~Scarey Alone~

I still am not up to snuff and I feel fevery today, I get to feeling a

little better then the next minute I notice I really don't feel very

good at all. Then I have to make a B-Line to go and lay down.
Its not a feeling that I can put down into words other than to say

its a blah feeling. up and down. I didn't sleep real well, the same

thing of just not getting comfy and my hips starting to ache.I did

notice thru all this though that being by myself with no one by

me and being so sick Its kind of a scarey feeling. The only two

that were looking after me were my boys, not that they did not

do a good job, they did, but its not quite the same thing as a

person in the next room or someone if I called out would get

me something or answer me back..Well the boys do answer,

LB is very vocal and will meow, but I still am not the very best

at KittyEnglish. I try but I havent quite mastered it. But it is a

sort of uneasy feeling when you are laying in bed and know

there is no one to really answer or to help you when you are

very very ill...

Lori is due here tomorrow probly about 10 she said she would

be here and of course Penny is due.. Dawn came by today for

a little while, she was going to the store, seems Donald was

out of Rice Krispies for is breakfast, now starting a day off

wrong for him is no cereal.. like the rest of us with coffee. Hes

doing good though as well as can be expected for him..Donnie

is not one to be down for long and has not had anything very

serious serious happen to him so hes not used to being so

restricted in his activities.. They did put the pontoon into the

lake today she said, so hes happy and ready to start fishing

off of that now. The lake he is on is a really good one for fish.

He usually always catches something when he goes. His dad

loves to come and fish off the pontoon..but then that to me is

the very best way to fish, so much easier than in a boat, so

much room to move around and not all cramped up.

Ive been working on a story and being sick I have really

gotten behind on it.. I havent written too many stories as of

late Its been quite a while since I have..The one I am working

on is going to be really good and I am co-writing it with a

dear friend of mine that is a very good writer. We have each

written parts then we put them together and edit and it is

turning out to be really good I think.

Its really nice out side today and the sun is shining, I bet most

everyone is in the middle of spring fever. I know my sister gets

it really bad, Stanley has been in Haiti for 2 weeks and is back,

She always gets new flowers to plant but I think she is getting

to where she plants flowers that she doesn't have to replace

every year. She has the most beautiful yard all summer with

all the flowers and especially roses she plants. They have a

big yard and a nice deck and a screened in porch that she

uses all summer as she is like me and loves sitting outside

in the evenings.. She used to have a swing that I loved to sit

on..reminded me of my grandmothers that she had on her

front porch that I sat on many many times..

I havent eaten anything today and really don't know what I

want. I know as soon as I do eat I will get tired and head

back to my bed again... I have to send Penny to the store

tomorrow to get a few things..the boys are almost out of

cat food.. I was so worried when I read about that cat food

that was not safe..thank goodness my boys don't eat any

of those listed..I only give them Friskies, canned they seem

to like that the best..I tried a lot of others and they do know

what they want..Dutch if he doesn't like something will try

to bury it..like he does some of the lunches I get from COA.

He knows the good stuff from the bad..

I am hungry tho and I am going to go and fix myself some

thing..Im early again and I have no choice ..If I wait till later

there is no guarantee I will be able to make it back here

so I have to do this while I can.. The photo is one of the

ones I took for last week I didn't have the energy to dig

out my cam and hook it up and try to look half way decent

for a picture..and if I look like I feel..well I would give every

one night mares Im sure :-) Food time, TV time and

Time to say "nitey Nite"

Y'all have a good one now Y'hear? love ya and Thanks :-)

ALways, Lois ****

God Bless you is my prayer today,

I'm so honored to call you "friend";

I pray the Lord will keep you safe

until I write again..