~DayDream or Fantasy?~

I realize there are those out there that fantasize about a person like me..and I accept that .. I have no problem with it at all.. I fantasize about a lot of things..I think we all do..I - however call them daydreams...The things that you think of while you're awake..some say..Daydreams are wishes your heart makes. but what are night dreams then? aren't they about the same thing except you really have no control over what you dream but mostly aren't night dreams of things that you desire or want?...and are they not fantasy's? A fantasy is something you hope or want to happen..but think that it is NOT possible that's why its called a fantasy...or a daydream... When devotees..or anyone, find that thing or person that fills that desire, or fantasy or dream...and it turns out to be REAL and a person..some run..afraid to even consider that THIS is a REAL person..she / he. is ALIVE..and I have a chance to talk to this person..ask her/him questions about their life.. how they live..what they do ..KNOW them..see photos..watch them on video or cam..know that that fantasy is a reality..like ME.. I AM a reality.. I AM real..not a daydream..And I am only a email away or here at this blog.. I'll answer your questions.. I'll tell you just how it is to be like me..how I feel..how I do..how I have FEELINGS... Very deep feelings.. I love all my friends.. and I enjoy knowing that I have them..I love getting the mail.. reading all the encouraging things.. and help I get to help solve dilemmas I have here.. its wonderful, but I'M REAL.... I have found that some when the reality sinks in that "HEY.. she is real ...she is what I had dreamed..fantasized someone like her would be like..and I arouse an interest..of what ever kind of curiosity..romantic or what ever.. Its all normal isnt it? But some RUN..they get scared of me perhaps...I have NO idea..and I have to honestly say I DO NOT understand it.. I got a letter from a very sweet devotee...but because I stirred up desires and fantasys he had..he felt the need to stay away rather than let me be what I am.. a PERSON.. and Friend.. That kind of hurt my feelings.. I know I am this but am I not a friend too? cant I be that? Do I have to ONLY be a dream or a fantasy? I am an adult..I guess I have no shame..But I feel to talk to me..or ask questions..is also a learning experience especially if it is something you are curious about..how else do you learn? Does it all have to be a sexual or anything other than what it is? learning.. accepting and full filling a desire that you have.. I see nothing wrong with it... I just get on these soapboxes dont I? well I am just me..and I like to know what makes people tick..and If I am a fantasy ok.. but I am a person..very very real..and I hope all these daily posts show you that..DONT ..please..be afraid of me...I'm human just like all of us..IF I stir feelings of friends..or what ever is that NOT a good thing? i think it is.. and I need ALL the friends I can get..and I love hearing from everyone..I'm just me and I'm so gorgeous n sweet n all that good stuff lolol I didn't need to tell you that did I? I'm just a rolling sticky sparkly weeble...If you coulda seen me do that header on my bed this morning..I just tipped right over and hit my face on the bed lol..I had to laugh.. I felt like I was drunk hahaha so weebly like that ..ahh the joys of being short , fat and squatty..all butt and NOBODY hahaha I HAD to say that...Dont be afraid of me...see? I'm harmless..maybe I should add NUTZ to that description too? lol...:-) hittin publish now after I climb down..:-) bloody splinters on this soap box..Raife..he will have to sand and varnish it for me lol..so next time I slide my butt up here it will be smoother.. I have NO doubt there will be a next time too lol... Nitey nite... Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya..& THANKS!!!! :-) Always, Lois**** May God Bless you today, I'm so honored to call you friend, I pray the Lord will keep you safe, Until I write again...