~Lori's Quitting~ :-(

I wish I would have one day of no worries, no stress no aggravations. Today was not one of them... Penny came, we are all clean, she does a good job.. And I really appreciate how good she does..shes very considerate...and I sure need her help...Im grateful I have her to help me.. I did get bad news today that really upset me... Lori is quitting and will no longer be my caseworker from Keystone... She turned in her resignation last week , and her last day will be next Monday. I dread the thought of who they will replace her with..since she informed me that the awful woman Chris is her boss..so if it is up to her who will replace her, well I may have to make some drastic arrangements, and in a hurry... Apparently Lori needs some time to get things for herself in perspective. She came today about 1 or so..and we had a wonderful time.. We talk like we are the best of friends.. She told me how I even encourage her, to keep going on..that she watches and listens and sees all that I go thru and the daily struggles.. and that helps her.. Her words "Lois, you have NO idea how many people you encourage, me for one".. I felt so good to hear her say that.. but to be honest.. I don't think I really do.. She was so upset, bless her heart..she had tears in her eyes.. she hates to quit her job, but she has no choice she said..she has to take care of Lori..which I told her.." Honeygirl, only YOU can take the best care of yourself..YOU have to do what you have to do, I am here if you need me..24-7".. I meant that.. I mean that when I say that to all my friends.. That's what they are for.. To help each other, encourage, support.. offer that hand when they need someone.. I try to do that.. When I am worried or caring about someone else.. I don't think of me, I don't think about all my own problems.. I am thinking of theirs.. and that's a help to me.. I wish I could help all those that need it.. But I don't see myself that way, I am told I do this.. that I am a good example. My sister, shes so funny, when one of her kids phones, with a problem or some thing drastic they think they cant handle..my sister uses me as an example.. and Im glad she can.. I am glad I can make someone see that they arent alone in this daily fight to survive.. Even though it may be a tad harder for me.. Its still a daily fight..whether you are an amputee, blind, crazy or even a red head... its a FIGHT.. and I hate to lose maybe is my problem..and why I am so willing to fight and stand, well kinda sorta, my ground..and not give in till I win.. Maybe that's the Native American blood that I am supposed to have and cant prove, but I sure wish I could.. Another stressful day, but I am glad I got to spend some time with Lori, the boys of course, were all over her as usual.. which she loved.. Dutch even crawled up in her lap to sleep for a while.. I hope things go well for Lori..she just got married a few weeks ago..so I hope whatever has triggered her to have to resign her job can be taken care of quickly and put right.. shes such a sweet thing..and she deserves the happy... Well I didn't eat lunch.. and I really don't have an appetite now, but my stomach says "feed me" so I guess I better pay attention to it before it bites me or something..my luck it would the way its been going.. I got my electric bill.. 86.11 to be exact.. The joys of having an air conditioner.. but its worth it.. Time for food, then some TV and to say "nitey nite"... :-) Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear ? love ya, and thanks.. :-) Always, Lois **** God Bless you, is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again.....