~The Transition~

I get asked alot about the transition from being a person with

legs to being an amputee.. I don't think I was really aware of the

fact that I was adapting, I was in such a state of depression ..

I was more upset because the dust bunnies wouldn't play

with me.. than anything else..so I dont think I was really paying

attention ! I was in a chair before I lost my legs.. They

were so weak.. I couldnt trust them at all .. By the time I was

put into the first rehab I didnt walk at all..... I could but was not

safe. I couldnt stand for very long either. So I was steady
learning how to live in a chair...but didnt realize it ...

Once I did lose my right leg.. is when the depression got even

worse, and I dont remember alot.. but I do remember some

of it..and it was most certainly NOT funny at the time.. I felt I

was losing my mind .. and then snap out of it only to keep going

back and forth.. but the point is .. during all this time I am really

adjusting to handling my self with one leg and living in a chair

with out really knowing I was adjusting.. I had fun trying to run

over those bunnies LOL.. little buggars were fast tho let me

tell you..:-)

I guess we all have to adjust and adapt to changes in our lives

in our own way.. Its ok for me to say what I did and how I did

but what works for me may not for someone else because we

are not the same person...we each are affected in our own way.

But I think if we see ourselves just as what we are.. and like what

we see.. and accept ourselves ..THAT is the way I get thru it any

way.. I tell myself,, knowing it IS NOT true..i do on here .. i say

every day.. I AM GORGEOUS... and I have adapted.. I liked my

self before..I was just as picky a dresser too.. I loved to sew..mainly

because I knew NO ONE else would BE like me..lol.. well thats how

it is tho.. NO one is me.. cuz I AM, and I like who I am... :-) You

won't find another weeble like me any where LOL.. :-) well not
one as GORGEOUS anyway :-D

I am kinda glad I lived in Goofy Land during that transition time tho..

Knowing how I am , such little patience.. I would probly get so

frustrated at myself who knows how hard a time I would have had

to really LEARN all of it...Being in Goofy Land and not eating almost

did get me in serious trouble because of the extreme weight loss so

I am glad when they told me that they were going to tube feed me I

was in my right mind.! I probly would have laffed it off and who knows

where I really would be now ..So everything worked out the way it was

ment to I guess.. Goofy Land had its ups and downs.. it was funny tho

some of the things now I can laff, but at the time- wow-I mean, it was

scarey.. People hiding in my closet..yellow ants all over my bed.. my

stuffed animals STARING at me LOL.. its funny now specially when I

accused them of hiding my room cuz I couldnt find my way back lol..

Well that is how I made the transition.. I did, but didnt know i did lol..

Well, there was no lunch today, some holiday i think..so I am really

hungry.. Rae came today..she cant come tomorrow she took 2 of

her kitties to be neutered and has to pick them up and she doesnt

want them to be home alone just getting home from hospital like

any good mummy would be lol...welll they're her kids lol..So I'm

off to get some dinner.. Dutch is waiting looking at me ,, I can

see what hes thinking " OK OK COME ONNNNNN" Kids :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA!!! & THANKS :-) !!!

Always, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...