~Ok, Arrest Me~?~hmmm....

I have to go to court tuesday, the 12th, be there at 8:15 am. Do you

know that when I do, I am saying "here I am you can arrest me now"

When the police came to my apartment they just took the Crap and

left, they said nothing, the last words were "bye". Now, with them

leaving like that, why would I think I had been arrested? Would you?

I watch that show Cops all the time, and with all the cops and robbers

shows on tv now, well I have never seen an arrest handled like this.

It says on this paper I should go down to the Police Station so I can

be fingerprinted, before I go to court tuesday, I called and got special

dispensation and they will take my fingerprints when I get to court.

THEN they said I can post bond and get out. Im going to court on

Tuesday so they can arrest me... Im not arrested now.. I got not that

first ticket, nothing.. I dont understand how they can do this.

The bad part is NO ONE will tell you what to expect or anything, I called

the public defenders office before when I still was thinking they were

gonna do something..they told me they dont handle criminal cases.. I

just dont understand this.. I told the police officer, that is no longer on

the force, that they were NOT allowed in with out a search warrant, yet

he MADE me let that other officer IN!~ I had SAID NO..I dont see how

they can do this stuff.. I called one lawyer, he said ,"it will cost you

$1500.oo for me to handle this case. And was sposed to be a free

consultation and he wouldnt even tell me what to expect at court...

I just dont understand how they are doing police work now..I have not

that first time seen anything handled like this. It just doesnt seem fair.

What this has done to my health, my stress factor is really at the

breaking point here. I was told they may offer me a deal if I agree to

go to a rehab or whatever, if they dont charge me... If I have to I will

BUT I am NOT a drug addict..not by any means...The amounts that

I have at one time is ONE at a time, sometimes 2.. but all donated

to me out of having a HEART. What I got when they were here

was a gift, from some special friends I hadnt seen in a year..

I had to go to the doctor, I now have to have a nurse come and monitor

me, my nerves are shot, Ive lost weight, I dont think they have ANY

idea of the affect this has had on me, and SADLY I dont think the

Prosecuting Attorney or the Police care at all..Yet I am told NOT to

worry, I am VERY worried.. The police officer Brewer, thats gone, I

told him it was medicinal, and that I was a traumatic amputee that

I had phantoms..I even explained some of what PVD is.. he asked!!!

I dont know.. And I have to wait till I roll into that court room, thank

GOD Raelynn and Wayne will be with me, or do you know..I would

have to go alone? Isnt that just a scarey thought..

This whole thing has caused me to do some serious thinking, and

serious crying too let me tell ya.. Well I did this to my own stupid

self..I did..and DAMMIT..I WILL fix it.. I will do what I have to.. If I

lose HUD, well I will just have to make some major adjustments

in what I can and cant do thats all..and If Raelynn and I stick it

out and can make her my 24-7 caregiver, well things might work

out.. Being as sick as I have been this past month.. I mean I was

really sick a couple nights enough to scare me..and think that...

"HEY, Im all alone here with only 2 cats" I didnt like it too well at

all ..it did kind of scare me.. And Raelynn is a good careprovider,

shes a certified aide, next to a nurse almost, knowing the MI

course for it..since I am one as well..when I worked, I am also a

LPN, but I havent kept my license up for years..but its something

that you never forget.. So we have done some serious talking that

maybe we could find a nice 2 story house..where we each had our

own space. I think that would work good.. Especially since my

knight seems to have gotten LOST! lol..

Well enough of this CRAP for tonite.. Im going to try to eat something

I maybe shouldnt its almost 8, I hate to go to sleep, when I do the

sooner it will be tomorrow another day closer to that horrible day on

Tuesday.. Lord , I dread that day, If I had legs and feet boy would I

just be kicking the daylights otta myself... I would do it for ya lol.. But

I do want to thank y'all for all the good advice and wishes and great

uplifting stuff trying to keep my spirits up, sure means alot to me.. I

have a question...dont anybody know a "special" lawyer here in this

GREAT state of Michigan?? HELPPPP lol... :-) Nitey Nite :-)

Remember its LovelyLittleLegs@gmail.com :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya...and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..