~I Cant Go~ :-(

Today was a pretty good day and I promised myself I would be

nice and try to stay calm and not let things get to me. But that

was not to be, and there was no way I could stop it, and it was

not even my fault. I was feelings were hurt badly today for no

reason..and sadly I cannot do anything about it.. I could..but

I have decided it is not worth the time and energy to do any

thing, that the person was just an insensitive clod, and is not

worth the effort to do anything about it.. I could but I wont..
But I wont go and hear that concert of the Highland Parks

Strings Orchestra in Chicago either.. sad to be denied

acess to a public concert because of personal feelings I

think..and to be lied to that the building was not acessible

and it is VERY much accessible.. not very fair, and by the

general manger of the Orchestra..i feel is discriminaton

against me and thats not very fair...really hurt my feelings..

My poor sister is having the worst time..She bought a lot of

new appliances , stove, fridge, washer, dryer, from Menards

and they are all Maytag..They are only months old and all of

them have fallen apart and Menards wont fix them or let her

return them and Maytag says the same thing.. I can remember

when there used to be an ad on TV about the Maytag repair

man and how he would be there right away to fix their things.

that shows you how things have changed.. She spent all

that money and now they wont do anything for her that's so

sad..and my sister is MAD.. shes worse than me when it

comes to MAD.. we both have horrible tempers..

I called and checked on my boy today and we had some

laughs.. He lives on a lake you know.. and he is SO bored

being stuck at home.. he cant drive is his right leg that was

burnt.. He was telling me the ice is off the lake..so he went

down onto his dock and was going to fish..He took the dog

with him..this is a big Chocolate lab now.. Donnie said..he

was sitting on the dock and he had his crutches laying next

to him and Jerky almost knocked one of them in the water!

He said "gran hes a retriever but I don't think he would have

gotten my crutch back for me, and I woulda been stuck out

there till Dawn came home at 5 oclock!" we laughed.. I

could just see him out there trying to hobble back to the house

on one leg- one crutch..and then try to explain what happened

to his other crutch that it was at the bottom of the lake! hes

so miserable being cooped up in that house.. Good thing

he has a computer..

I woke up and I really felt pretty good these pills seem to be

doing their job..I know its too soon to really tell, but I think the

neurontin..which is really for neuropathy helped.. when I

opened my eyes and saw what time it was..7 am.. I was

glad I had slept so late.. Theresa came about 10:30 from

CMH..shes so nice..and I told her of my 'conflict' this morning

over what was just a simple inquiry as to the accessability

of a building.. and wanting to hear a noted violinist play.

I was very upset when she got here..and of course she knows

my medical history and all of what is going on ..she keeps

tabs kinda ...as she said to just let it go and not let it bother

me or hurt my feelings which it already had.. But I did agree

with her.. I have too many other things that I need to think

about and things that got me upset I desperately need to

avoid.. and I agreed ..The boy wasn't as much of a pest today

and only just laid by her side..usually he pulls stuff out of her

pocket or lays on her paperwork..and is just a pain..I think

she enjoys it tho.. LB just sort of winked at her from over on

his chair of course..

We had violent storms this morning and then the sun came

out and dried up all the rain and the itsy bitsy spider went

up the spout again lol..that's such an old song.. but I think

of it every time it does rain...it turned out to be a really

nice day.. the sun was warm and the boys love to lay in

it and get all heated up...and its hopefully maybe spring.

I look out the windows at the yard and boy..theres a lot of

yard work out there.. I get my power chair in time I could

do it.. At least TRY to do it.. I will need some tools tho..

rake etc..I bet I could do it..just be a slow job lol.. but I

bet I could.. the word is TRY.. :-)

I know this is not my usual LONG drawn out post but I

am really tired and getting upset wears me down even

more.. and I do need to go to bed.. lunch was awful..so

I am gonna eat a cookie..:-) they always make me

feel better :-) "Nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now y'hear? love ya. and thanks!

Always, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..