~I Whine Alot~ :-)

I have been trying to write a post tonite for 2 hrs. and each

one I have almost finished I re read and I delete them.. I am

just at a state that I dont want to write and sound like some

kind of whiner.and boo hooey weeble. I had written about all

this bloody money they all want for deposits, but no one can

give any help on getting them. I can fill out forms..and send

them in..and I will have to pay a co-pay. I have no idea how

much. All the deposits.. gas, electric, water, trash, add up

to..$397.oo..not counting the 400 for the house..I did good

on the gas..I was worried the bill would be enormous over

100 a month.. I asked for a budget and they said of course

after the 65.oo was paid i could get a budget of 55.oo a

month every month of the year. That would be great...

But I have to say I am really getting tired of it.. Not only being

such a mouthy thing and writing it all here ..but I whine to

my friends and even poor Donnie..he came by tonite and

we talked about all this.. He says "Gran, my house payment

is over 1000 a month! Dont tell me about bills! :" The cost

to live nowdays Is staggering..specially for people like me

and even like Donnie, he works 5 days a week..yet still has

a lot of expense to live good..why he works 2 jobs and on

saturday sometimes.. I asked him "Donnie, what if you lost

your job and Dawns?.. what would you do?" THAT is a scarey

thought..specially when there is no help really out there. If

I hadnt been as frugal as I was. and had a couple dollars

saved up..I would be in REALLY bad shape..If I didnt have

that 400? well..I wouldnt be in this house...

ANYWAY.. I was just gonna write about anything, I never

know till I say time to post.. but there is some good news..

I had called Que earlier and she returned my call..We had

a 3 way conversation call with her and Kathy..Kathy is nice.

Well she assured me.. said "LOIS..do NOT worry, you WILL

get the grant..do not worry about the rent, we are worried

about a ramp for you..".. so .. I do NOT need to worry, but

you know me too..until I see it in paper and they have made

that first payment? well THEN I will believe...but it did make

me feel a bit better...THEN. I got a call from the Referrer..

lol ya.. I had to call my Doctor to get a prescription that I need

a new power chair or mine fixed. Her name is Sherry. well

now they are going to REFER her order to get me a new

power chair.. I am SO glad.. I have to have it.. I am so give

out by the days end fighting this carpet.. I thanked her many

times..and she said she would push it through as fast as

she could.. I hope they do something fix this or replace it..

I have to have it since I am not getting the carpet taken up..

If I could afford to put a linoleum down after I took this rug

up I would they have some beautiful stuff looks just like

hard wood floors..would that be wonderful.. The carpet in

the bedroom is awful..we figgured out why i have a worse

time in there..the carpet is not stretched its all wavy and

loose..which is the problem.. I will show that to Chris..

also the bathroom floor..its really bad.. and we tried but

that paint wont come up..he needs to do something

about that floor, its so full of paint they should have just

painted the floor too.. I think they were gonna replace it

thats why they werent careful..then didnt for some reason.
But it needs replaced. I put up a deposit. I hope he does

So some good some bad..I know everyone has money

trouble these days of one kind or another..aint it old? It

is for me. Once I get these deposits paid..and this place

fixed..I WILL be OK..all together say...... "AMEN" lol..

ohh more good news..Donnie said saturday they are

coming to haul the rest out of storage, AND my Dolly will

be here as well!!! Her and Jorge will help..NOW..its that

just good or what??? Be great having Kelli here.. I miss

her..I had that girl the first 4 years..Donnie had her the rest..we

talked tonite about that..and patted each other on the back

we did good..shes a trophy ..and just a great kid...and

doing so wonderful..we are proud of her..Donnie sure is..

so there WAS good today.. I gripe and whine and worry,

and the day ends..and I crawl up on my bed..find a good

spot amongst all my pillows..yes I have them already..and

last nite I slept ALL night!! I hope I do tonite too..but then

I didnt drink iced tea before bed last nite either lol..ohoh

hmmmm oh well I may not sleep all nite tonite (as I look at

that half empty can of tea over there!!!) :-) Nitey Nite!

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? luv ya!!! THANKS..:-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..