~Early Post-I'm Tired~

I had a conversation with Rae friday about Devotees and

tried to explain to her about them.. When I stated the words..

"there are men and women that are attracted to disabled

people".. her initial reaction was a frown and a look of distaste

like EWWWW...thats what I saw on her face..and I automatically

and immediately went on the defensive...I will defend devotees...

NOT ALL..no.. but there are some..let me tell you..are some of

the dearest friends I could ever have..

I sat and looked at Rae, and asked her."WELL... WHY is THAT

initial attraction to a person any more wrong than a attraction to

someone because they have big breasts..or big shoulders.. or

whatever, that makes you notice them and FEEL an attraction

to them?" Because of the general assumption that has been for

centuries that people in chairs are totally DEFECTIVE? For an

example I said that when I was in my 30's and in Hawaii at my

sisters for Christmas, saw two of her guests..an older woman,

very nice..and her husband was alot younger, and I thought

WHAT does he see in someone OLDER than him.?..He saw the

person..the inside...once you see the initial attraction..and you

continue to delve into that person to KNOW Them and see

past the initial attraction that there is a person inside there and

that is what a devotee does.. MOST of them...some cant get past

the initial attraction , which is the disability ...

MANY devotees once they see the initial attraction- the disability-

continue to see only that... and then it turns into a fetish, a control

issue..that they see only the stumps or affliction and ONLY that.

IF you chat and all you talk about is how your appearance turns

them on ..but when there is NO OTHER talk thats the BIG difference

I know many devotees that I chat with when I can, we talk about so

many things.. its amazing..but we both know the attraction is there.

But there are many I have chatted to or emailed and all they want to

talk about are sexual things..or want photos or videos as many as

they can get and there is NO other talk..about me the person, and

the other parts of my life..and never talk about theirs, I can tell...but

Are not the disabled person attracted to the devotee/admirer?
I think we are...So what does that make us?

I personally think there is just too much of an issue about all

this myself...I know Im gonna make some enemies with what

I am going to say next , but the devotees that have this wild

OBSESSION.....This is such a 2 edged sword...and the

bad part is...no one can really SOLVE it...The MAIN thing is

we all just respect each other..Not play games..be honest..

and true.. and just say what the hell you think...And IF some

one doesnt like what they see or hear..well then DONT LOOK

and DONT LISTEN..thats what I say... IF your a dev, a amp,

whatever.. IF YOUR happy, honest, open, then WHERE is

the problem? I can pick out the players..sometimes it does

take me awhile and I will admit I have gotten my feelings really

hurt.. BUT I am not going to base how ONE Treats me- that ALL

are going to be that way..Law of averages says that is NOT

possible...

Those of you that are the honest, loyal..good guys/gals lol...hey

what the ones that dont understand its THEIR problem...I made

that statement years ago..about the young guy wanting the older

woman..a FYI ..my last husband and I were married 12 years.

lived together for 2, and guess what? I was 20 years older than

him...go figure I KNOW what that Hawaiian guy saw ..HER..the

sweet lady she was. I dont begrudge ONE minute of that time with

him even though he turned out to be an ass..lol...ahhh live and

learn.. I guess I have it easier with all these ups and downs..

and the roller coaster crap out there since I am in this chair...

lol.. All I'm saying is..Guys/gals..cuz your devs? THAT is NOT

a BAD thing...there are good and bad people no matter WHAT

categories theyre in... I'll stick up for you good guys...those that

I KNOW are buggars..well.. I'm NOT in touch with them either

so...

OK enough.. 2 times now some deep subjects but I really get

so upset with all this added CRAP..when its ALL hard no matter

WHO or WHAT we are..we just have to make lemonade when

we get these lemons thrown at us.. well lemon pie would be

good too~~!! At least Rae's nose lifted and her ewwww changed

to .."Hmmm yeah..thats right, people ARE just people"...

And thus endth my sermon for this sunday lol...Im starved, tired

and ready to lay it down and get the weight off this weebly butt..

Hope y'all had a great week end.. My sis called all is well on her

home front, all is well on mine too I hope it is on yours.Nitey nite...

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? LUV YA...& thanks :-)

Always, Lois****

.May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...