~Much Company~ :-)

What a busy day today.. Steady stream of people in and out...

First Chris and my new caseworker, Becky, from Keystone

came by about 930 or so..Becky will be taking the place of

Heidi..shes very nice.. young.. and very pretty... Shes new at

this..but seems to like what she does.. She was a host at Keystone

first..like one of the 'guards' so to speak..they had to have some

one there 24 - 7...and they did in shifts..Some of the hosts did

live there..3 did when I was there.. The 2 Scotts and Que's mom,

Sheila I think was her name..cant remember ! :-) Becky has more

or less been upgraded to being a homecare specialist I think is

what Chris said.... Im sure will be good at this ..she will be

back next Tuesday,, I asked that she come only on either Tues or

Thursday when Penny or anyone else is here.. Im a very private

person..and no one else needs to know of my other business other

than what THEIR business is with me.. So this way will be good..

SO.. after Chris and Becky leaves.. Im sitting in the kitchen eating,

some of my left over Stuffed peppers- by the way which are ..well..

theyre so good I wish y'all could have a bite :-)... I see this white van

park out on the street..and then I see Robert coming up to the front..

I waited in the kitchen doorway, he knows to just knock..open the door,

and yell its him.. when he knocked..I saw the door open..and he said

"HEY SHORTY! ARE YA HOME??" and came in and sat down on

the couch.. He said he wasn't feeling the very greatest today that he

was having.. some 'personal seating problems' If you get my drift.. and

he would be back tomorrow to put up my plastic on the porch.. LORD,

I hope he comes back.. We are not even going to get above 10 all this

week end I saw on the weather last nite...I have a 100 gas bill now..can

you IMAGINE..next month?? Well I hope he will show up tomorrow.. I

asked him if he could give me an approximate time..he said about 9..

which Im up early..and I like my business done in the mornings.. I steady

fade in energy after lunch time..:-) I told him I HAVE the plastic and I

have FOUND the stapler.. anything happen to that stuff between now

and then.. and I will be TOTALLY UPSET.. as crazy as this house is..

well NO guarantee it will be in the same place tomorrow morning.. :-)

Sometimes I swear I have a ghost.. My kitchen cabinet door was open..

wide open.. and I KNOW I didn't do it.. and the cats cant reach it ...so..

WHO did? that vase of potpourri..on top this desk..was totally moved

SIDEWAYS.. now I KNOW there is vibration..from all the huge trucks..

well to move that vase as much as it was..would have taken 9 dozen

fully loaded semis..and 2 dozen elephants..to vibrate it as far as it

was moved!.. I wrote a note to my self..so I KNOW where that staple

gun is..and that plastic I went and got..its here on the couch.. so...All

I need now is ROBERT!!!...

So.. anyhowways.. my 3rd visitor today..was..Theresa..that sweet thing

from CMH.. she is just so nice.. She had mentioned the last time I saw

her she wanted to crochet again..well I know how to do all that stuff- I have

books etc.. I had made a copy of one of my favorite how-to books and

gave it to her.. She carried a bag in with her.. She opened it..and handed

me this LOVELY white scarf.. long..fringe.. just beautiful.. she said "Lois,

I started to crochet again.. and THIS was my first project, and I made it for

you.. You said how chilly your shoulders get..and I hope you can use it" ..

Look at the photo..you can see who has taken over my scarf.. I took it off

to eat lunch after she left.. Of course I put it on immediately..Its so soft..

like a angora yarn.. she did a wonderful job.. she was so sweet to make

that for me! what a wonderful surprise.. I told her was my birthday this

Sunday and I considered it a very nice birthday surprise..

Theresa is very good at her job and knew I wasn't up to my usual self..and

I told her I had a very bad week end..things had built up too much and I

had let things get to me and wear me down.. Too many things again were

worrying me plus being the holidays.. I explained some..well..most of them

the major things.. finances, the grant, my doctor, this house, and things

happening in my personal life that made me doubt my self..and my own self

confidence.. but this time I didn't fight them off fast enough and that's what

I think caused the backlash over the week end.. So I told her.. new year,

new rules.. and I have to STOP these things before they get to that point

again.. Worry has always been a problem.. I don't like surprises..well bad

ones.. and I know I cant plan Everything ahead..but what I can I like to know.

I know I cant afford too many more week ends like this past one..well ...to

be honest I don't know how easy it would be do to another one like it any

time soon! That was I have to say.. the closest ive come to calling 911.. I

was NOT feeling good.. Theresa understood and agreed.. that is not a

good thing.. So we talked and she left to get to another client..

of course the boys welcomed her but they are not in the best moods today..

Mother had to show who was boss..They have really been fighting lately..

moreso than usual . Their behavior lately- they have stuck to me like glue,

till they drive me nutz...or they are fighting each other.. or licking and loving

on each other.. They both had girlfriends..that they..well.. Diddled.. and

for quite a while now..they have NOT.. months.. so I don't know if they are

going thru some hormonal thing or not.. But one will challenge the other..

Sometimes LB..will start it.. then sometimes Dutch will.. Well today Dutch

started it.. and he drew blood on LB.. That made him scream.. and of

course I am not going to tolerate that between these two.. I grabbed Dutch

at the back of his neck..like a baby is carried..and I forced him to lay down..

pushing him.. he fought me too.. but I held on.. I made him stay there, the

whole time telling him that was BAD TO BITE... I let go.. and he sat up..

went to LB.. and proceeded to lick him.. they havent fought since.. I have

NO idea what their problem is.. but they find out REAL QUICK who the

head kittie is in this crazy house :-).. ME~!~

Was a busy day.. and Im glad its on the slow down..you can tell im feeling

better look at the length of this post :-) Im glad I am..Im not 100% but not

far.. I have to get better..Hell I cant feel bad when I turn another year

YOUNGER.. I refuse to say OLDer.. I wont be old..no..I shall always stay a

YOUNG GORGEOUS WEEBLE.. so there you have it.. "Nitey Nite" :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya.. and Thanks.. Oh and many

thanks for the birthday cards Ive gotten in the mail..Means a lot to me..

Y'all are greatly appreciated I hope you know that .. :-)

Always,Lois ****

God Bless you, is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again.....