~Thinking~

Whats your purpose? Ever really wonder? I do some

times.. Just WHAT is all this for and WHAT will it

prove? Life in general I mean.. We work so hard all

our lives does this get us all we want and deserve? I

worked all the time hoping it would lead to better and

better... but did it? some days I think yes, but then,

some, I don't think so.. So it makes you wonder.. just

WHAT are we doing? I sat yesterday afternoon, I

logged off early, not too many online and I hadnt

gotten any email I needed to reply to.. So I went to

sew. I shut down this computer and went out to the

kitchen and pulled up to the table and just sat there

for a few minutes looking around...thinking....

I looked through the window and its so green outside

after the rain, Carl and his wife cut their lawn last

nite, I didn't see anyone, I looked at the things I

was making and thought about how by my self I was.

Everyone was busy and it was just me and the cats.

That I really served NO PURPOSE.? IF I did.. WHAT

was it? What did I accomplish every day? What did

I really DO? I know I gripe a lot and I know I am
NOT happy ALL the time ! I Do accomplish that,

But, WHAT iS my need to be?

I have lots of dear friends that tell me I encourage

them.. I DONT see it.. THEY encourage ME ! :-) I

whine and gripe and I have a list of "I need".. that

grows every day. But WHAT am I going to be really

remembered for? Or better yet, WILL anyone even

remember me ? Not like I'm planning to leave this

GORGEOUS WEEBLE LIFE :-) but, Id like to leave

something here, besides kids or grands.. Something.
I wonder just WHAT I WILL be remembered for?
Being an amputee? a GORGEOUS WEEBLE? What

can I do NOW to make sure I'm remembered for

REAL ME? Ever think about that? Are you doing

your best, worthy of being remembered??

When you do that... you're not really thinking about

yourself.. I don't mean it that way.. But if you.. ok, I,

DO something FOR someone else, help or what ever,

then maybe THATS WHY all this is now my life? I

question all this so much.. When I do though I think

its good, because its thinking of ways to improve how

things are.... When I look at that.. boy, I have LOTS

to do YET!!!! :-) I guess the good thing is.. that I

WANT to and that even in a wheel chair I CAN and

HOPE to improve and leave a mark.. Well .. I would

leave a mark so to speak.. but I mean things worthy

of being remembered for.. I truly believe that when

we think of those passed each time we do, they get

a star in their crown.. Well I WANT a nice bright

crown FULL of stars :-) So THAT means Leaving a

Mark... :-) ok 2 Marks :-) Something worth while

remembering... Gives you something to work for I

think, leaving more than material things that can be

destroyed, thrown away. Good things you have done,

or impressions you leave with someone.. isnt THAT

what gets you the stars? :-)

I get into some moods sometimes.. and WHY I have

no idea.. maybe I AM alone to much and answering

your own questions sometimes isnt good :-) No, I

trust my own self, ive made some wrong moves but

who hasnt.. hopefully ive learned from them.

I think to evalutae ourselves, take a look at my self

is a good thing.. we all need to do that.. Make sure

I leave 2 good Marks :-) Not for a LONG LONG time

though.. I got LOTS to do yet .. :-)

I made up a list for Carl and plan to phone him, or if

they come over today and do my grass I will ask him

about doing these things on my list.. I have about 7

things on it :-) I do.. AND that's not really ALL I

would like to have done ! The deck isnt on it.. :-) I

still havent heard anything about it so I might ask

Carl about that too.. Lots of little things need done

and Donnie is 2 jobs behind he said, so I KNOW hes

not available, and Penny has too much other stuff to

do.. It will get done one way or the other.. :-)


Post time and for this GORGEOUS WEEBLE to get

Tylers Power Ranger bag finished :-) Hope you are

having a good week end :-) I am... nice, quiet, relaxing.

Thinking... :-) AHHHHH Life is good.. :-)

Y'all have a good one now, Y'hear? love ya ! thanks!!!

Always, Lois ****

"God Bless You" is my prayer today,

I'm honored to call you "friend".

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...