~Theresa's Visit ~

Theresa came today and we had a good visit..she has talked

to Lori at CMH and they discussed the grant and all the details

about it. Apparently I am the exception since I am disabled..The

others that they help with this they do to help them get on their

feet until they can provide for themselves..Lori said they don't

forsee the grant running out and as of the last update on it..there

is NO expiration date as to when it would run out..Theresa also

said Lori assured her I would NOT have to worry if this grant runs

out about being left out in the street again..she said they would

NOT let that happen to me again.. I couldn't handle that. I still

cannot describe the desolation and utter despair I felt..something

I have NEVER felt before in my life..and I don't want to again..I

feel a lot better and can even seriously think about looking for a

better place now.. I am glad..was a good visit today...Even with

all the tons of yearly paperwork and signing I had to do.. I bet I

wrote my name and date a dozen times today...

I always tell Theresa something to make her laugh..and the way

things are here..that's daily that SOMETHING goes wrong. I told

her about last nite.. I had gone in to the bedroom earlier to get

something out of the drawer, printer paper or something..I got

what I needed and went back out to my desk.. When time came

to go back in there for the night..I got all the stuff I take in there

with me piled in my chair..the phone..soda, crackers..what ever.

I pulled up to the bed, unloaded all my stuff and scooted across

got all set and comfy ..TV on..cats by me. I reached and got the

crackers.. and when I did I See Dutch looking up at the ceiling..

Yup.. the ceiling light was on, I forgot to shut it off before... :-(

I laid there for a minute just shaking my BLONDE head.. and

asked my self "can I sleep with that ceiling light ON?".. I had

turned it on earlier..when I came in then I didn't pay attention. I

was TIRED..and I decided I could and I DID NOT get back into

my chair and rolll ALLLLL the way back to the door to shut off

the bloomin light..about 1 or so.. I woke up..and I shut the

blazing thing OFF on my way back to bed... Another reminder for

me.

What I would have had to go thru to get back to the wall switch

which is by the front door.. I was just going to wait - I knew I

would be getting up to potty at least ONCE last nite.. I slept

with the light on the whole time at the homeless shelter and I

could do it then..I wasn't going thru all that now.. dragging in

and out of my chair because I don't do something when I

should have keeps reminding me to KEEP a routine..and

then I wont overlook something and have to do a repeat..Its

like I call them.. my plan of attack.. and I have to have them or

I could make situations worse..or have to do things TWICE..

Yukky yukky day today..so dark and gloomy and rainy..it doesn't

put one in a great mood.. We are supposed to get some snow

today not much.. rained off and on most of today.. I know my

stumps were aching when I got up.. They felt swollen and tight

and I hate when they feel like that..like they could explode if I

stuck a pin in them that's how big they feel.. I did put up some

lights in the window here by my desk.. I think they will be pretty

at night.. one window is better than none.. Penny went and

looked down the basement for my fiber optic tree I HAD..and

its gone.. I didn't think I broke it..but she said its not down there.

The stand is, amazingly ..I have no idea what happened to it..

guess it grew legs like so much of my stuff that came up gone..

She did find a wreath down there tho and she hung it on the

front door..the one I was going to fix, well the kids took it over

and FIGHT actually as to who is sleeping in it..Strange..If I

made those cats sleep in it they probly wouldn't..

Well I got up again early..im in a early to bed early to rise snit

I guess.. But good news.. I have decided I will NOT be sad any

more.. I spent the allotted time on that and I have to go on.. I

cannot stop or deter from going on and living the best that I can..

Time stops for no one..Life marches on.. and I aint a lagger .. I

will lead the march if I have too..but I aint staying behind..

Right now.. Im going on and getting out of this chair.. certain parts

of me are NOT happy...and I will make them happy in about 10

minutes as soon as my GORGEOUS WEEBLE butt gets on that

bed.. "nitey nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and THANKS!!!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....