~Asking~

Anyone can go up to someone else and ask them for help. We have all done that at some time or another. I have. If I couldnt find something in a store or got lost and needed directions, didnt know how to do something. But I think having to ask for help being in a chair is a bit different.. at least for me...Sure, I asked before. but under totally different type of circumstances, I could do it. now I cant DO it.. Different ones have said to me, "you need to get out more, when you need help, just ask". What I have to ask for help for now.. I never had to before.. opening a door. pushing a shopping cart, reaching some thing hanging too high, or something up on a shelf. I could do that, now I can't. I dont mind asking, but for me, it got old very fast, and I don't like the feeling it gave me. And one of the main reasons I dont like to go out alone, and I honestly don't think being here ALL the time makes me out to be some kind of weird hermit or anti social ...I LOVE people.. and I sure am NOT ashamed of who I am OR what I look like. I know I look good.. but if someone doesnt wanna see me.. well don't look at me then is all I can say, what you see is what you get.. and hey.. I told ya.. I'm gorgeous..lol.. :-) Many have told me I need to get out more. and perhaps I should explain more about where I live. I am not from this town. I dont know but ONE person that lives here, thats Jane. My sis and brother live over an hour away and Donnie isnt that far but leads a very hectic life. When my husband asked for a divorce I lived in another state. when I left him I moved to this state where Donnie & his wife took me in... Thus made me a resident here.. When I was released from rehab back there, they had to find a place for me somewhere back in my new state, and that is why I am here. It is NOT easy to venture out into a new strange town as an able bodied person, so you can only imagine the intimidation there is being like I am and to venture into totally strange places. I can get rides..yes.. but no one is available to go with me. . Jane could and has offered..but she is only allowed 2 hrs twice a week to come and help me.. I need those 4 hours to get the cleaning, laundry shopping etc done..to drag me along would take up precious time we dont have, and I would rather have clean clothes and apartment than say I went to a store, just to get out.. I stay in contact with people via the phone, or online.. I love to talk on the phone to hear who I have been getting letters from and I have gotten calls from all over the world . now how great is that? I can see people on cam..they can see me.. I can hear them and them me..all thru this wonderful machine.. The one thing I cannot get thru this machine..is the TOUCH of another person..THAT I admit I miss.. I see Donnie & Dawn, my sis and bro n law..and of course Jane, and the sweet young man that brings my lunch every day..hes so sweet.. So I DO have contact, and D&D , my sis always give me hugs and a kiss before they leave.. THATS a RULE here..gotta kiss bye..or you can't leave. My rule lol I kinda like it :-D hugs n kisses are good.. Donnie brought his puppy, a chocolate lab, named Jerky, gorgeous animal..HUGE one.. and he even gave some good sloppy kisses before he left.. I do get kisses from my boys..they are SO scratchy but I accept them willingly..only time I dont like Dutch's kisses are at 4am ...lol...oh.. the lunch guy... better get specific ..he doesnt havta give me a kiss when he leaves. he's excused.. :-). I also..am never bored at home..I can stay busy constantly even if I didnt have a computer.. I do too many things. I sew, craft, love puzzles...I can always find something to do..And now with this computer..I have friends from all over the world..now how great is that? I never was a social butterfly anyway.. I loved family gatherings..yes..but other than that.. I didnt go to bars or anything. out to eat ..but even shopping unless it was for groceries or sewing/craft supplies I wasnt interested, now I did LOVE.. well still do..to fish.. I could tell you some great fishing stories one of these nites I just may tell one of my great stories for you..lol... Well its time to ask the question..am I hungry? lol..yup..I havent eaten all day.. I got some great ideas for my christmas gift to you that I think will be VERY well liked...i am quite sure of it...Remember..you have to write and ask to be on it..send a letter and I will put you on my list.. I plan to send it out possibly thursday or friday..depends how fast i can get it done. so not much time left..let me know..lol... remember..you do NOT have to put me on yours to get mine, ok? :-) good, ok hungrytime .... Y'all have a good one now y'hear? luv ya and thanks... Always, Lois*** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...