Why Me???

I like when I get asked questions. It gives me things to think about.
Its NOT like I need more.or that my head is empty either now you
know lol...But I got a email from a friend today and the question was
Do you ever feel sorry for yourself, and say "WHY MEEEE????"

Sure..Alot..gives me cause to stop and think about well hell..WHY??
why not someone else? I think we all have our own ,, well I was
gonna say crap....and truthfully we ALL do..of some kind of another.
Some days..yeah..when I mean the harder I try the behinder I get
you know? and I sit and look around at all the things I wish I could
get fixed and done to make a few changes in here after 3 years the
same, or the odds and ends on my wish list..I sit and have a huge
pity party for awhile..cry boo hoo wah wah. But the clock is still
ticking..and I have NO choice but to go along as LONG as I
am too..Life just comes up behind you kicks you in the patootie
butt and says "HEY..c'mon..I DONT STOP"..so ..well you can
go on or stay still and die. ME? lolol ya right..naaaaa nope..
Like I said I'm still tickin here..lol.. I do like me..I always HAVE.
I liked how i looked b4, i liked what I thought b4, I like how I look
now..and I like who I still am...Ive NOT changed..well maybe a
little more outspoken a tad..but HEY I can, we all got gripes...
and for me telling is the best fixer upper sometimes..thats why
I write all this...

Jane comes tomorrow ..POOR JANE..lol she called said she will be
here about 11..shes a card..we chit chat alot..she sits and sadly has a
ciggie ..she sees me too..but well shes an adult..was my choice too
to smoke..well ok..those gorgeous legs i had thrown in the trash
because of them well thats kinda sad, but its her life..I told her
now its up to her..I quit..but was too late for me..They dont tell
you this on the ciggies or on the other shows etc about how bad
it is for you.. I had NO idea myself..i didnt..I thought from diabetis
you lost legs..not smoking..that was lung related..Well see? That
picture up top there? I had some nice legs..dont look at the rest
of frumpy me now..just the legs..where the bottom of the shorts
come is about where they were cut off at..the right about 3,4inches
shorter..Its hard to measure where is the exact end? its round
and where do you measure from? lol. Those 2 legs you see there
were I think given to some school that study this...which is a
good thing....

But Jane has her work cut out for her..ill help..but having to
make that emergency move, I had to quick move stuff I had
put in the meantime stashed on the desk..had to clear that.
then I made the mistake of leaving that cart tray thing too
close to the closet and yeahhh ole Dutchy Boy spotted that
REALL fast..so when he wants to lay down he WILL FIX
himself a spot and I gues there was too much up on that shelf
and he didnt like it..he wanted to lay down up there..and
his usual way he knocked it all down..My back is so sore
yet today Ive been up since 3 am with it..across the back
of my shoulders and the top of my arms..my wings are
cryin back there LOL...but its a disaster in here..and I
just cant do it..shes good..she will .. Dutch aint..hes here
on the side of the monitor gettin all warm under the lamp.
Poor Jane ..see Jane run..run Jane run..remember those
old books? lol..shes sweet im thankful for her, I wish I was
allowed all my caregiver hours of 42..but 16 a month is
better than NONE a month you know ? specially when you
have messy kids...

Im off for bed..I made some calls today and am waiting the
results on the great quest to get Lois some bottom teeth lol
Ill get em..im tired of all this soft stuff I need more solid
things to eat again..i cant wait for Pizza ** crunch n munch**
all that hard chewy stuff..yeahhh its time.. :-)
So Im off to snoozerville..check the eye lids for holes as they
say the rest of those 120 channels will have to wait ..I know
once I lay down and can find a comfy way to do it these eye lids
can have 50 holes and I dont think ill see otta them my eyes
be so far back sleepin..im tired..so are some other parts of
my anatomy...

I owe some emails to some..so please bare with me..and I
promise I will answer tomorrow.. i spelled it right HAHA
:-p ... well a snacker? yeah..tonite its some of those little
pb&j crackers ( p'nut butter n jelly) and my favorite soda..
remember what it is? lol and NO lookin back..quick! what?
hahaha cream sodaaaa ..im tellin ya..there WILL BE A
TEST ....take NOTES... :-D thanks hey? y'all make my days
so good..love all the mail..the questions..the IM"s..your
the best ...keep it up..you keep me going ya know???
Dutch says nite ..LB he says "hmmpf whys HE get on
the desk" hes pouting in the dining room lol...kids..

Y'all have a good one now y'hear?? luv ya.. :-)
ALways, Lois***

ps.. its blurry but its a pic of a pic of a pic with no
scanner ya know..just look at the legs.. :-)