~More Chair Crap!~ :-(

A man, I forgot his name, called me from Wright Filippis and I hung

up on him. I told him exactly what I have been saying since day 1 of

all this...and now after I went round n round with this new guy as to

why the 6 wheels are necessary for stability. I will do without a chair

raising up.. I cant have the tires in front, it has to be flat.. Then that

Scott that was here, told me it was standard that all power chairs

had the joy stick on the left- which is NOT true. I must have talked

to him for the better part of an hour and he more or less said I would

have to go back to the Dr. again to get verification of my disability

if that paperwork was over 45 days old.. THAT was when I told him

to forget about this chair and to shove it..and hung up..I then called

my insurance lady and told her all this moronic company is doing

and still NO CHAIR..and that I think they just need to find another

company.. I refuse to keep going thru this.. Enough is enough.. I
wont keep banging my head on this brick wall...I already got the

headache..I want it gone... Deborah at my insurance said she will

try to find out what is going on.. I had her look to make sure they

did NOT pay for that chair, as I refused to accept it... People that

don't spend every waking hour in a chair, really have not the vaguest

idea of what it is really like...

A person messaged me on yahoo and I replied.. one of the remarks

made after the basic hello's..he made the comment.." you have it made,

you get to sit all day, I have to stand at work" You KNOW what I said..

:-).. "YOU CAN STAND? AND compLAIN? I sit a lot longer than the 8

hours spent at a job.. from eyes open to eyes shut..that is a very long

time...Everything I do I have to be able to do it from this chair. I get

really indignant with some of these people with these agencies that

"Assume" to know how hard something is OR what it feels like to have

to ASK for help constantly...they have no idea.. One woman at a home

care agency MStaff, said to me she saw "no reason I could not SCOOT

across and get in to a careproviders vehicle" She has NO idea what

its like and when she said that to me..well I got very mad and told her

just what I thought.. Untill you have actually DONE something how can

you be an authority on a subject and know first hand? This lady made

me very mad... SHE saw no reason..well SHE wasn't the one doing

it...I do NOT employ their home aides. Some of the people over at

the COA here have that same mentality as the woman from MStaff

and I have gotten into it with them. Like the lady that said to me when

I was in the homeless shelter "arent you glad to be in such a nice

place?" No, I wasn't glad.. I didn't want to be there I don't care if it

was a castle.. I was grateful..and I appreciated what they did do

for me, but glad? no I was NOT glad... She had NO idea what I

felt..all she saw was the new building and the squeaky clean

areas inside.. I appreciated I had a place to lay my head,, but I

was far from glad.. I think that is one time I hope I never go thru

again.. I felt totally worthless, and useless as well..That was one

of the LOWEST points of my life, even more than when I became

an amputee...that was worse...

Penny came today and went to the grocery store and got me some

blueberry muffins.. I havent had one YET..She goes down to the

gas station on the corner and they have these things I call ICEE's

its slushy ice and its flavored..very good..When I have a thirst I

cant seem to quench these do the trick... I usually cant drink ice

cold drinks as I have a hiatial hernia and ice cold stuff can close

my throat tighter than a cork! I have to drink them slowly but they

are so good.. I think Burger King has them too but they just

changed the flavor and I don't like it at all.. I did try the other week

some of those cini mini's from McD's..now..those are very good.

and it doesn't look like you get alot..but there are a lot of those

little mini buns in those bowls.. So easy to make..all it is are

those cheapie biscuits cut in 3 and then put in that plastic bowl

with butter and cinnamon and sugar on them.. Easy to make..

and very good.. But McD's cini's are really good..

I need more closet space that's all there is to it.. I would like some

kind of amoire or wardrobe that had 2 rods for hanging clothes

on them.. I don't have to hang the clothes UP, I just have to be

able to get them OFF the hangars..Penny hangs them up.. I saw

where they have these things that hook onto the higher rod and

then extends down farther for a 2nd lower rod.. doubling your

hanging space..which for me is good I don't have anything that

is full length like a dress..well I do have a couple loungers..but

they can be folded in half over a hanger.. Penny told me today

that I need more plastic hangers AGAIN!! I have NO idea where

they have all gone.. I bet I have bought 8 dozen hangers.. I know

I have a lot of clothes..but well.. everything at one time had one..

NOW they all dont..and Ive not gotten anything new since the

apartment except 2 skirts and a sweater from the shelter..so

where'd the hangers disappear to.. I think its the same for

hangers as it is for socks.. don't know where its disappeared

to..where'd they go? I know my drier ate mine :-)

I have some HOMEMADE bread cooking in my bread machine.

I hope it works ok..Ruth was the last one to use it and we cant

find the manuals to it.. I need to get a filing cabinet to keep these

kinds of things in one place.. I am NOT organized..I have stuff

everywhere and I think a filing cabinet would fit perfect right

here next to my Desk and my 3 in 1 could fit right on top. Its on

an old typewriter table with the drop leaf sides..push the bar

thingie and the wheels go up and it wont move.. I used it when

I was in the hellhome to keep my sewing machine on it..Was

great for that and its fine for this..but all that space under neath

is wasted where a filing cabinet I could file stuff right and then

I bet I could actually find something im looking for right away.
Sometimes I never CAN find what im looking for its so bad :-)

Its here somewhere ..but where..well its always in the last place

you look anyway...

My bread is almost done..its cinnamon raisen..I KNOW it will be

so good..I havent had this in ages...Dawn has one and she does

hers from scratch.. I use a mix.. I KNOW its better from scratch

but well.. this is easy.. We found ants in the cat food.. Penny

did this morning when she was sweeping.. They only go after

the moist food not the dry..but when I put the dish in a pan of

water, the ants don't know how to swim or something..but I

don't have them anymore...So we found a dish and now the

boys food is in water again..just like I did over at the apt.. It

worked there... I wonder if its true ..ants cant swim? hmmm..

I say NO they cant.. or maybe they figgure if they drag food

thru water they will drown.. I bet someone has done a study

on this and made a fortune :-)

Well its that time again and I am tired.. I bet I woke up a dozen

times last nite..that spot on my back butt spot..end of my

tailbone.. That spot gets to hurting I cant stand it.. I don't know

if its just me..or this new bed...its not an open soreness..It

feels like my tail bone is pushing thru the skin. I dunno but

it sure can quit.. Its ok if I sit up..then move a bit to my side..

then lay back down so I am not laying flat on my back... Just

to move I have to sit up first then scoot to where I want to be.

By then I am wide awake... And I do not sleep good then..

So Wed. nite is pretty good tv..medium I think is on and I do

like that show.. Lost is too but Im lost in it myself.. I Have NO

idea what is what there now..Time for bread, time for bed,

time to say "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya, and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..