~Good Suggestions~

I get some wonderful suggestions of things to help me and it is very

interesting and very helpful to me..Its so nice to know that someone

has taken the time to think of me and send me their thoughts and

ideas of things that could make it easier for me. I sincerely appreciate

it. And believe me I take all into consideration. And I WILL try them...

I need all the help I can get... :-)

When I have to do things now and I have trouble doing them, like the

simple thing of picking something up off the floor.. how easy it was

to just bend over to pick it up, now I have to be careful when I do

lean over; I hang on , my chair is locked, and depending on what it

is I'm picking up it may take me 2or 3 tries specially if its something

thin.. I barely reach the floor with my fingers. I sit sometimes and

think of these simple things I took for granted that I would always

be able to do. To take a shower, to dressing, to even washing

dishes.. All has changed. So when I get ideas from someone I am

glad, since maybe it wasnt something I had thought of myself...

It is not really that its a huge effort, well ;some things are..vacuuming

mopping or sweeping are, and I guess truth be known it is alot

harder, but its all able to be done.. just in a more efficient way that

is more suited to someone with no legs. I have had to make so

many new adjustments as to how I get things done. If I cant come

up with a way to adapt to how I do things it can get myself in

trouble , burnt or cut or even to falling out of my chair which is

most definitely NOT a good thing.

I fell out of my chair quite a few times when I was in the hellhome

and luckily did not get hurt. I had fallen asleep and went forward

and hit the floor.. woke me up real fast let me tell you...Its not

a good way to be woke up..They put a seat belt on my chair for

me as they thought that would help, yes it did when I went forward

the next time I hit the floor but then I got hit by the chair that came

over with me since I was strapped into it.. so I got hit twice front

and back. Needless to say I had it taken off. I would fall asleep

so quickly that I had to wear that belt all the time.. as it turned

out my medications were causing me to do that, once they got

them refigured I didnt do that anymore and I was glad, I hated

wearing that belt..messed up my clothes for one thing ..and

didnt match what I was wearing most of the time. That was NOT

a good thing lol...... :-)

So many have told me that they appreciate my attitude towards

my new life that I have not seemed to let it get me down..that I

am just so accepting of all I have been through, the drastic

changes in my life.. That I always seem to be happy.. I have bad

days, when I feel what is all this for.. and why me ? What have

I done that I was chosen to endure this, and I do get very down

some days. My life has totally turned around compared to 6 yrs ago.
I think of these 6 years and the changes and it is really very

staggering.. I wonder if I had known that day I had those 2

massive heart attacks and had known all the pain and agony

that was ahead would I be willing to go on. And the answer is

"of course" I aint givin up, NO WAY !! :-)

I can laugh at myself at how I am.. when I fall over on the bed or

if I do something really stupid that I KNOW better than to do..

If I dont laugh, I would cry so easily sometimes.. There are times

I get so mad.. I really do.. that I had things I still wanted to do and

cant now, or places I wanted to see and go..and I cant now.. but

when I think of all the things that have replaced them its ok.. and

I CAN still be a happy person... I dont like those bad times..I

dont want to stay there, I like the happier things perhaps that is

the difference.. I just took those happy things for granted before

that they would always be there, perhaps now, being like this

when I do get a happy thought or something that makes me laff

I appreciate it more that I CAN still enjoy these things... That I
can still see out my windows and pet my boys. I can still smell

the roses in my life so to speak..Now thats a good thing.. :-)

Speaking of smelling.. no no not ME..lol.. I have some homemade

split pea soup cooking on the stove.. and sure reminds me of my

gramma.. She came over from England back in the 1900's My

grandfather was a miner and came to work the mines here, him

and his brother and brother in law. Pea soup was one of her

specialities.. and as hard as I try I still cannot make it like hers..

So I am off again to the kitchen.. hmmm thats my last nightly

stop every nite lol.. well I wouldnt want my kitchen to feel neglected

I spend so much time in here on this computer lol..My nose tells

me its ready.. see? just think if i couldnt SMELL these wonderful

things? Im so fortunate :-)

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? luv ya.. and thanks..

Always, Lois ***

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...