~My Biggest Influence~

Was my Dad's birthday yesterday, he would have been 97. He died in 89 of cancer. He was a good man, very honorable and a great influence on me I realize now more than ever. I think alot of the way I am is due to him..I think I spent more time with him than I really did my mother. As we both liked the same things.. the outdoors mainly. The berry picking and fishing and just rides. All those times together my dad always told me stories of things he did or that happened... He lived his whole life in only 2 houses.. The one he was born in..and a few blocks away the one he spent the rest of his life in.with my mother. He did travel but always said he lived in the most wonderful part of the world why should he leave? He lived in the great NorthWoods of the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. and I agree it IS God's country.. I love it up there and miss it alot.. . Ive written a few stories about him, 1 is on my other site that is a favorite of mine about how I got my name and what he said to me. I think and wonder why it took me till the age I am now to realize all this..And when I really needed to remember some lessons I didnt.. and now wish I had. But I guess that is all part of life. Perhaps all his "secret" lessons were really meant for me now when he perhaps knew, that this is when I would REALLY need them. To make me as strong as i am today. That "attitude" i guess you would say that he put in me, but my mother did as well... For being an adopted child.. I have to say, The influence that both my parents put in me was preparing me for this now.. My mothers determination, to do and get it done. The times we had carrots.. and the "JUST TRY THEM" that she never failed to tell me EVERY time she had them. I STILL hate carrots, ICK , yet I tried one every time..just to show her that I would try. Her cooking & sewing as well .. I can make anything and operate 5 different types of sewing machines and I do consider myself a good cook. nothing fancy but good home cookin...:-) Yet, my sister raised with me , she and I are NOTHING alike at all.. we never got along..Very little and not for very long.. we havent spoken now in 16 years pretty soon.. My sister that broke her leg, Shirley, Is my blood sister, we were not raised together and didnt meet till in our 30's.. I still am amazed at how much we are alike tho..we both are excellent sewers..and love to cook.. we both wear at least a dozen rings. and each have had a sewing business.. I find that so amazing. We both have the same sort of attitude as well.. We wont settle for less than what we know we are worth... and me? well I'm worth ALOT !!! :-) lol..and so is she...shes a great sister...Its so strange, when we get together and talk about my mother, or her mother or OUR mother.. lol...We have gotten some strange looks at times. It is raining today and what a gloomer.. Our winter has been so mild SO FAR,, everyone knows anything is still possible to hit us tho..winter is NOT over. This rain sure makes my stumps ache and the phantoms just have a field day.. I wonder if the day will ever come that I wont have them.. I am amazed sometimes at how badly they can hurt.. The icepick like stabs in my heel or the pressure of them feeling like they are being pushed shorter .. Someone told me that when the invisible legs feel like there is no leg part and feel shorter up to the amputation..that the phantoms will stop.. I know my feet always are twisted or feel like I am standing on my toes, and honestly,, I really HATE it.. That NEVER stops..there is not any time that I dont feel my feet.. I know where they are all the time. .. Well these invisible feet are going to invisibly walk over to that bed behind me and lay it down and watch tv.. I have some nice snack crackers over there I think I need to taste. :-) and QVC might have something I really need to see..It is such a good thing I dont have a credit card lol.. No - even if I did, I wouldnt just buy something.. It has to be something major I just HAD to have.. so far there has only been things I would LIKE to have, those apple chips..or steak burgers or that lovely black silk sequin top..or the black leather skirt.. *SIGH* see? good thing lol.. :-) I will just have some crackers in bed.. works ok for me :-) Y'all have a good one y'hear? luv ya.. and thanks :-) Always, Lois*** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...