~Im MAD~

Hectic day today..I mean I thought I was going to totally explode

a few times.. I cannot believe the trouble I am having getting my

power chair up and running! I told them I cannot risk a heart attack

trying to fight being able to maneuver in my home because some

one isnt doing their job..meaning the paperwork, just pushing it

aside and promising to get to it later..and never do..I bet I made

6 calls today about this chair..I shouldnt have to do this to be able

to have my chair usable..Sure I have my manual..but Its so bloomin

HARD to get around on this carpet..How hard is it to send some

one ..let them say "the lady needs the chair replaced" and its

done! no..3 months..August this started too! I dunno..but some

one better do something pretty soon...I'm MAD..:-(

I called the landlord about the windows again and to remind him

to fill out the paperwork so the grant will start-if he wants his rent

he needs to..If he would fill out this stuff, Que said I could maybe

get the 400 I paid back! I could get that freezer I need or put it

towards a washer dryer which probly would be the best thing to

do..Its a tough decision which to do first lol. I reminded Chris

about the windows again too.The draft is awful.. He promised

he would "get to it"..I told him I have no doubt he will, but I sure

would like it to be sometime in the near future.I called my boy-

asked Donnie to come over.. he did ..I knew he would .. I didnt

even have to bribe him with food! lol..I did give him some nice

roast beef tho and some chocolate candy, hes a chocoholic, he

fixed my window..pushed the top back up taped it all around..

then went and taped up this vent in the kitchen..that he said was

wide open he could see out side! so he got the good trusty

DUCT TAPE..and fixed that too.. I told him..every time he sees

my name on his caller ID I bet his first thoughts are 'what does

she want NOW !' lol..and honestly I sure wouldnt blame him..He

commented on how nice its lookin tho..said I am really working

hard .. Hes a good kid..one of the best..

The girl that delivers lunch today ..came in and looked at me..

and bless her heart was afraid to ask she said.."what happened

to your legs?" I explained it to her..she was so nice..her first

words to me were.."well you SURE do good, taking care of your

self, living alone , your doing great." Now how sweet is that? I

thanked her and told her not to be afraid to ask questions..that

that was the only way you will learn what you dont know.. I tell

everyone ..you want to know anything about this weeble and how

I live, or cope with this life..just ASK..I will tell you just how much

FUN I am having.. lol.. No when you dont know or understand..thats

the only way to find an answer ..ask..most will tell you..me..I would

rather you come up to me and ask what happened than sit across

a room from me stealing glances or looking at me with that look

on your face of "wonder what happened to her" well come and

ask me Its not a big deal..they were only LEGS, so now theyre

gone..if you want to know how it feels inside outside or all around.

I do NOT mind telling you at all, got questions? ASK... :-)

I write this blog..for me..for my friends and I think to maybe let it

out just what this life is really like..lots of us all face this differently

I didnt really realize that today..until I read a story..about a girl

and her reaction to her leg loss..and I felt so bad for her ..the bad

thoughts she had of what will i do..who will want me.. Well for me

I think my main conern was NOT who was going to want me or

desire me again so much as "what are ya gonna do now girlie?"

as far as living and surviving.a job.what? that was MY main

concern.How was I gonna drive..get anywhere ..get a job..LIVE.

not what man is going to see me as beautiful..or desire me. I

hate to be mean. but THAT was not my concern at all..I wont

say it hasnt come up.I have thought it lots of times when all these

5 years Ive been a dak and I have invited devs here to meet me

and NOT but TWO have come here... I have no idea why.. but well

my life doesnt stop because i cannot find a mate..and I am not real

sure I want one. I mean 3 times I tried that. But I think a companion

to come and visit and to spend time with.. that would be nice ..very

nice. but..if that doesnt happen well I still am ticking and my life is

going on.. and Its not that bad. I have fun..i do.. I laugh alot..and I

have tons of friends that know I love em.. and well I am ok, this will

do..but if my knight finds me and wants to carry me off well- I may

go! lol.. No- whos to know what is ahead..and I dont wanna know..

surprise me..lol let me tell you I have had MY share and i think 2

other people's share too of surprises lol..Ahh life is good..it is.

i love it, its all good :-)

Im warm and I am happy..i gave my boys a little extra treat and
they are purrin kitties.. all curled up one on the couch and one on
the back of the recliner..guess whos where? lol..ohh an meowmeow
is on the floor in front of the recliner..we are all here and accounted
for..its 7 pm and I know where my children are..I wonder why that
commercial sticks ? at 10 pm on tv. it would come on .."its 10 pm.
do you know where your children are?" i think of that alot.. I know
where mine are right over there not far from me, be nice if all kids
were this close to their moms.. well time for me to send some mail,
get some tea and go and watch tv with my pillows, we are all
'snug as bugs in a rug'..Nitey nite. :-)

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya.. and thanks, thanks..

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..