~Better Pressure~ :-)

Well seems my blood pressure perhaps is getting under

control.. The nurse was here today and its just about right.

was 170/74 or something like that.. which is pretty good.
Im glad.. I had discussed with her my issues with my Dr and

the nurses there and she did agree that a different Dr every

time you go isnt a really good thing.. There is a new doctor,

a woman, that is taking new patients..and I may go and see

her just to have ONE doctor.. I know im not deathly ill or have

any really serious stuff but things that do need to be kept a

check on to keep them under control.. so I seriously think I

will change Drs.. I did call about the med for my elbow..and

the nurse said the Dr didn't think that I needed to redo the

med for it, something happens, if I have any more trouble

with it again to call them back.. Its not totally pain free but it

is a lot better.. some spots I cant touch but over all I can

handle this..

The nurse and I were discussing phantoms today and I tried

to explain to her just how they feel and it is really hard to

describe something that someone would possibly never feel.

I told her about Monday when Penny was here and cleaning

the wheels of my chair for me.. I can do it..but its not easy ,

the steady bending and reaching..So anyway.. As Penny is

cleaning.. I feel every touch she makes to this chair.. well its

part of me now..its attached :-)..I was sitting here feeling her

touching my chair..and I found myself moving my legs..and

feet to get them out of the way so she could wipe off the tires.

I had to laugh..and told her what I was doing..she laughed too..

The nurse, Tracy, was amazed when I told her if I think real

REAL hard.. I can move each toe.. I can feel them move.. I

can swing my legs..side to side only tho..not out in front of me

like lifting your leg straight out in front of you..I cant do that..

It seems strange since they will go side to side so easily..

I cant always feel my toes.. but I feel the whole foot.. I told her

how sometimes the pain is REAL..she said a study has

proven that these pains are as bad as if the limb was still there

and being hurt.. so maybe that has advanced.. I have an

appointment Oct 2nd with the vascular Dr..

I wasn't going to go to him.. but if I can get a little relief from the

phantoms.. that would be nice..but if not that's ok..then you just

have to endure it.. My fingers on my hands..the tips.. the index

on my right and the middle ring finger..the ends tingle a lot.. and

the ends go to sleep a lot lately.. both hands the tips are dark,

Tracy noticed that today too.. So I will go and see what they say,

I am really curious about the phantoms..and I want to know why

in each of my stumps there is a spot..if I move the bone it will

hit a certain area and it HURTS.. Id like to know.. Ive started a

list of questions.. I might as well find out all I can.. I hope they

don't want to do testing and crap.. just to see if and where and

how much is blocked ..and then say "WAIT" till it gets badder..

but I do want to know if perhaps there is something to just get

a little relief.. specially when it really acts up..I think a lot of it

is hips..which I want to know too..

I know when I lay on my right side.. my hips hurt.. specially the

left.. I know its cuz laying on my side puts pressure on the hip

since that stump is longer by at least...4 inches or so? Just

that little bit does make a difference..but too I think my left

stump is heavier than my right.. and why that is I don't know..

If anything I would think since when I transfer I always use

my left to lead out with that it would be firmer and possibly

smaller.. It could be because of that binder I wore..but then

that was 5 years ago.. but they are different ..in size, shape

and definitely looks.. I would like some relief tho and some

answers so I guess that's the place to logically start.. :-)

The next starting point is in the kitchen where im going to start

my countdown to bedtime.. I got up again at 4 this morning and

I have to say I really AM tired to nite..We got a lot done today,

and Im glad.. Im trying to sell my recliner and made some signs

and Penny took them around for me..Hopefully I may be able

to get a few hundred out of it..if this move goes thru I will need

it for deposit etc.. I know Chris will be just as lax getting that to

me as he is in doing every thing else if I do move..

Food.. Kool Aid.. TV.. sleep.. hopefully in that order :-)

"nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....