~Big Mess~

Well... major catastrophe today.. The clothes rack I had in

the bathroom with all my summer tops and skirts on it fell over.

I couldn't get up to it..as it fell across the whole open area in

the bathroom. Some of my clothes went into the litter box,

some even flipped over on to the potty and got wet.. I had to

get as close as I could and first get the hangers off the rod,

then try to get some of the top rack picked up and the only

place I could put them was to throw them onto the bench in

the bathtub.. After I got them picked up which took for ever,

the up and down was hell.. Then I had to maneuver that rack

back up and fix where it had come apart.. I don't guess this

rack is going to work.. I couldn't put my clothes back on it as

I could tell by looking that if I did they would fall over again. It

will have to be fixed so that it cant fall over.. I thought we had

the weight evenly distributed..but apparently not.. Took me a

LONG time in there moving all those clothes .. then some I
had to find a place to dry them.. was a mess.. I about sat and

cried.. I just really didn't need this today..Seems its always

something.. and I didn't cause this mess!! :-)

LB is not doing very well.. I have been keeping watch on them

both.. Dutch is over his but he is still not doing stinkies right and

LB has the screamers just awful.. I just CANNOT imagine what

did this to these cats.. Not one thing has changed..and no one

has brought anything in here and given them anything.. I would

like to get the water tested here.. Maybe the water lines are ugly

and have crap in them or something.. for as often as my stomach

stays upset that may be what it is.. I feel so sorry for LB..hes never

sick.. hes 4 now and this is the first time... Ive never had any kind

of problem..well hes not had any.. I just don't know and it sure

worries me.. They are both eating..and drinking.. I watch and make

sure..but something has done this to them and I have no idea what.

I sat in the kitchen after my ordeal in the bathroom and opened

my freezer which has plenty of food in it.. I sat there for the longest

time and just could not decide what I wanted to eat.. I took out a

small steak and then looked at the table..and the hot plate and

then back at the steak and decided it was a lot of trouble what I

would have to go thru to get the hot plate out..set it up..get a pan

from out of a box and then cook it.. I decided on a frozen dinner.

I just sound so lazy..Im really not..but I just feel tired..worn out.. I

know I did a lot today with all those clothes I had to move, but I

was tired before that.. I know its all just from stress...

I have been thinking about that call from this new Chris that has

introduced herself to me from Keystone.. I am very leary of their

motives in this..that they HAVE to come here before the 10th..

This is a inspection that they HAVE to do..yet only have a few

days to do it? I don't believe her.. When she comes on wed. I

will let her go thru this house.. but.. she will also have to show

me proof that she needs to do this and Lori cant.. I wont be a

party to them sneaking and checking her work behind her back.

She does a good job and I don't want any part of deception to

do something against her.. I plan to call Kathy shes the head of

Keystone, and tell her that Chris when she HAS to come to do

this that she bring written PROOF that this has to be done in

this time frame. I have NO paperwork , nothing about this grant,

I know not that first thing of the do's don't's or my rights with it..

I will find out.. I wont be a party to spying or going behind some

ones back..specially someone like Lori.. I bet she will be very

upset about this when she finds out... I don't like it... I should call

her and ask her..she lives right here in town, I wonder what she

would say. . Shes my caseworker..for someone else to step in

for no reason..somethings fishy.. at least to me it seems that way.

So much drama.. I am really getting sick of it.. I just want to pay my

bills..enjoy my boys.. my computer.. just LIVE..and I just seem to

keep running into this CRAP that makes me so upset.. Then I get

mad and pissy and look like im the big meanie when I am the one

that is being harassed..That's the best word I can think of to define

it.. I have decided on a plan of attack however.. Ive been doing quite

a bit of thinking..and I think I need to save every dime.. and start to

look for a better place.. I plan to call the HUD man and see about

getting on that list for houses..then find a new doctor.. and MAYBE

I can live one day with NO worries.. THAT would be so great.. I

probably wouldn't know how to act! I bet I would enjoy it though..

What Im going to enjoy right now is some of my great lime Kool Aid

and some peanut butter crackers.. They have these new Ritz ones

that are rectangular shaped and are really good with PB... A few

of those..some TV, I know I wont get to watch a whole lot of it.. I am

really tired.. My poor arms feel like theyre gonna fall off... as long as

they don't before I get on my bed, Im good ... "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Love ya.. and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....