped me like it...and accept it..

I think with that stigma that ive had to deal with made me even

more prone to stares or looks. And now being in this chair well

I get even more looks..everyone looks at someone in a chair..

I do..I always wait to catch the persons eye..and smile..just to

let them know its ok, that they are who they are..Sometimes I

have noticed looks on some faces, and I can see the questions..

'wonder what happened' or 'I bet shes a diabetic'.. i have

done the same thing..it doesnt bother me at all..I look back and

smile and if they hold my gaze then I will speak to them..Id

rather sit in a room full of people, like a waiting room, and talk

to everyone than just sit there and twiddle my thumbs waiting for

a chance to go back and wait some more !!! These waiting rooms

just gripe me..I have YET to go into one where they have a spot

already prepared for a wheelchair..when I go to my dr. they have

no spot for one AND when I go into the back part there isnt any

back there either and I have to wait in the hall for them to drag

the stuff out so I can fit in..wheelchairs take up alot of room...

I made a couple phone calls today and still no progress with the

ramp situation.. I am finding this really hard to accept there HAS

to be other people here that have had to have ramps.. I see them

on houses thru town..theres a house about a block down the

street that has the same kind that would work out front here..I'm

not in any hurry to go out..I dont have any where to go..but if I do

want to go..I like to know I can.. I am just really amazed that of all

these disabled agencies that no one has any resources for getting

one for me. I did call and put an ad in the paper to see if I can sell

this stand up recliner I have..with that money I will put it towards a

freezer or a washer/dryer combo.. I think getting the washer/dryer

should come before the freezer though..I can wait for that cuz I have

my HHA now and I can get groceries..I just like some of the quick

foods you can keep in a freezer, and a supply..snow country you

never know.. . . I think however..the laundry aids would maybe be

the best things to get next, then if worse comes to worse I can do

my own laundry..not like I will run out of clothes lol.. I do have a few.
I like clothes as well as jewelry..I havent worn earrings in ages

tho.. I should.. I have quite a few pairs of them.. All the company

ive had the past week I should..not as though they would improve

my looks..that would be impossible GORGEOUS cant be made

better it already is the best !!...you knew I would say that. :-)

Penny came today..shes so pretty and tiny little thing..im all clean

and she hung curtains in the bathroom for me.. The boys are getting

used to her she likes cats which is a good thing.. I think they miss

Raelynn though..Dutch loved her.. she played with him so much..

she would grab him up ..hold him tight and kiss the daylights out of

him and he would wiggle and squirm, pretending to try to escape..

then jump down.. he plays string with Penny she cant help it..he

brings it to us..He brought me his string when I was in the bathroom

this morning at 4 am ..lol..ready to play.. Ive been up since then!!!

Needless to say I am tired.. I think its catching up with me again

time to slow a bit..I know when I over do. today I am so tired..not

sleepy tired..just wore out tired.. I just wanna lay and wallow all

over my bed like a big shooshy weeble. I would fall asleep and

be up with the birds again lol.. I guess fighting that paint incident

yesterday wore me out.. that was pitiful..was like looney tunes lol..

all thats missing is the goofy music to my antics lol.. Im gonna

find some supper.. I got the COA lunches delivered again and

today was spaghetti I didnt eat it then but I maybe will nuke it and

eat it now.. Penny brought us some McD's sausage biscuits over

this morning she was here at nine.. was so good.. :-)

I love good food, I keep eating and I wont notice my being

thinner anymore tho hmmm that may not be good ;-)

nitey nite !! :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..