~Its Rae's Fault~

I am going to be messed up on days this whole week..Rae

didnt come today, she had a flat tire, and so she wont be here

until tomorrow..So my whole week is gonna be goofy. up..I wont

remember what from what lol... And its Rae's fault...she is in

such BIG trouble lol...and she doesnt even KNOW IT.lol..She will

laugh when I tell her...:-)

I knew we were going to have a storm, my stumps have felt

like they each weigh 900 pounds. This morning when I sat

up it was almost hard to do they felt so swollen, yet they

really werent. Some days, they really feel as though they could

just explode the pressure is built up so badly. My feet just

drive me nuts they hurt so bad sometimes..And what gets me

is that REALLY, there is NOT a time that they dont ache or

hurt or cramp up. Sometimes its so bad and catches me off

guard and my whole stump will move. My invisible feet ...

well some days..If they weren't gone I would maybe make

arrangements for them to BE gone!! no..but they sure do hurt.

and it really just amazes me...

I have been going thru these phantoms now for 5 years for my

right 4 for the left...and these phantoms have NOT gotten any

easier..As a matter of fact, my right leg was amputated first,

then my left..My right stump and invisible leg bother me MORE

than my left !! so figure that...I dont understand it...Someone said

the closer my invisible foot feels to where the amputation really

is , the phantom will ease...my feet havent gotten any closer that

I know of.. I really think..we all just handle this kind of amazing

invisible pain differently..We pretty much can describe the pain

the same way..yes..but I think it just affects us each differently.

well maybe as to how well we each handle this unexplained pain.

I dont think our heads accept it...maybe THATS the answer.. But

it really is amazing tho...I wish it would stop..It does get old...

I got so mad at this chair today.. I really wish it would break in better.

It seems to just have a mind of its own..It is SO hard to steer. Well..

my other one..I could just get a push off the table to something and I

would coast straight.. This one.....well it goes where IT wants to.. It

refuses to roll in a straight line...even though the tires are straight,

as thats the trick..lol.. But I have complained steady about this one.

I think even the brake thingies are defective. My old chair is just

sitting in the dining room so neglected and it was such a good one.

That one could really MOVE..this new one just seems so stiff and

hard..I guess cuz its new..My old one is just that..old..5 yrs...was the

first one I got when I got moved in here...thats why they replaced it..

Its still in good shape but it is because it very seldom went outside.

I bet I can count how many times it was lol..not many..But its a good

one..I do like the black smaller wheel on this newer one..Its not a

bad chair it is identical..just new I guess..Some people are just

never satisfied are they? lol :-) just gotta gripe.

Well I'm just gonna mumble and grumble my way right on into the

kitchen...I did make a meat pie today, I had no choice..lol I took

the meat out for it yesterday..so I had to use it.. It should be just

about ready by the time I hit publish on this and get out there..I
timed it JUST right lol...So I do hope y'all have a great week end.

I dont have any plans..well yes i do ..Rae is coming tomorrow lol...

see? I forgot almost already.. Ok I'm hitting the Publish button..

see ya tomorrow..Nitey Nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA!!! & THANKS!!!

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...