~I Made My Own Self Sick~

Well today, started out ok, I felt a little better, then Raelynn

went and got the mail, and I am sick as a dog again.. I cant believe
it but when I read that I have to be in court on the 12th of

this month at 8:15 in the morning.!.!.I got sick. A month later..
they send this.. not even a registered letter.. what if something

happened and I HAD moved.. they would have issued out a

warrant for me.. I am so totally amazed..Then I called the police

station and the officer that was in charge..is NO longer with

the city Police force... he left... I also had to call and make

special arrangements.. so that I dont have to make a special

trip down to the Police station to be fingerprinted they will do
that when I have to go to court..... I cant believe this crap..

Well This court stuff is the least of my worries.. now that this

has been filed.. I will automatically be evicted by HUD.. There

is NO way that I can stay here.. I talked to Chris today, and let

him see the court thing.. He told me once he gets this report

that I got.. that the HUD lawyers will automatically file to have

me evicted.. it will be up to a judge how long I will have.. THE
main issue is.. I will lose my HUD allowance for rent.. I shudder

to think of what I will find that I can afford... My rent is only $151.

a month now.. I will NEVER find a place that cheap that is a

even fairly decent place to live.. Plus I will have to come up with

a deposit and probably first and last months rent.. I will end up

a street person.. This is how it happens.. But I guess this was

my own fault, when you do something that is illegal ..you have

to be prepared to take the consequences.. I guess I believed

that former chief of police when he told me there would be no

more response calls to smell in the hall calls from here when I

talked to him before about this. They only responded because

it was the building inspector that called..and if they handnt..he

would have told on them.. Thats what I believe anyway..

Raelynn and her son Wayne have offered to help me pack.. They

are so good to me. She said she and Wayne will take me to

court too.. What if I didnt have her..LORD.. I would have to go all

by myself ~!~ I would never be able to get this stuff all packed.. I

dont even know who else to call .. I may call Becky ..well no I have

a new one..now.. Julia...shes very nice.. I may call her and see if

she can come by and maybe she may know who I can call to help

me pack.. I have a lot of stuff.. I wish I could just sell it all..then I

wouldnt have to worry about anything.. LORD. I just thought.. the

only place I could go would be back to the HELL HOME.. No- I

wont do that.. I dont care. I WONT...I'll live in 1 room first.. if I have

to.. I wont go anywhere like that.. This is SO NOT good.. And

DAMMIT.. I did it ALL to my own self.. say it.. I am.. I KNEW

better.. just didnt think I would get caught.. . . I thought what I did

in my own private house.. was private... guess not if its illegal..

so well.. play you pay... Life is a constant learning thing isnt it?

I just LOVE my life... lol... ya.. Im doing good aint i?

Well time to kick my own self in this big flat weeble butt of mine

and come up with a solution to this.. I had ALMOST believed

this wasnt gonna happen.. a month.. boy thats the state of MI

for ya... lol.. slow but sure... :-) well Im surely NOT feeling a

whole lot better.. and I have got a horrible headache... Say it

lol.. "a head like mine otta ache" lol.. Im off to try to find a

solution for all this crap.. Nitey Nite..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya.. and thanks... :-)

Always, Lois ****

Ps.. Any solutions.. let me know!!! :-)

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..