~What Am I Saying?~

Have you read me latelY?.. Me thinks I have been complaining.. NOW what is WRONG with that picture?? I cant believe what I write.. My word.. sheesh.. I was thinking back and comparing what I had before I moved in here..the hellhome I mean...before that I did live good..I worked hard to though...But compairing to the hellhome? wow.. I need to just SHUT UP here I think...I am living good comparing the 2 places..No, living GREAT.compared to the HELLHOME... I am grateful :-) I shared a room with another person.. usually they always gave me someone that was totally out of it.. and needed constant care and was up all night..one of the worst in the building , just to get even with me I think.. The nurses knew to try to be as quiet as they possibly could and not turn on every light in there or they would hear from me if they woke me up before it was time for my pain med to wear off... The management hated me there is why.. I would tell on them. They gave me the room mates that were required the most care.. and usually put aides on my hall that I didnt like or ones that didnt like me.. And frankly l didnt care who liked me or not .. I said what I said..I dont lie..lol. then or now....But it kept me in trouble.. well they were my dearies and I loved everyone of them.. Such lovely people.. just so eager for someone to pay them some attention.. So many had no one. Broke my heart...such lovely people..such stories they told of their lives... Our rooms I bet were no bigger than 8 foot by 10.no, I m guessing well they held 2 beds..2 night stands and 2 chairs. period. nothing else.. I traded my chair for another night stand for more storage We had a sink that was between the 2 closets..we each had our own. I kept my bed long ways..an I tried to make them keep the other bed the same way as the bathroom door was at the foot of the other bed..I wanted the window bed...and I fought till I got the room at the end of the hall they were a tad bigger than the others I dont remember how many rooms were in hall..I was in D? no C.. fooey I dont remember maybe B? Ya I think B cuz the main door OUT of the buildling was the hall to the right of mine... They kept me in the same hall even tho they moved me.. wow..I can remember at least 3 rooms no.4? I was in..I came back from having my left leg taken, they had packed up alot of my stuff, said I had too much in there..and put what ever they wanted into storage there fire hazard they said.. I was so upset.. I called my sister and told them what they had done to me. . Can you imagine how traumatic that was? lose my leg and come back to most of my stuff being gone? My sis was there the next day wanting to know just what they thought they were doing .She gave them HELL let me tell you lol..I got my stuff back.. It was just another way of getting rid of me, they kept asking me did I want to leave..but then when I could they said no. My left stump was too infected and I needed better care and would get it there more than I would in my own place. maybe that was true since it did take almost a year to heal..My sis looked out for me, bless her heart.. Every saturday, she faithfully was there.. I didnt know for a long time just how worried she was that I was going to die and each time she saw me, she worried it was the last time..I have the best sister anyone could have.. But comparing what I have now..and had only 5 years ago..I need to NOT complain at all.. what if Mona hadnt found me? Or whom ever it was , i think the social director found Mona..I could still be over there? no..no I would have found another apartment..some I did see I am so fortunate to have this one..I need to not complain Now i made myself feel really gulity lol..well I am grateful I have this place..I am.. its messy yes..but its clean..just a Messy Weeble lives here lol..and 2 messy cats... Well I will just shut my mouth now..and stuff it full so I shut up..and quit complaining for a while.. I am SO bad lol. so, I'm off in search of food as usual..just a light snack..so pardon moi...nitey nite.. Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA~~!!!! thanks...:-) Always, Lois***. May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...