The picture up there is of me when I was about..hmm 2 maybe? not sure..not long after I was adopted..If you look closely by my eye you can see a dark spot and see that it is shaped like a butterfly. I think its rather pretty, for a long time I didnt- but that day my dad told me why I had it I accepted it better..the link to that story is over on the right over there- says My Stories.. But growing up with that was not easy..Kids are very honest and to the point. I was Very self conscious since I can remember, to when I remember the very first things..Which is hard to say what I remember myself and what I was told.. I do know I remember kindergarten..that was awful I had to sit next to a boy that used to pull my hair and make me yell and I would get in trouble.I Know thats my memory lol...When you grow up with any kind of stigmatism..or something out of the ordinary I think it makes you able to withstand looks and the likes. I am not saying that you ever get to like it..but you know that people are going to stare at you..Perhaps that is why I am so outspoken I might as well be I stick out anyway..and NOW? well fooey I stick out like a sore thumb now no matter where I go..So maybe me starting out with this birthmark..was a way to start the wheels turning so to speak :-) Talk about a rainy, gloomy day today ..wow..I mean I KNOW when the weather is going to change..these 2 stumps sure let me know..My right hand isnt very far behind either it lets me know as well..I dont mind rainy days as the rain hitting the air vent in the bath room I can hear and its like rain on a tin roof that sound can make you so relaxed..Rainy days are like snow days you get to stay in and just do stuff or not do nuthin at all except be lazy.. I phoned Donnie a bit ago and hes not well..sinus..hes miserable. they act up on him alot, Ive never had that but I guess its almost like that cold I had a while back..I still have NOT gotten rid of that cough..Neither has Raelynn.. I was trying to think of a way to take the slipperyness off that chrome part in front of my chair that I hold on to when I move back and forth , it is so slippery..Its why I slip so much I think..I found 2 things on the back of my chair last nite.. I had reached around to see if Dutch's string was caught on the back of my chair and there are 2 things back there that are so sharp it cut my finger when I touched it..I got out of my chair and looked and it seems they used 2 of those zip ties to anchor down the sides of the back of my chair and cut them off..they are hard plastic and left a VERY sharp spot back there..If one of the boys hit that they could get seriously cut.. I did my finger with just a light touch on it..I will have to have that checked as well..Oh they didnt come to fix my chair..this week they will let me know..Now you see why it took 8 months to get this chair from them.. They dont have a very good reputation..but none of these medical supply places do.they know there arent that many that our insurances will approve.. *sigh* joys of chair life..what can I say? lol.. . I do know what to say :-) its time to eat..I didnt all day today I didnt know what I wanted I was going to make barbecue but I didnt have any bread or rolls and well you have to have that for bbq..well manwich is what its called its pretty good...I like it. but I dont know what I want so I know what will happen I will open the freezer and sit and stare at it for 10 minutes trying to decide what I wanted and which was faster to fix lol..I know but thats the joys of single life..I can eat what I want when I want and HOW i want lol..and I want..but I JUST dont KNOW WHAT lol..decisions decisions..i'll ask Dutch, he will know, and hes already headed that way ..I think he can read..:-) knows Im almost done here... Nitey Nite Y'all have a good one now Y'hear ? Luv ya & thanks !!.. ALways, Lois****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...