~TIME~

Would you look at the date? June? Ummm, I think only last week was

March? lol.. Time sure flies when your having fun I guess.. It goes to

show you just how fast time just does go...There are only 6 months left

to this whole year already. Soon I'll say "well I won't let Christmas

sneak up on me this year and then when its sneaked up on me and

caught me unprepared and Im saying in January "what Happened?"

I can look back to this post..and say "Hmmmm..I was RIGHT!!! " :-)

I honestly think the longer we live the more we realize just how fast the

time really does go.. When I was a young girl..I couldnt wait till I got

older and could do all I wanted..go where I wanted..and just do anything.

I did- I travelled, I married 3..yes 3 times.. all were so different... I dont

regret having married that many times.. I doubt very seriously if I will

ever remarry again, but then again I said that after my first marriage lol.

and 2 more later I am saying that again, maybe I shouldnt say that hey?

Well its a good thing we don't know whats ahead, I think if we did it

would NOT be a good thing cuz then most of us would be dragged thru

our lives saying "I AINT GOING THERE!" trying to dig our feet in and

stay at only the good times...But sadly..I think we have to have some of

the way hard..if its too easy well kinda takes the excitement out I would

think be kinda boring. At least I can say my life certainly has NOT been

boring, I think If I told every little thing no one, would believe that it

was MY life. I think back and shake my head-kinda smiling and thinking

to my self.."well geezz I did make it..well whadda ya know." I surprised

myself!!! :-)

Today the phantom has eased and boy, I am so GLAD..I bet if I said
once yesterday I said it a dozen times.. if that leg wasnt cut of I would
have cut it off thats how aggravating and painful that was. In all these
4 years I have NEVER had phantoms as bad as I did yesterday.. Makes
me wonder though, you think that maybe something in the stump could
cause that? maybe a bad spot inside it or something.? Maybe a nerve is
pinched or something, that is making what is called a referred pain? Its
so amazing at how phantoms really feel..well they hurt..but I sit here
feeling this..and look at there is just NO way that there is anything that
can hurt.so I have to be NUTZ. lol. or gradually losing it maybe ok ok
dont say it... "hon, I hate to tell you, but you lost it a LONG time ago"
I said it for you haha.. :-D

I try to describe how my invisible legs feel and it just surprises me at all
the many different things I can feel in them, specially my feet.they go all
sorts of deformed ways that if they were there they could only do that
if they were broken..well the ankles mainly.. my invisible feet go in so
many directions its really odd. and the feeling of the pressure of them
doesnt seem possible. When I reach down to touch them and feel nothing
yet the pain is there my mind does like a retake..and seems to just ignore
the fact that I cant FEEL with my hands..the FEEL is in my head. Hard
to describe..and WHY anyone would want to feel this..well..they'll find out
wont they just HOW much fun this is..I still think about that show..really
kinda bugged me...but to each his/her own..

Ive been a little down since Richard posted his Gran... my Dear Friend

Judy has passed. She died on May 10 in case you dont read comments.

She was a special friend.well ALL my friends are VERY special to me.
If I lose one for what ever reason. I feel so very bad, because I do,
.I value every one of them..well with out all my friends and their
encouragement I couldnt do this . well maybe I could but I would be so
very lonely.. I will miss Judy..she was a Native American and such a
lovely soul.we bonded as soon as we each wrote, I sure will miss her..
Richard, her grandson would read my weblog to her. what a sweet thing
to do. and then to let me know she was gone..ment alot to me.. and if
you are reading this Richard..thank you, you were a good grandson, and
I think your Gran knew it and loved you dearly...

Its hard to lose friends and when someone has written to me for a long
time and then just stops.. I worry about them and wonder what happend
and if I did something or said something that hurt them..to make them
not want to write to me anymore..which I hope I havent.but you know.
I do have a tendency to get nosey lol.. I do.. I ask alot of questions and
then I forget cuz I dont take notes. I know.I should do that too.
*sigh* :-)

Well the note Im taking now is one out to the kitchen to post on the fridge
that I NEED FOOD ... Today has just zipped past me and I have NO idea
where it went, I was going to make some spaghetti sauce and didnt even
get to that!!! Hmmm lazy lazy... I have a kittie named Dutch sitting here
looking at me, and then he looks at the time.. he knows.. KITCHEN TIME
I usually give the boys a treat when I go out there in the evening..well they
need treats.. I do..I have some little cherry tartlets that MMMM super good.
ok.. Im done for tonite..you can go now.. im done writing..
"and every one said AMEN!!!!" Nitey Nite!!! :-D

Y'all have a good one Y'hear? Luv ya & Thanks my Dear Friends.. :-)

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...