~Snowy Can~ :-)

It snowed hard today off and on most of it.. I sat and looked out

the window watching my garbage can fill with snow. The men

that empty it just take the lid off and drop it on the ground, take

the bag out and leave. I called the company this morning to

find out the balance of my bill I owe them, I owe for 3 months,

mar. April and may which is with the balance of the deposit

alot. I offered to send them 60.oo which is all I can spare.
I did ask as to why they cant seem to put the lid back on and

the girl said she had no idea but would put a note on my

account that I would appreciate it if they did.. I explained to

her that I was in a chair and I couldn't go out there and put it

back on, I knew no one that was coming here that would, as
Penny called in sick today and I wont see anyone now until

Monday. I could call Donnie, but no way would I do that. I

hope they will start to put it back..last week it filled with snow

and rain both..I could see perhaps if it was summer to keep

smells or what ever, but in the winter? I really don't think at

15 degrees out my garbage can would smell.. lol.

I went to bed early and I have to say was a rough night last

nite-I do think its my mattress.and weather. I was awake almost

every few hours..my back, hips..and stumps ached so bad.

I had this same problem with my other bed and I think its

really the mattress is too soft..The bed I have now is a single

one they gave me from the shelter, its not a new bed.. I

decided on it as it would give me more room in my bedroom.

I seriously think that is the problem.. I called Adult Protective

Services and asked about a new one, and when Sandra

told me I would have to go through the same routine and go

to my Dr again ..and get a prescription for one..I'll go with out.

I cant go through that again, like I did with and still am with

my power chair..I cant do that again..I have to eliminate all

these stress factors. I will later see if I can bring my old one

back in..well up out of the basement, half is there and half

in the garage, will mean less room.but the less stress is

really more important for me now..

I bet I was awake more than I slept..and I did have to do my

stumpercises quite a few times..that really helped.. I tried

to lay on my side and its really hard to turn when I havent

anything but the sides of the bed to grab onto to turn. I have

to sit up..then scoot a bit so im sideways, then lay down..

then pull a pillow between my stumps and hope Ive found

the right position or have to sit back up and do the same

thing again, with out legs to push myself around in bed its

the only way I can really change positions unless I just go

back onto my side..but then I still have to move over a tad

or fall off the bed! lol I have a single bed now..not a double

like before so I dont lay sideways and my kingsize is gone..

Its not easy,, and the thing that really amazes me, is I did

not have the slightest inkling that it would be this hard..or

that once my legs were taken that the pain and ache would

continue daily, hourly and sometimes just constantly, I had

thought once they were gone..that was it..no more pain..

how wrong I was..

I have to say tho..my new armchair thingie around my potty is

so wonderful..Im not afraid of my potty now.. I got a different

riser..one that will anchor to the seat with a screw in the front

to secure it down better than relying on 2 inch squares of

sticky velcro..that does not work. To have the arms on each

side has made such a huge difference.. I had to be so very

careful when I transferred before when the seat riser would

tip and felt loose and no way to really scoot forward with

nothing to hold on to but my chair beind me..I guess now it

is really a potty chair..and its really great, I am SO very

grateful I have it ..and whomever invented it .I say "good job".

This post is early, but Im tired and going to try to find a good

spot on my bed.. I would get onto my couch ..but I don't have

risers under it and its too low, plus the fact my TV is in my

bedroom.. I do have to get darker curtains tho, the shadows

on the wall at night drive the boy nuts if he wakes and sees

them..its as bad as when the clock summons him.. They are

both acting kind of clingy, almost demanding attention when

the are up, and that isnt really like them..they seem to be

hovering..I love it.. but makes me wonder why... if they

are sensing something .. animals are very perceptive ..and

if they sense a problem. I don't know. I do know I love the

close snugglies ..they lay next to me the second I lay myself

down.. My kids love their GORGEOUS WEEBLE Mom..

lol..

I will say it but I wont be doing it for a while I hope but my

finger finds that eyes shut button it seems no matter what.

"Nitey Nite"... :-)

Y'all have a good one now , Y'hear? love ya .. and thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..