~Holiday Weekend Ahead~

Its our Memorial Day week end here. I got to thinking of all our soldiers

over there that have been hurt and brought back missing limbs..I wish I

could help them.. Maybe especially if they are having a hard time to

adjust and to be accepted.. I see shows where the first thought a new

amputee has is "who is going to want me now" more worried about

being accepted, which is understandable..But you have to accept

yourself first before anyone else can.. Only You know what you can and

cant do.. I know my limitations..I hate to admit that I have any, yes, but

being in this chair now I have many. And ones I have NO choice but to

accept.. Perhaps its because all this happened to me at an older age,

where I am more secure in myself and know my capabilities moreso

than say a person in their 20's or 30's.. They dont see things as some

one like me would... I dont see next week or next month.. only today. I

do look ahead and plan as far as money or financial matters I have no

choice..I HAVE to..but as far as anything else..I dont really like to have

SCHEDULED things.. I like doing as they happen.. call last minute say

"hey I'm coming over" or the like..is fine with me.. When I have had

appointments to the doctor or where ever I would wake up worrying

about it..and plan every minute so that when that scheduled appoint

ment was due I was ready...I hate to be late or make someone late,

just like I hate to wait.. lol...I know im an odd duck...ok weeble lol...

I have a friend that went over to Germany to help our soldiers that

came back from the war, he is a specialist with artery problems..

He relayed to me how many there are..and I feel so badly for them

since this is NOT easy to accept.. Your life changes so drastically,,

not only yours but those that are close to you as well.. because its not

that your different really...you are still you..but your being is altered..

like me.. I require more care now if someone were to come and take

me out.. They have to handle my chair.. there is no horn blowing out

side with me running out the door..I wish..but thats not possible any

more.. I think THAT is a major issue..for me anyway. Not having my

own vehicle. I would love to have my own-even if I didnt drive it.

I know a few amputees dont even drive..but have a van..so that their

caregivers can take them out or their friends.. I would love that.. And

Raelynn has already said she would drive it.. doesn't have to have

hand controls even... it would be nice..then its more MY taking some

one if its my vehicle.. I would love to get in a van..take my boys and

go and visit friends I have in other states.. that would be so nice to do...

ahhhh wishful thinking on my part for a vehicle..I priced those puppies

and WOW..I mean mega bucks.. I Think having the bus and living in

that would be the way to go..Then I could travel all over for the rest of

my days LOL..Id really be a gypsy lol.. Would be nice to travel like that

though...OK..who's got a bus, they can lend me ? :-)

There are going to be so many barbecues this week end, all that good

food, the bratwurst and burgers, n chicken n ribs..and potatoe salad....

MMM makes me hungry just thinking about it.We had such good times

with my ex and his family on holidays we always gathered at his mom's,

she lives on the St. Joe River with her significant other..Lovely home.

overlooks the water, from a deck and its wonderful..she has a swing

out there that I made a cushion for..with matching back cushion.. I put

a little like skirty ruffle that hung over the edge and as you went back

and forth would hit the back of your legs. I remember when I was little

sitting on my grandmothers porch on her swing..and the feel of that

ruffle as I moved my feet to keep the swing moving. I enjoyed the deck

and the whole time, well in the summer, we all stayed out on the deck

was a great place. In the winter was not accessible but from the inside

Davids mom kept all sorts of bird feeders out there for the cardinals

and chickadees that fed there on the deck when she would put a pan

out there with birdseed on top the snow. That deck was a joy all year

round.My ex and I never hesitated when his mom asked if we wanted

to babysit the house for them for a weekend.. We were ready, willing

and very able.. especially having the pontoon AND hot tub lol... Usually

at the closing of these get togethers it seems it always ended with a

ride down the river to the dam, which took almost 2 hrs, one way if you

didnt rush...and we didnt.. everyone except Davids mom & her friend

would go..she had 4 kids.. and we all piled on that thing and off we

would go..just having big fun.. radio going..laughing, joking..and some

times we even stopped to let the kids fish.. Davids sister had 3 little

ones..and his brother had 1 , his other sis 2..so we were a boat full..

but it was a big pontoon and made for alot of people... Was big fun

for all the summer gatherings and not to mention Jims'. great cooking

on that grill he loved..

Seems I always end these writing about food..Hmmm I wonder what

that means? think some underlying thing I have with food? lol...naaah

we ALL like food..only a few other things better lol.. :-) I am NOT going

to be specific on THAT either..even though I do say alot hahaha...well

lunch was as Raelynn said.."Lois, I don't know exactly what this is..but,

dont look real good what shall I do with it?" :-) ok..3 guess what I told

her, first 2 don't count :-) I am not sure what I want. Its the week end.

and of course my standard treat, my fries and gravy, I think tomorrow I

will have those tho..I had thought of a pot of beans for the weekend - -

sounds good.. I'm hungry lol.. ok hitting publish.. Y'all can go

get a snack now too, your done reading this :-) nitey nite !!!! :-D

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? Luv ya!!! and Thanks!! :-)

Always,Lois ****

May God Bless you today,

I'm so honored to call you friend,

I pray the Lord will keep you safe,

Until I write again...