~Thats All I Got To Say About That~

I bet I woke up at least 5 times and I KNOW I got up

twice... Today I feel like I'm on pins and needles, waiting

for my phone to ring and its VP setting up an appointment.

I cant even describe how badly I DONT want to do this. I

dread it and its making me crazy..All Ive thought about

since I talked to them.. All I think of is being poked and

stuck with needles and I hate that.. Ive had MORE than

my share and I have earned this right to dread it..Like

Raife said, every time I go to the Dr they tell me some

thing different, wanna do all these tests, give me a bunch

of pills to take.. I HONESTLY HATE this..The feeling I
feel right now is awful.. I dread this that much...But if I

DONT see this Dr, I will never hear the end of it either..
I cant win. and I am NOT happy..This week has started

off not very good, with worrying with that and I got an

email from my son, Mark on top of it that didn't make

me very happy either..But not much I can do about it.

Mark has returned to the UK..I had sent him an email a

few days ago inquiring as to how hes doing..There was

a reply this morning saying he has returned to England...

I know he missed his boy terribly and I KNOW that feeling

all too well..It was his choice and I guess he wasn't the

happiest in Pennsylvania..But my thought is..here he is

a citizen, in the UK hes an alien...This was his choice and

I do hope its the right one for him and his family..At least

we got to see each other and meet.. We will probly never

see each other in person again.. My oldest boy.. hes still

in PA too.. I don't hear from him at all..He reads this I do

know that.. He is doing good I hope...

I'm glad I opened the door to my past and got to meet my

sons.. I will leave it at that...I will say I had hoped for more,

but, I left the choice to them.. They both know how to find

me and where I am..I never did hide from them or anyone,

However things have been said that are forgivable.. just

not forgetable..and I have always had TOO good a memory.

Sometimes that is a blessing and then again can be a

bad thing..Time marches on..and I'm rolling with it.. I have

no choice.. I tried, and that's all I'm saying on this subject..

My sons wont be mentioned here again.. As Forrest said,
"thats all I got to say about that" :-)

Well my phone just rang..was Ashley. I have a breather,

and I can honestly say I AM breathing better :-) Next

Monday, no this Friday she will call and verify I have an

appointment for the 23rd..They will phone that Monday

morning to tell me a time.. I did ask that they try to come

in the morning though.. I am just NOT good in the after

noon.. All I have set up for the rest of this week is for

Travis to come tomorrow..about 10 or so I think.. I wrote

a note so I remember :-)


Anyhoway, I can take a deep breath now the worst part

is over.. I can do these few days..by Friday and I KNOW

by Sunday night I will be a basket case.. Ashley asked

if I had any outstanding health issues needed attention..

I gave her the list :-) I did forewarn her that my BP will

probly be out of sight..but its natural for me..:-)


I dunno whats for lunch we have not decided..This
GORGEOUS WEEBLE is gonna post this and go find

out.. Hope you had a good week end and have a great

week..Remember.. I shall return! :-)

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you 'friend'.

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...