~I THINK I'm HAPPY!!!!~

Well guess what?? I slept ALL night..not even up for the potty and

I wake up sometimes just because .. I didnt last nite..I woke up

exactly as I laid..remote in hand..tv on..my boys laying on me..

AND I woke up happy.! I really did.. I got my coffee and fed the

boys this morning..and sat here thinking "OMG.. I THINK I'M
HAPPY!!!!" :-) it was such a really good feeling.. I didnt sit here

and have to think of who I had to call and beg and plead with..
I could just sit now..and wait..they were ALL coming to me.. I

had 2 ..appointments yesterday..and 3 today..all came here to

tell me how we are gonna get this place fixed for me and get a

care giver to me.. Know how many times my phone rang with

agencies asking me if I was looking for a HHA (aide) ?? I bet

today 3...I put in a email to a website..called Elder Link..and I
had them calling me..seems they sent email all these agencies

and they called ME...I had to do all the 'leg ' work before ..try

to track someone down to work.. I am just amazed!!!!

see? A computer.. Just from sending that ONE email..THEY all

called ME to send me a HHA (caregiver) HHA stands for

Home Health Aide.. I was both surprised and pleased!!! I told

them about Penny..shes looking for clients.. 2 of them asked

her to call them !!! Today.. I had COA..(Commission On Aging)

come and do another assessment.. THEY are going to send a

HHA now..Remember they refused me before ..well stopped my

services?? Because I complained about them telling me I couldnt

use my phone when the worker was here..Well..NOW they are

going to take me back and provide my HHA.. I talked to Becky

about it.. and she seems to think that its best to go thru a agency

like COA, because Penny would be working for me..By using

COA it would be a means of backup..that if the HHA I had couldnt

come..they would send someone else.. Which Becky said would

be to my benefit..then I wouldnt be with out a HHA..The company

Raelynn worked for said they had no one to replace her, thats why

I have had to find another my self.. But ..the lady from COA came

and evaluated me..said "Ive never seen someone with all the hours

you need someone to help you" They put a time on every duty the

HHA does..and thats what you are allowed time for.. I am allowed

by APS..(DHS) 36 hours and 24 minutes a month of home care...

Last time COA didnt have anyone that could work those so they

cut my hours down...to 4 a week i think? dont remember now.. So

until COA can send me someone..Penny can work for me. 7.oo an

hour ..such little pay.. so sad..and they are so extremely valuable

people to so many.. But when COA finds someone then Pennys

hours will be cut.. I hate that.. but I cant do anything about it.. Well

yes I can.. Im going to help her put some ads out..and offered to

make her some business cards.and ads..and I will give her the

names of these agencies.. I dont like doing that..cutting her hours

when she was ready to step right in and start..well she is.. she

will be here tomorrow all day if I want.. Shes very nice.. and has

excellent references.. I will help her.. She and I should start our

own HHA agency LOL .. I dont mind helping I used to do that...

well marketing.. I can help her ...well soon as I get some ink for

my printer.. lol.. always something..

well THAT was a LONG paragraph lol..I cant tell something in

100 words or less !!! :-) The lady from CMH..(community

mental health,,,grant people) came today..she stayed for 2 hours

talking.. shes a councilor.. and she will come to me..EVERY 2

weeks! I must be in bad shape hey?? lolol..sheesh.. No she does a

little bit of it all. very nice too..Everyone Ive met now..that is really

stepping in to get me all set.. Sandy, Geri, Que, Laurie, really nice

the COA lady..bless her heart.. she was SO nice.. she just lost her

husband 2 months ago..he died of cancer..they diagnosed it and 2

months later was gone..I felt so bad for her.. SHE is having a rough

time. losing her house and has had to move in with her daughter in 1

room.. see? I told her if she needed to get away or just someone to

talk to .. to come by..visit .. She was so nice..and going thru almost

the same homelessness..because her husband died.. what is this

world coming to...I dont know.. she works..but the medical is eating

her up...its sad..Im not the only one by any means going thru crap..

I wish I could help her.. or help her find someone that could help her

lose her husband..her home..cars.. sad...


These past months ..I have learned alot..experienced some of the
most awful feelings and emotions.. going up and down so much I
didnt know which way I was headed.. Ive been fighting all this now
..august? I think thats when all this CRAP started..Been a heck of a
battle.. But ..well I think I've DONE it!!! lol..Things are looking good
Thank you LORD!!! If it keeps on like it is and I stand my ground?
yes.. it will be fine.. OH. Sandy today came dropped off paper I have
to sign..she goes past me on her way home..well she said.. the grant is
gone through..thats why they agreed to send this lady here to my
home to help me from CMH so. the paperwork is in the mail.I KNOW
IT... Sandy said she will call and talk to Que tomorrow.. Sandy is a
stepper let me tell you .. this girl DOES HER JOB.. and I am just a
stickler about doing your job..And she has gotten some things done
these past days since she has gotten involved..I think she may be
another Becky ..Becky retires tomorrow..but I know she will miss
all the people she knows..I told her she better stay in touch..She will.
I have her home email :-) and if there is ONE thing I know how to do
is send email lol...:-)

Well Im content.. and yes..still happy..Im not easing up..no no. I am

still on guard...this fight isnt over lol I still got no ramp!!! (love that

one Raife?) lol..Raife gets all anal when he reads my posts since i

dont follow the rules of writing.. lol well thats cuz its how I write lol..

No, hes just a sweet English School teacher and is very well versed

in the kings english, no caps! lol.. hes a love like Rob, and Gray and
my sweet telephone man Blue, with that wonderful Aussie accent..
between Blues accent and Raifes English one..I enjoy it.. These guys
say- I .. I .. have the accent..no- no THEY DO lol.

time for me to close this day and this post down and head to my
bed and sleep some more like I did last nite..what a blessing.. I just
have SO many every day.. blessings i mean..all the encouragement..
the sweet words I read..the help that is coming..see? Just gotta keep
looking up and roll over the CRAP and move along little doggie..
move along ...lol (old cowboy song)...nitey nite...:-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya.. and Thanks..:-)

Always, Lois..****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..