~STRESS~

I woke up in such a bad mood today, but I feel good.. As the day progressed it gradually got worse. The stress and aggravation of this caregiver stuff has me at my wits ends and not a bloody thing I can do about it.. Every time I question my hours they change it. And no one will take the blame.. its always some other department that handles it... And if we DO complain too much we lose even more. there is no winning... I get my lunch delivered free from COA(commission on aging) today it got here at 2pm.. I live right accross the street from them..What is wrong with that picture? I bet some people that are getting theirs so late and need it to take meds are so upset.. who wants to eat lunch at 2pm in the afternoon? Then I found out Jane still works for them.. but lied to me, they had told me I would only have a carer for a few weeks and to avoid blame or discrimination had her lie, thats why she is NOT returning my calls..I've called her 4 times now.. I found out to day I asked the lunch delivery guy he told me she is still over there, that just added to the stress today too.. .. I just dont understand.. I am allowed I found out.. 7 hours a MONTH for someone to do laundry.. 6 hours a MONTH for cleaning. and 50 minutes per day for meal prep if they have to fix 3 meals a day. and 5 hours a month for shopping.. Can you see anything wrong with this? Or am I just being a buggar? I guess I shouldnt complain its better than nothing at all.. But this sure gives me stress ..So much stress that I spent this after noon in bed again.. I got such a bad headache I thought it was going to explode, I dont handle it very well.. but who does? When I get like this I say "I just wanna tear my face off and be some one else".. reminds me of that movie with John travolta and Nicolas Cage,, Face Off.. was a great movie... I think of all of these other people that cant complain..and I know are probly in worse shape than me.. Then I watched some of these tv shows on during the day the talk shows.. and my word..the crap they discuss .. nothing serious like issues concerning disabled.. never do you hear anything about it.. not on any show Ive seen.. its so sad.. and not a thing we can do, I guess its more important to show these women that have 10 or 12 men tested to see if they are the father of their child or some woman that doesnt know how to NOT spend money. Go figure..lol Aint life grand? :-) well I guess its all this stuff that keeps every one going, variety, they say is the "spice of life"..I prefer saffron my self lol... :-) what I would give for some saffron buns about now I bet they would make my head ache go away lol.. I have decided to try to do most of my own cleaning etc. then I wont have to contend with all of this every other month. I made some calls to find out about getting things that might help like a small broom etc. One good thing I did get my faucet fixed today and it is really nice. the water actually comes out really fast! a new sprayer and chris says he will fix or replace the garbage disposal from hell that I have.. stuff falls out of my cupboards when you turn it on its so bad.. I dont ever use it but I guess its standard issue with these apts..Maybe a new one will be better .. not so noisey and vibratey....hmm new word lol... WEll now that i have ruined everyones day and whined and boo hooed i am going back to bed to get this day over with so I can get to the week end and for get about phone calling until monday.. My head is going to explode ... just kidding. Lets hope the week end will be better. Kelli just phoned offering to come over on Sunday to help me.. what a sweet girl she is. Such a doll.. Im so glad she and her dad are part of my life. What would I do with out them.. well Im off to go back to my bed and watch tv, and find a snack of course.. thats the post, post routine here :-) Y'all have a better one than me ok? luv ya..and thanks..I'm sorry for the crappy post tonite but I just had to gripe..... think Ill go soak my head in the toilet LOL...naaa im laying it down.. nitey nite.:-) Always, Lois*** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...