~I Squeak Again~ :-)

Uneventful day, Raelynn came, she did her thing..im squeaky clean, and she went to Arby's and got us lunch. I had a Philly beef & swiss, was good..and curly fries which I love. I havent had them from there in ages and they sure werent as good as what I remember. I like those onion petals too..but only place for those I knew of was Applebee's.. and I don't go there. We talked about getting out and going shopping one day, Raelynn and I and I would really LOVE to do that.. but like I told her..why go to the store and look and drool..and want..when you can't buy anything to me thats torture. So I told her perhaps we could just go for a ride or something..just to get out a bit.. She is really nice I hope I can help her with her computer..I dont know tho I am NOT that techy..lol.. I got a phone call from a friend and we were talking about family and where my grandparents came from in England.. My Grandpa and Grandma were both from Cambourne, Cornwall.. I still have family over there but just dont know HOW to reach them. I wrote to my cousin June and asked her to please send me the names and addresses and I will try to find them.. Be SO nice to be in contact with them via email or snail mail..Hopefully they will have a computer and we can talk thru it lol..Voice on MSN or Yahoo or Skype is wonderful, just clear as a bell..like the person is right in the room with you.. I LOVE voice lol.. I have a friend that has that registry thingie I want so badly, and he is looking for me, hes in the UK as well, he did find my grandparents tho.THAT was so interesting to hear him read how long ago they got married, 1900 or before. My mother was born in 1909..so.. I think 1888 for some reason that sticks out in my head. But I sure would LOVE to find them. It would be great to go to England and meet family and all the friends I have in the UK and those even close to London. But after looking up the COST .well I think I will HAVE to win the lottery first on that too before I could even possibly think of the airfare let alone a hotel for at least 2 weeks so I could see and meet everyone. But I sure would LOVE to go. I definitely WOULD make that trip if I could afford it. My flyin jitters-well I would just have to get over them and I dont think would be too bad if I flew first class, but then THAT is another big increase in price too. Hmm. I used to know a pilot that flew to the UK. I wonder if he still does lol. He could just stowe me away in one of his suitcases- save me the fare :-).Sure would be a nice holiday. I AM going to talk to Raelynn about going to the casino tho she might like to go one week end and you can get some good deals on it too and its only a 2 hrs drive away from here.. :-) I see over across the parking lot, the apartments next door, quite a few are rented in this building right here..that I can see.. Its hard to figure out how many apartments are in that building..as I dont know if there is access from the other side of the building as well. When I watched them build it I looked close and it didnt seem that there was.. so I would say maybe 16 or more apartments in one building..Some have hanging baskets...that look so pretty.. I had already moved my computer in here or I would have taken some photos of the finished building. I did take some with this disposable camera ... Its nice to see those baskets hanging, they look so pretty and I know whom ever they belong to HAVE to be enjoying them... I think if I had a raised flower bed..and a wagon I could work on a flower bed or garden very easily .just scoot along sittin in that wagon. hmmm wonder could I get one with a motor ? hehehe couldnt you just see me riding my butt all over the yard in a motorized WAGON? haha THAT would be cute.. be my luck I'd fall out and run over my own self :-)... But I sure would give it a try tho.. might be kinda fun, but I dont think they make them sadly..and anyway I dont HAVE the gardens.. well POOH lol... see? I have it all worked out tho..just in case the good Lord says "ok honeychild..now, its YOUR turn" I'm SO ready... :-) This life isnt really THAT bad.. its not.. All it is, is a matter of just dealing with it and saying "well CRAP" and going on.. There is NOT alot of other choices.. I have to say I have been pretty lucky, I know a few amputees that have some major health issues..that Luckily..have NOT flared up on me.. Not saying they wont..but I do feel ok .. I get tired..but.. well.. This kinda living even tho I AM sitting on my GORGEOUS butt.. is NOT that easy..and sometimes its really HARD to do some things..that just Poop a girl OUT :-) specially if shes bull headed and HAS to DO things with out waiting for HELP :-) I tried to explain about when I dropped the remote to my TV.. I know I laid there for at least 10 minutes decided just HOW bad did I really want to change channels.. I seriously said to myself, 'take a nap, get up to potty, THEN get it' .. I did...Its so MANY more motions for me than for someone that could just hang over the side of the bed..or just by standing up could reach it.. I had to get into my chair.. the only way..and TRUST me I looked..for ANYthing..so I wouldnt have to do all that just to get the clicker.. :-)... I think thats the whole thing of it.. All the extra motions to do what 1 step did... I ve been asked a few times about prosthetics..and why havent I gotten any.. I dont want them ... This is me now.. I dont need fake legs to make myself feel like a whole woman. I am a whole woman, just SHORT. There are many women and men too I guess that the first thought to them is 'well i can get fake legs, no one will know'. Lots of women feel that way.. I dont.. and I really DONT know why I dont.. I guess I like me enough that if someone doesnt like me the way I am..well DONT look at me then.. I dont need legs to compete with anyone unless I'm in a foot race with them.. thats how I look at it anyway.. I see people, I did last nite a guy that lost a leg in Iraq and they built him a house on that house show.. He, to me, did good on them..but you could tell he wasnt walking right.. so which is more conspicuous? no legs or walking crooked? no..someone wants the prosthetics.. good on them.. but me? naaaah I like the way I am.. this is just how it is..and I accept it. and i kinda like riding ..I am ALWAYS guaranteed a seat ,,, no matter where I go ..now THATS a plus..lol...Let someone else that feels they really NEED them to survive have my 2..with my blessings.. :-) I don't.. I'm good to go.. I'm on a roll here..:-) Well lunch was good but I didnt eat any desert and I have some raspberry filled cookies I bet would taste pretty good right now. Monday nite..hmmm wonder what is on TV.. I hope something good.. I think Prison Break is done for the season..I saw they all escaped ..so .. probly was the last episode.. NOw the summer re-runs.. Yippeeee ...:-)...Knowing me I wont see too much as I know soon as I lean back on my old pillows..I will probly start dozing..I usually do..off and on till about midnite then turn off the TV and THEN go to Sleep :-) well dozing isnt sleeping.. lol... well ok it is..but not SOUND sleep then.. :-) Nitey Nite ... Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya! and Thanks ! Always. Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...