~Confused Wake UP ~

Today was one of those confusing days, I woke up not sure

what time of the day it was.. said 6. It was dark..I wasnt sure

if it was morning or night! I HATE when that happens.. I got

up and went straight to computer to see was morning or nite.

well was morning of course lol.DUH...

I sat for a while.. usually I very seldom remember my dreams.

And when I do dream..I dont dream of myself as an amputee.

very seldom.. I have but not too many do I remember them...

Which I find most unusual.. But I dont see myself in my dreams

only WHAT i see...And lately I have remembered them well

more than I usually have.. The past week on and off I have

remembered some of them, and they have mainly been about

looking at houses or for a place to live.. I remember one that

was all I kept saying.. "i'm looking for a place" is all I can think

of that I kept saying.. Weird, and the thing was I kept looking

at the same place just took different ways to get there..hmmm.

I know sometimes I have dreamt of being an amputee tho..I

know i have but I dont very often. The few times I do recall

those dreams.. I have mainly just been sitting like I am looking

around.. as if I dont know where to go..I guess confused is

the sense I got from it. I am in my chair and just rolling around

no place specific that I can remember..just a more or less

open area.. I think kind of reminded me of the patio at the

hellhome where we sat sometimes when it was so hot in there

and we needed a breeze.. The hellhome was NOT ALL air

conditioned.. we each had our own fan if we were lucky . One

of the nurses brought me a cute little clip on fan that worked

great..We had big windows that opened but was worse out

side.. so why open them? only made it even hotter..they did

have the dining room air conditioned and that was great but if

you sat under one of the ceiling vents the cold air came down

and made your food cold in minutes..and some of those dearies

took over an hour or so to eat...The whole feeding time took at

least 3 hours by the time everyone got in and out.. The dearies

that could would line up out in the hallways and wait for the

nurses to push them in.. If you got behind the wrong one ..well

could take half hour to roll just to the dining room from your room

They had a set routine for everyone to go to the dining room.
VEry seldom did I eat in there.. Usually I ate in my room, there

were ALOT of sounds in the dining room that would just make

my stomach flip..and I will NOT go into detail..but I just didnt like

eating in there. I would sometimes..but I ate in my room mostly.

specially breakfast.. they had on my chart DO NOT WAKE
BEFORE BREAKFAST lolol.. they did.. they had NO reason

to.. when they deliberately put the wrong kind of patient in with

me that needed care all nite etc. I would gripe.. wasnt fair...they

had other rooms to put them and put in with me? no...wasnt right

they needed to match the roomies up better...I didnt want a

roomie anyway LOL..I wanted the WHOLE room to MYSELF :-)

They had very strict rules.. No one was allowed in anyone elses

room..If you got caught they really yelled at you.. I told them straight

out I WAS going into some of my friends rooms.. like Ceola's or

BB's... and I did.. I always made a point to go and let them know up

at the desk "HEY,, I'm going to my friend's room . Sometimes I

didnt but that rule was because so many of the dearies saw something

and would just help themselves and the thing was you NEVER caught

them doing it.. My glasses were taken one day.. and I swore EVERY

morning for weeks, I complained that SOMEONE was using my

bathroom, I was alone in the room..and I called the nurse every time

and even the cleaning lady said..someone was using my toilet.. we

never did find out who it was.. and I was asleep in there.. made me

kinda worried you know? I started sleeping with my door shut..Unless

I had a real stinky roommate you know what I mean?

RaeLynn was here today !!! and she knocked on the door. and it was

open .. she was carrying some supplies (cleaning ones) and guess

what else?? A PIZZA...from Little Ceasars.. I didn't even KNOW there

was one in this town LOL.. I didnt..I'm glad I know now.. She said is

a lunch special a large pepperoni pizza for only $5.oo thats a good

deal..So I told her well next time I will buy..maybe do this once a week

or every so often.. I am not keen on Pepperoni.. I like sausage better,

but I took off some of it and it was great pizza. WHAT a NICE surprise.

My living room is sparkly.. its so clean .. she is cleaning off pictures

etc.. I told her I may let her help me re arrange the pictures I have.. I

was hoping to get some brass birds that my sis had but she gave

them to her son..so boo hoo.. oh well.. I like brass and most of my

accent pieces in there are brass..candleholders etc.. and burgundy

and I have blue mini blinds that came with the apt...There are 2 big

windows in there and a door.. only 2 walls facing each other are ok

to put stuff on..

Here's a mystery for u..solve this.. I Think I HAVE A ghost.. I played

my keyboard I know maybe not yesterday but the day before.. well

when I got up this morning there was an adaptor cord around the

brake on my chair...I had NO idea where it came from and Puzzled

me.. as t he brake was still on...so had to been picked up...and

carried over top..was wrapped.. well while Rae and I were eating

the pizza here came LittleBoy with a black cord around his neck..

and Rae took it off..I looked at it.. and said Hmmm this is the end

of the cord was around my brake this am.. Where did this come

from.. I went to my key board..and it came from there!!! It had

gotten unplugged, bitten in half part wrapped around the brake

on my chair and around LB's neck??? NOW>.explain that???

How did a cat unplug that from the wall..It was loose on the key

board so that could be possible..but..how did it get wrapped

around my brake? and around LB's neck? He could have easily

choked on that. Even Rae couldnt figgure THAT Out.. can you?

and then they wonder how my teeth disappeared from here..

well that cat couldnt have unplugged that black box from that

cord.. was about 2 inches square.. no ...and was plugged into

top one..i have had it there for 2 years too lol.. I dunno but its

scarey to me.. the wrapped around the brake on my chair is

what got ME!!! i went to unlock and said WTH...and was 2

times around it LOL..

Well it smells nice and clean in here and my floors are shining

and the cat hair from their fight is gone.. im Looking GOOD!!!

:-) well I know I DO but now my apartment is matching ME lol

So glad to get mail asking to be my VALENTINE :-) makes

me feel good .. i dont know what yet.. but I KNOW you have

NO doubt will be something a photo or video maybe..lol...

Well there is some left over pizza for later..and I will snack

then.. I didnt have a nap today and I may just lay it down for

while.. Im pooped.. Hope you had a great day..

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA .. & THANKS !

Always, Lois ***

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...