~Mirror, Mirror~

Remember that from the movie Snow White... "Mirror, Mirror, on the
wall.. who's the fairest of them all?" When I look in the mirror some
times I just sit there and stare at myself. I look me over from head to
foot? lol..well. I look to where they USED to be, and see nothing but the
underside of my chair, and I do say mirror mirror , but I say
"Mirror, Mirror, on the wall..WHO ARE YOU?, Do I KNOW that person
that I see. sitting there, looking back at me.?"

I see the same face that I know, the hair, arms, body, even the stumps,
the only thing gone are the rest of my legs. It really still is ME. I smile
at myself, I like what I see, the blonde long hair is still the same, waves
and curls. I see the same gorgeous face :-) lol..well its true! :-) I see the
same smile, (well minus the lower dentures) lol. I kinda frown at that,
but I see the same body, arms, hands with all my 17 rings still on the
fingers.... I see the pretty silk skirt, and the matching top, I still look
good..and I see no changes...other than 2 legs that are gone...

I try to imagine just where my knees were and how far down my feet
would be, if they would hit the floor, I try remembering to when I was
a sak, my foot just barely touched the floor. But, when I look into the
mirror I can't picture it at all ... All I see is how I am NOW, and think
"well, still gorgeous, still a smile, still lookin' good..so aint NUTHIN
wrong with this picture". And that is true...Lois is still there.....

Ive gotten mail from other amputees that have such a hard time to
accept the new person they feel they have become..and really they
havent.. all that has changed is they have gotten shorter and get to
sit all the time, which true, is not a good thing as it does give you a
tendency to spread in places you dont want to .lol. but then again,
thank GOD the wheelchair was invented ! We are all still us, just
takes TIME to see that even through all of the pain, agony, hurt,
and aggravation of having to make such an adjustment the same
person is still there. And no matter if you are alone or with a dozen
friends if you cannot accept yourself, you will ALWAYS be ALONE.

The things we all go thru, the pain, suffering and yes even torture
it feels like at times.. the aggravations, I think that is why we feel
we have changed so drastically and not ourselves anymore..yet
deep down inside. . . we are still there. Some amputees I have
read things they say and the attitudes I will say ,, make me a
bit mad, and sad, and I feel sorry for them, some have tried to
hurt those that are nice to them by using them for what they
can get from them because of the POOR ME attitudes, and how
bad they have it, things are SO HARD... well LIFE IS HARD...
Not just for us...for everybody. We have had to go thru alot
that is so very true, but perhaps the word I should use is SOUL
is still the same, if one way doesnt work try another to find it
again. THAT cannot change...although sadly some amputees,
have forgotten they have one, and use what has happened, to
use other people and THAT I do NOT agree with at all.

Me and my 2 cents again lol. and I never run out of cents lol.
as you are finding out.. If I step on any toes I apologize, but
I say what I think thats why ya luv me lol....I know y'all do lol..
on that note I am logging off....... :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? luv ya,, and THANKS!!!!
Always, Lois***

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...