~3 Comfy Kids~

As you can see the children are all snug in their spots on the couch. LittleBoy, MeowMeow and of course Dutch All 3..Since weve gotten in here, LittleBoy really kinda hovers over MeowMeow. Well ..thats what I named her.he looks for her when I ask for her.lol.he does.! I know when he cant find her! He cries. I call it a her..itsnt that pitiful? its a stuffed bloomin cat..lol..but he loves her- lets her know it at least once a day, if you know what I mean? and yes he is neutered..go figure, he loves his girlfriend..but hes a buggar! Shes survived 4 years now.I got her before I got HIM! and he was 4 in august..If this cat ever disintegrates well. I think LB would just be very upset... I tell everyone do NOT touch this cat.. by the VERY end of the tail only if you have to touch it lol.. When Donnie brought Jerky (chocolate lab) once he made a lung for her and wow.. LB got right between that.he was ready to defend her.. I find her many times..out by the food bowl or even in by the litter box. I have to say I am very grateful he doesnt let her drink out of the toilet though, like he does..ICK..that would be a mess.. But he bites her on the back of the neck, straddles her and drags this cat around..he put her up there on the couch I dont touch that cat..no no..HE moves her..I did NOT put her up on there..he did.. lol...My sister gave it to me when I was in the hellhome.. I had alot of stuffed animals at the foot of my bed..They fed my hallucinations horrible..I thought they were real people staring and watching me..and when I tried to talk to them they would ignore me ..Then when I would wait they would laugh at me ..Drove me nuts those animals they watched and laughed at me so much lol no just kidding ..hell I was already NUTZ :-) lol..no I was just out of my mind off and on..bloody drugs they had me on..Those yellow ants were buggars..they stuck to the top of my bed..Only way I could escape them was to sit on my pillows..I would throw stuff at them but it would disappear into them like they ate it. lol..I didnt like seein them..and why yellow I have NO idea.. I think the dust bunnies were my favorites.. I saw them when I was in my chair just sitting in my room...I would run over them and they would spark and just POOF! were gone..they tried to escape..but I was too fast for the little buggars lol..See? I had a GREAT time in the hellhome.. I specially liked when I couldnt find my way back to my stinkin room! wander the halls lookin till someone found me and showed me it was still there!! Pitiful hey? have to laugh now when I recall it. I am surprised I do remember it..but it was real to me at the time so I guess thats why. How did I get on this? ohhh the CAT! lol..see? I just wander off to just anywhere ..I get so much stuff going around in my head..write one thing it leads to another then before I know it ive written a dozen paragraphs. that can lead to a headache for the reader LOL..well I hope not..lol..:-) Anyway.... Look close at Dutch's eyes..my left eye since I had that metal go thru looks like that..the center isnt round..when they sewed it back up thats how it is now. Only just a cloudy image do I see out of it.No focus and no details as to what I see. the lens was torn off and shredded.that was in 84.long time ago. I remember the pain that caused..not the time it happened didnt hurt at all..but later after all the surgeries .THEN the pain was awful..Felt like the whole side of my face was going to explode- I asked why and its like when you get a small little thing in your eye it hurts.its directly connected to your nervous system thats what I was told..I believe it..The pain was awful..I had surgery on it..4 times.. still cant see out of it.. My right all this time has gradually gotten worse where I have to wear mags to read.And depth perception? well its almost not there at all .. Ive made many laugh at my non catching ways lol..My ex used to get the biggest kick out of teasing and baiting me into doing something lol But thats how the center of my left eye looks.. but its Green .not gold like his.. well hazel . I dunno..I have to look lol.. thats like knowing your own phone number right off the bat. Well.i never call me so..I dont need to remember it :-) its everyone else's I need to remember !! lol.. I have a new caseworker that came by today that is so very nice.. Becky is retiring and Sandra is taking her place. She had to come pick up paper work that I was asked to provide today when I found I had to find another care provider.. Raelynn called her company, they called me and informed me she had quit.They gave me no reason.I am now looking for a new provider.. She was a dear friend and took wonderful care of me and did over and above what she was paid to do. she did a good job. Whatever her reasons are , they are hers and her decision .. I do wish her well and hope all goes well for her. She was a good friend as well as working for me.. I hated to lose her..but it was her decision and what she thinks is best for her. I still am very grateful that she was so good to me for as long as she was.. I will miss her.. Chris came by and I signed my lease, that is all straight, I called Que. she told me DO NOT WORRY.. it is going through.. this new case worker is going to try very hard to get a ramp for me and a new care provider as soon as possible as I told her I had not seen anyone or anyone been here since saturday.she was kind enough to get my mail and newspapers.She is very very nice..and going to help me all she can..Her main priority tomorrow is an emergency care provider, to come in temporary until I can find someone permanent and then the ramp so I can go to the Doctor next week.. I sure need to see that psychiatrist..So many things happening and contributing to this stress factor I dont know how much more I can endure! ! ! Im doing my best though..I have to, I KNOW I can depend on ME.. Well I am pooped, very strenuous and stressful day and I need to lay it down..find something to eat and watch the tube. I watched my favorite show last nite Prison Break, I like that show.. not all blood and murder and junk I get so sick of all of those crime scene ones. I dont remember whats on tonite if nothin good then I watch the animal planet or the food network lol..Nitey Nite! :-) Y'all have a good one now Y'hear ...Luv ya..and thanks.. :-) Always, Lois****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..