~Post 1000 Today ~ :-)

This post today is my 1000th post.. I don't know where

the time has gone.. I am amazed at my self that I have

written here every day, well except for my stay in the

homeless shelter for those awful weeks.. Writing every

day you would think my life was just an exciting thing and

just wonderful.. well to be totally honest..some days it is

wonderful..some days just ok..then some days..well they

werent really necessary at all..:-) but I made it through

them... surprisingly :-) I will be the first one to say it the

loudest.. THIS AINT EASY! :-)

Someone asked me a question.. "do you LIKE being an amp?"

And to be totally honest I don't really LIKE it..but I accept

it.. Ive got no choice.. Being this short is a BIG drawback

and being in this chair..doing everything in it.. Some days

when I get stuck and am trying to carry something and I

only have one had to roll with.. its not easy to do.. I try

and try and get so stressed I have to just sit and wait till

I get my senses back and THEN try it again..like ive said all

along, 'my plan of attack'..

The only maybe good thing about being in a chair.?.well I don't

have to stand in line anymore.. I don't have to worry if I go

somewhere will I get a seat, I don't have to worry about

walking a mile, I can roll... sure my arms give out..but that's

all just part of the joys of chair life... If I have to roll any

distance, like I did when I left this crappy hospital here,

I refused to let them push my chair and I rolled all the

way through that place and by the time I got to Millie and

the COA van I had some major achey brakey arms... No

matter what it is if you look, you can see the good side.. I

firmly believe that there is SOME good in everything.. I

can look at a worn down old place and I don't see it as that,

I see what it was when it was in its glory, and I see it too

as it could look with some TLC. its all how you look at things.

I guess being a nurse, I accepted my amputations more than

someone else would.. I didn't know anything about them until

I was told I was going to have my leg taken the first time. I

had NO idea this could happen to me.. But when it did I just

said to my self "well aint this a bitch, now what am I gonna

do?" ..well make the best of it ! and do the very best you can,

then farther on down the line you CAN look back and at

least say you TRIED...that you did the best you could do at

the time... Ive met other amputees that have a hard time

accepting themselves.. not only how they look but how they

are reacting to it.. going forward.. I try to encourage them,

this is so not easy and if you are NOT really strong and

determined, like me.. I can see where some would be so

down and not happy at all..and that's sad.. life is good ..I'm

so grateful I have every day.. and when I wake up..that's how

I face it.. minute by minute ..and go from one day to the

next.. I have to laugh and try to be happy because it is just

SO easy to cry... too easy.. and when I cry I get a headache

and that's not acceptable :-)

Well I had an awful lunch..Chris said "its bbq, but I don't know

what kind, beef or pork" I went out and looked and my comment

is 'is she SURE its bbq?? :-) by MY standards..THAT is NOT

bbq.. It did come with scalloped corn tho that was very good.

From what Chris said they are changing where they get the

food from, now I guess the cook for the jail is gonna cook

for us! this should be good ! :-) from what ive heard about

jail food we may be going from the frying pan into the FIRE!

I'm gonna make my favorite sammich, my PB&J...wish I had

a banana..be even better!... Its that time again and I cant

close this until I say my GORGEOUS WEEBLE "nitey nite"

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya and Thanks :-)

Always, Lois ****

God Bless You, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend"

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

until I write again .....