~Company IS a GOOD Thing~ :-)

I had a good time and thoroughly enjoyed my company. We had

an excellent dinner and to have good food and good conversation

at the same time is very enjoyable.. I don't realize how much I miss

that companionship of another person until I have it. It was a very

very nice visit and I really had a good time.. Thankfully the cat

allergies didn't seem to get in the way, which I was most grateful.
Although I have to give the boys a lot of credit for minding their

mother and not being pesteroids and being constantly in the way.
They both behave very nicely and I was very proud of them.. It

was funny this morning when Penny got here how they seemed

to RUSH up to her as if to say, "Penny, mom picked on us and

made us behave, and didn't pay us any attention".. I could almost

hear them.. :-) Penny of course spent the next half hour rubbing

and petting and just totally spoiling them, which needless to say

they loved it. I know they get tired of me and need the attention

of someone other than me..

I did get some very nice compliments on my cute little cozy house,

and of course on myself as well which I TOTALLY hated haha.. I

am so glad some people wear colored glasses, then cant see

what they are really looking at :-) I do appreciate the fact that I

am appreciated for being so honest and open and easy to talk

to..Which I really try to be.. I have such a well I guess you could

say "hang up" about right and wrong, and lies.. I hate lies so bad,

and what is right is right, you have a job to do..do it..and do the

very best you can. Don't whine and boo hoo..say 'poor me' get

on with it..and just do it... Many feel sorry for me which I really

appreciate..but they were only legs..all they did was walk and

they did make my life easier..but well now Ive had to adapt to

a new way of life.. I am still living.. I don't want to say I am

really independent..but I will say I hate to ask for help..I will try

to do things myself first..when I cant do it..THEN I will, maybe,

break down and ask a trusted friend 'will you help me' but if

there is ANY way that I can get it or do it I WILL. I guess you

could say I am very outspoken and don't mind talking about

any subject there is.. and I am always willing to give my

opinion on a subject, not that my opinion is always right..but

its mine..and if you ask me..well I will be honest and tell you

exactly what I think..and those that do chat with me know that
I am like this..and I am proud to say they do respect me for

this. Now, I will also add that it has gotten me in trouble and

has caused me to lose friends because I am so outspoken,

but then..if you don't want my opinion then be sure to NOT

include me in the conversation... :-)

My new bed, I don't know if its me or the mattress or what, but

I sure am not sleeping the greatest and I do have a bad spot

on my tailbone again..that of course my blue gel to the rescue.

RATZ I forgot to send Penny to get some of that stuff for Mary.

I have just got to start writing myself notes so I don't forget stuff.

But then sometimes when I do that I lose the Notes!!! :-) and

that's not good either! Penny will be back on Friday and I have

just put up a note hangin right in front of me to remind me, so
I better NOT forget again... I have forgotten the past few days

to balance my checkbook though and I just have TOO easy a

time to do that.. I got a call from my caseworker informing me

that funds to help people pay their utility bills has been stopped

and no more bills will be paid..so I will have to come up with

the money for my electric bill...and my gas which will be fun to

find..My caregiver hours are going to be cut as well I was told.

This state is in a seriously bad spot, and I think it will get a lot

worse before it gets better. I was told that Illinois, or Mass. or

NY are very good states for benefits..and I guess that is what

I really should do rather than wait around for the next "shoe"

to drop ...and I sure don't wanna get caught with my pants

down either, I would be in trouble since I don't wear them !!!

Its hard to know what to do.. If I wasn't in this chair I would

not worry as I knew I could get a good job or possibly even

have a mate and then I would have someone else to depend

on and not only myself...That is hard to adjust to, as well as

living a lower quality of life than what you are used to as well.

ITs not easy...

I talked to Penny and she is going to help me to plant some

flowers outside.. I will get the seeds as its cheaper than

buying the plants.. This place outside needs quite a bit of

work even the grass needs cut already.. I did notice those

buds on that bush outside are getting bigger, I have no idea

what kind it is..but I hope it has some flowers on it, and I

hope when it does I will have a digital camera to be able to

take some photos of it.. I saw these new cameras that are

able to take videos that would be really nice.. I can only take

1 minute videos with my webcam. They are pretty good

quality but I cannot go over that time frame..which with a

digital camera video maybe will be longer.. I miss that one I

had and I could just spit for being so careless to let that slide

off my lap and get ruined.. Still gets me upset...I know its the

camera as I tried a brand new card that hadnt even been in

the camera..and still did not work.. Hopefully before too long

I will be able to get a new one..

I am tired..as I was up late last nite and I didn't sleep well

with that spot on my butt, ok ok ..tailbone.. that's really where

it is..right where your back hits the bed..its not a good spot..

I put some gel on and the soreness is gone and I know by

tomorrow it will be healed.. I havent had lunch either so I

know I don't have to write that I am hungry. That can just be

an automatic assessment :-) On that judgement I am off

to find food and its time to say "Nitey nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya..and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..