~12 Days Left~

Its 5 days to Christmas..and 7 more to starting a whole new year again..I start mine off really great ..with a birthday right off.. lets not forget it please?? lol.. the 20th..write it down lol. Now, is THAT the way to start the year? Well..kinda sorta is.. well- you got no age number upper ahead for another whole year..so..hey..I'll be ready for full steam ahead..well hopefully anyway.. lol..well put it this way.. I'll be ready to face what ever good or bad is ahead.. to be honest..I have a feeling there will be some issues for me.. I see signs of it..and I know soon I will have to go and just see what all the CRAP is doing.. Just some things arent right..and I am really tired of it.. so I guess I have to go and just see what the problem really is.. I bet I don't want to know though..I like tingles..but not these kind :-) The boys just look so wore out dont they? My focus on my cam is off and I was playing so I took one of them.you can see how different their faces are..quick glance theyre hard to tell apart..unless you look at size and LB is ALOT bigger than Dutch lol..much to his dismay ..he doesnt care tho..they seem to be getting along again.. My right stump for a long time..stays asleep as I describe it.. that tingly feel..kinda picky? mine stays like that it seems. constantly and at times really drives me nuts cuz im so sick of always feeling it.. lol.. its like a nagging headache.. I try to lay different ways and use my pillows to help me stay the way I wanna lay..You have NO idea how hard it is to just roll to my side!!! I mean.. I have nothing to grab onto but the side of my bed..IF I can reach it from the way I am laying.. I have a small bed now..only a twin..I decided more floor room was better..Im not one to lay all over the bed.. I more or less stay in one spot..but.. When I go to turn..I have to have some thing to grab..or I have to sit up..scoot and turn a bit..then lay back down.. I used to do turning in my sleep! I cant now.. I wake up if I want to lay on my side.. and I cant lay on my left side now .. no .. not at all.. When I had my second abdominal bypass in 2000, they went in up at my shoulder by my neck..not through my stomach like the first time..they ran it down my side..I can feel it.. like a tube almost that's the bypass Dr. Thomas said..he was my Dr. in ELkhart, the Vascular Surgeon there..very very nice..good doctor. I told him it hurt when I laid on that side now..he said.."well don't lay on it" .ok..I don't lay on it..But I miss that.. When I want to lay on my right I have to make sure I have a pillow between them as my left stump is heavier than the right and longer..by maybe 3 or 4 inches..its hard to measure moving flesh..lol..well..to lay on my right side I have to have my weight balanced..cuz if I lean too far over to my right well I keep going ..Im a weeble person lol.. I got nuthin to stop me from going on over..lol..which I have.. I know no one can see me when I do that but I know how funny that has GOT to look and I do I can just see myself..I laugh.. Boy I just gave y'all a mind image there didn't I? lol. .sorry :-) but its true.. Sleeping isnt really easy lol.. And If I have to get up during the night..well before..if I had to go which I very seldom did..but I could almost go blindfolded..I didn't really WAKE up..Now..well foo..By the time I drag my butt into my chair im pretty much awake..and then as slippery as this seat riser is..with no side rails..well. I cant afford to be sleepy.. so then Im wide awake.and its 3am..isnt this cute? Then I get up..if I don't and go ahead and go back to bed..and go thru all THAT movement..I still don't go back to sleep so I get back up..I finally learned that..now I just get up and when I get tired I take nap..ive done pretty good lately for no nap..but its been hetic during the day a lot ..but a few nights by the time I finish writing these posts ..I mean if I don't go to bed my key board will just slap my face and wake me up you know? I know Im not the only one THAT has happened to...just seems the reminders are constant..even during the night..this right stump will start to wake up or go to sleep I don't know what is doing but..well I just have no choice but to sit up..seems that helps..Awhile back I was having this same trouble and it was from no cushion..and not laying flat enough.. so that could be the same problem again..it just isnt acting right.. lol. its acting left :-D I wish it would ..my left has almost NO feeling at all except when that buggar is down there stabbing me in the toe or in the heel!! lol.. Ahhh..life is good...:-) Well I just went off on a few different things didn't I? see ? I think I said that last nite..I do this in email too, so if you are brave enough to write to me ..well I do answer you know.. every letter I get..but sometimes they tend to be LONG..and I tend to be quite nosey too.. well I tell all about me.! so ..hey I like to KNOW too :-).. well that's how friends get to know each other BY asking questions..that shows you ARE interested in them enough to write and ask, or answer as the case may be.. And Mary .... my friend.. I know your reading this.. . . I want to say." Thank you my friend, I am so glad you come here to visit with me every day ..and care and want to know about my life and to share it with me..and to let me share yours with you. I appreciate you so very much, thank you" Those of you that take the time to write the comments to me..Cherry, Rob, Lynn,Robert, Raife, Momar, Gray, and Mr sweetie..Blue..he says Im BOSSY! he lies and Raife swears to it lol..its a funny from on Blue's Blog.. he has everyone guessing what hes saying cuz he uses Stnyren or something lol.. he knows.. hes from Australia ..they have their own language down there..GREAT accent though, Raife comments on Blues blog for me as well since I don't want a yahoo 360 page.. I like it here..then anyone can read and comment.not join if they don't want to..You don't have to be a member of Blogspot to leave a comment..I think it says that but you dont..but anyway-well I just appreciate it so much..makes my day ..really does..I wish EVERY ONE that read would..THAT would be great fun..lol SO....you KNOW whats next. :-) I aint writin it..lol..but- its just north of where I am..and its cold..then im headed south east to where its warm and theres a drive in movie if I time it right LOL.. Nitey Nite :-) Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? Luv ya..and THANKS !! :-) Always, aint I ? :-D Lois.. **** God Bless you is my prayer today, I'm so honored to call you "friend"; I pray the Lord will keep you safe until I write again..